Chapter 30

                  Chapter – Thirty

     ~~~~~ Kylie – Confessions ~~~~~

     Kylie wanted the day to go perfectly and went out of her way to ensure the success of the event. There was no reason for her plan to fail for she had created a check-list to make sure everything was taken care of and nothing was neglected or forgotten. She made sure everything was perfectly laid out and was pleased to hear and see that everything was set .It was with the help of Anthony and Samantha, the cheer squad who were eager to help in whatever possible, and the many athletes who had promised their other halves the perfect night, that Kylie was able to put together one of the best proms the school has ever seen.

Kylie had spoken to both Rachael and Mike about wanting to borrow their personal limousine out of the necessity of not wanting to spend more money than what she already had. After a quiet talk amongst themselves, Rachael and Mike gladly agreed and also offered to pay for anything else that was needed, but Kylie had already paid for what she had envisioned when asking Alexandria to prom. Her only concern to that point had been the cost of the limousine since the companies she had phoned were incredibly expensive and would not even allow them the luxury to drink bottled water due to the high cost of the vehicle.

…

     Rachael and Mike were happy as they helped the girl’s prepare for their Prom remembering their own prom night as they visited clothing stores and flower stores looking for the perfect corsage for both girls. As they had been involved in the preparations, the question proposed by Mike made them delay their plans and consider what exactly the night had to offer their young girls. It was then that the Smith’s got together and decided to talk to the girl’s individually.

Mike was on the verge of a long talk with Kylie about what to expect during prom and what might happen after, and to Kylie’s embarrassment he had brought props that went with his rehearsed speech.

Kylie’s eyes were shot open as Mike started to tell her about protection and about same-sex relations cutting open a condom and slicing the bottom of it to create a dental dam.

She concluded that Mike had gone out of his way to research the topic and seemed extremely uncomfortable as he talked about it to Kylie who was in no better shape than he.

Over all Kylie understood what Mike was trying to teach her and had a better understanding thanks to it. Kylie had always been told to use protection and only have relations with the person who is worthy of her.

She understood it all, and yet Kylie knew Alexandria was the one. She knew the moment she heard the words ‘I Love You’ come out of the girl’s puffy lips after they had been kissing for an entire hour breaking their current record of 45 minutes. She knew the day Alexandria kissed her forehead when Kylie complained of a terrible migraine. She knew the day Alexandria stayed up all night helping her with her spirit week posters that turned out better than anyone had hoped and again pulled an all-nighter the following day to help her with her never ending AP Physics homework. Kylie just knew in her heart that Alexandria Santiago was the one who she could give herself to, all of herself.

After their talk Kylie shook her head knowing that if she thought about it more, Alex would not wear her Prom dress for long going against Mike’s impeccable sex-talk. It was a miracle she could keep her hands off the girl on a regular basis. For the last few weeks all Kylie could think of was how beautiful Alexandria would look in her prom dress, and how breathtaking she would look without it on.

Rachael on the other hand had a different talk with Alexandria knowing that sex was a touchy subject for the young teen. Rachael had spoken with Alex about wanting to adopt her for months but Alex did not believe her until Rachael held the papers right in front of her. Up until that point, Mike and Rachael had only been Alexandria’s legal guardians but Rachael asked Cassandra if she could make the necessary arrangements and paperwork so Alexandria could be adopted by them as soon as humanly possible. Rachael has asked Alexandria if she wanted to keep her last name when addressing the issue in which Alex said yes not wanting her last name to be erased from the phase of the earth. Rachael simply decided to hyphenate Smith to the girl’s last name when finalizing the paperwork.

Rachael took advantage of the time and asked the girl about her past. She had been hesitant for some time now but she wanted to help lessen the nightmares and knew that the talk had to come sooner rather than later. Alex spent about an hour telling Rachael about her parents and still did not cover half of what they meant to her. Rachael sat next to her on the bed smiling while Alexandria talked, not wanting to interrupt her. She could picture every detail presented by the stories Alex laid out and could smell Mrs. Santiago’s cooking making her mouth water and her stomach grumble.

Alexandria then drew a deep breath and closed her eyes knowing that it was time to tell Rachael the things Rachael really wanted to know. The following minutes were spent with the harsh memories she had of her Uncle beating her to the point to where she was almost unconscious on the basement floor. Alex told her how it all began and how one day a teacher saw a bruise that her Uncle had not cover up. Alexandria remembered the joy she felt the day she got out of his grasp but only to regret it a few weeks later. Her victory had only lasted a few short weeks before she truthfully wished she could be in her uncle’s house getting kicked and punched rather than what she had to endure the second day in her new home. She preferred the pain of his Uncle’s closed fist then the pain inflicted by the man who she had to call ‘dad’.

Alexandria told Rachael about the day her childhood had been officially ripped out of her. Alexandria closed her eyes and saw his face of extreme enjoyment as if he would never forget that exact moment and was making sure that the little girl before him would also never forget. She flinched as Rachael touched her knee in a comforting manner. She opened her eyes and saw the warm smile on Rachael’s mouth. Tears were rolling both their faces as they hugged each other.

…

     Once waving goodbye to Rachael and Mike both girls were off to what was promised to be the best night of their adolescent lives.

Although as they sat in the vehicle, Kylie wondered for a few moments how and why Alexandria had been so trapped in her thoughts that she had not noticed when she had not one but three glasses of the expensive wine in the limousine Cabinet. In any other occasion Alexandria would have been on her case about the dangers and risks of drinking, but on this certain occasion when Kylie needed her to notice; Alexandria did not even blink an eye.

Kylie’s brain went through a number of different reasons and scenarios as to why the girl was so stiff looking everywhere except in Kylie’s direction. With everything that had been going on lately, Kylie only concluded that Taylor had something to do with whatever was going on in her girlfriend’s mind. She hated the fact that she let it bug her, but Kylie found that she could not help it, no matter how hard she tried Taylor always manages to get into the picture.

Kylie sat quietly contemplating whether to confront Alex about why she and Taylor had been so close over the course of the past months, or just let the situation slide taking it as a regular friendship between both girls.

It was bothersome to see how comfortable they were with each other especially when she wasn’t around to say anything about it. Kylie knew she shouldn’t be jealous and that she should trust her girlfriend, but it didn’t go unnoticed by Kylie how Alex would nod her head at Taylor who would nod back every time they passed by or saw each other across a room. Alexandria would then return to their conversation as if nothing had happened making Kylie’s insecurities go through the roof.

She never wanted to punch someone more than she wanted to punch Taylor when seeing how she winked at HER girlfriend the day Mr. De la Rosa had partnered them up to play tennis. He had made it so that Alexandria and Taylor compete against Kylie and a freshman kid who didn’t know his left from his right when Kylie told him to get the ball. It bothered Kylie how Alexandria did not mind the gestures or the flirting on Taylor’s part, but it most definitely bothered Kylie, in more ways than one.

What Kylie hated the most was the fact that there was nothing proving her wrong. If anything, everything so far was proving her right.

“Alexandria, I know you are the quiet type, but this is borderline ridiculous. You are never this quiet around me, so what is going on? I know you, and something is seriously bothering you whether you want to admit it or not.” her voice was controlled to the best of her ability. Kylie didn’t want the girl to know just how bothered by how she had spent almost 10 minutes alone with Taylor alone behind closed doors, and when coming out, Taylor had a playful grin displayed just for Kylie while Alexandria’s hair was slightly undone even though Rachael had fixed it prior to the encounter. Kylie also noticed that since Alexandria came out of the office, the girl would, and still will not, look at her in the eyes or speak to her other than the occasional small conversation Kylie thought of to break the uncomfortable silence that grew upon them as the radio softly played in the background.

Alexandria wished the silence would last until they had arrived to their destination where Kylie would be too distracted to even bring the topic back up, but of course that was no longer an option.

“Kylie, I-” Alexandria slowly turned too looked at Kylie wanting to touch Kylie’s arm but was met only with the dry air around them. With a single tear falling freely to her dress, Kylie understood what her girlfriend was trying to tell her but could not say out loud.

Kylie swiftly wipes the tears that betray her, angry that she had let the drops to escape in the first place. She closes her eyes and breathes deeply keeping herself in check.

Kylie did not want to be the victim yet again. Anthony cheating on her to a certain point was painful since she had been with the guy for three years, but Alexandria cheating on her is something completely different.

The girl has been the most amazing thing that has ever happened to her in all of her years of living on this earth. She looked forward to being held by the strong arms provided by the girl or spending the night holding the girl and playing with her hair as she watched her sleep . When waking up she loved inhaling the now familiar smell of the girl and knew that she could make it through the day just with a good morning kiss from the girl’s lips (that is after they had both brushed their teeth).

In Kylie’s opinion the fact that they’re both girls has never bothered her. If anything Kylie understood that it made their relationship that much special, something that only she could take part of. She was aware that they were different and that it would not seem right in many eyes when they held hands in the park or in any other public facility, but she just simply did not care what others said or thought about her anymore. She had spent so much of her life living by others standards that Kylie decided to start living by her own. No matter what people told her, Kylie knew the true meaning of love as soon as she saw the girl’s face in her mind not needing to look up the meaning other people had for her.

She knew the exact moment she had found love and it was the first moment that Alexandria first crossed paths with her. Nothing could have prepared her for what she was getting into but Kylie had Alexandria by her side at all times proving them all wrong.

That is until the very moment Kylie put the pieces together only to find that Alexandria was indeed cheating on her with a girl that Kylie has disliked with a passion since the ending of her freshman year.

As if to mock her, at that specific moment the radio host decided to play Unfaithful by Rhianna. ”This goes to all the cheaters out there tonight.” Kylie laughed with dry humor as she watched Alexandria’s body visibly flinch also recognizing the song.

“And I know that he knows I’m unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don’t wanna do this anymore

I don’t wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside”

“How long have you two been-” Kylie was stopped for two main reasons, the most important being that she didn’t have it in her to finish her sentence, and the second being that Alexandria shook her head violently from side to side making her hair go in every direction.

“No, God no, we haven’t… I umm… No it’s not what you’re thinking. God it is nothing of that sort.” Alexandria visibly struggled to explain herself making Kylie even more confused. It killed her that she was right and that Alexandria could not deny it. She prayed that she had been wrong but she had been right after all.

“I honestly don’t know if I should believe you or not. You say you love me but then I see you with Taylor who is all over you and yet you do nothing to make her stop. What am I suppose to think Alex?” her voice was calm with a hint of anger detected by Alexandria. Kylie wiped a few more traitorous tears. “How long have you been cheatin-?” She found that she could not even say the word without her body going numb so she closed her eyes trying to restrain herself from breaking down. “Was this just you playing me or the both of us? Tell me Alexandria, Do I just keep the bed warm for Taylor?”

Alexandria shook her head to everything that was said by her angry girlfriend. “Please, stop. It is nothing like that. Taylor and I are just friends. There has never been anything between us and there never will because I love you. I love you and only you.”

“Why are you lying to me? You really expect me to believe you after coming out of Mike’s office with your hair undone and smelling like her.” Kylie tried not to yell so she gritted her teeth together and controlled her tone. “God Alex you can’t even look at me in the eyes because the guilt won’t let you.” Kylie moved as away from Alex as possible afraid of what would happen in a few moments.

“It has never been this easy for me. I have never let anyone get so close to me because I know they will end up hurt.” Kylie looked at Alex her hands turning into fists as she listened to the very same excuses Alexandria had been saying throughout their relationship. “If I don’t hurt you then I’ll hurt Taylor because she kissed me tonight and told me that she has feelings for me.” Kylie took in a deep breath not entirely surprise to hear that Taylor did indeed have feeling for Alex. “Do you know what it feels like? To have a girl who you love unconditionally but then hurt someone else by not returning their feeling towards you.” Kylie could not answer because she had never been in such a situation before. “When she kissed me I kissed her back. My body reacted to her kiss the way I would have never reacted if I actually knew what was going on. She made me feel things that I should only feel with you.”

Kylie was shocked that Alexandria didn’t see that the confession just proved her right. She waited to hear the explanation behind the kiss but Alexandria kept quiet only looking down at the floor.

“I never meant to any of this to happen. You came out of nowhere into my life and rocked my entire world upside down. You made everything brighter for me.” Kylie had no doubt in her mind that Alexandria had done exactly the same when accidentally running into her. “Then Taylor comes into the picture and we become friends almost instantly up to the point that when asking her to do something for me she immediately agrees no questions asked.” Alexandria was thoughtful her brows creased as she stared in front of her at nothing in particular.

“There is nothing going on between us. At least that is what I thought until today.”

Alexandria once again became silent and looked at down not wanting to look at Kylie’s reaction.

“What happened? I want-” Kylie closed her eyes and stopped her not wanting to say the wrong thing. She didn’t just want to know what had happened behind the closed door; she needed to know that her mind was exaggerating. She wanted her to say something that would make everything alright not sure if such words existed at this point. “I need you to tell me what happened. Stop worrying about my reaction and just tell me. You are a Goddamn football player for crying out loud, just tell me the truth.” Kylie saw Alexandria flinch as her voice reached the point to where she was now fully yelling.

“I can’t tell you why we got so close. The thing is I don’t want to, but not because I don’t trust you or nothing of the sort. I don’t want to tell you because that would involve telling you the part of my life I have longed to forget. I told Rachael and it almost killed me to do so. The pain just won’t let me. I don’t want to relive my past, not now not ever.”

Alexandria laughed dryly no true humor hinted behind such gesture. She looks outside through the window and for a few minutes and says absolutely nothing. If it weren’t for the fact that her chest was moving up and down, Kylie would have believed that the girl was not breathing as she stared outside at the moving buildings and flashy lights.

“God, why do you always shut me out when the conversation gets personal, especially when it involves your past?” Kylie was sick of taking things slow. It had taken her weeks to get Alex to tell her about her childhood and two months to tell her about some of her experiences in the foster system. The nightmares that are hunting the girl never seem to end, but Alexandria will not open up to her so there is no way Kylie can alleviate the pain. “It’s been three months Alexandria. How much longer do you need?”

Before Alexandria could respond, the limo door was opened by the chauffeur. “Ladies we are here.” he announced with a grin on his face once again looking at the girls with admiration. He had to remind himself that it was rude to stare and that he might seem like a perverted man as he stated at both of the beautiful girls before him. In his professional opinion, the couple sitting in front of him was by far the best couple he had ever seen. He admired the way they looked at each other and couldn’t help but wish that his wife would look at him with the same passion.

After the girl’s nodded their head the chauffeur extended his hand towards Kylie helping her out the limousine first. As she got out, everyone stopped walking and stared at the elegant matter in which Kylie exited the vehicle. Many low whistles were heard as students looked at Kylie up and down admiring the way in which she had dressed herself. They all wanted to take Alexandria out the picture as they stared at the beautiful girl before them, but knew that Alexandria would take them all out at the blink of an eye.

Kylie took a few steps forward and turned to ensure Alexandria got out of the limousine safely knowing how clumsy the girl got when wearing high heels. Alexandria could handle manly sports but when it came to high heels, she fell on her face without even taking a step. Kylie watched as the chauffeur also offered his hand to the girl and noticed how Alex took her time exiting the vehicle.

Like everyone else, Kylie found herself staring at the girl as she set her left foot on the solid ground first. Many thoughts entered Kylie’s thoughts as her eyes traveled up the girl’s leg to places she has yet to explore but hoping to explore more than anything else in the world.

         ~~~~~ Alex- Dancing Lessons ~~~~~

     The questioning period was far from over. I knew she would not be happy when I confessed to her what had happened in the office. I tried my best to explain to her what was going on in my head but it all came out so wrong.

“You do realize that you are staring at me like if I were a piece of meat, right Alexandria?” Her voice is seductive all traces of anger and hurt gone, at least for now. I shake my head trying to focus on her rather than how good the dress emphasizes her curves. I take her hand and watch as he driver smiles at us one last time and drives off.

“What happens now?” I ask her not sure as to where we are at this point.

‘Why couldn’t you just keep your damn mouth shut? Then everything would be alright and she would have never found out about the whole Taylor thing.’ It wouldn’t be fair to her. I love her way too much to hurt her like that. She deserves to know the truth.

‘And what is the truth Alex?’ I don’t know. I love her, but when Taylor kissed me I felt something. ‘You cheated on the girl of your dreams with a girl who you barely even know.’ That doesn’t mean that I should hurt Taylor. Why should she be punished for feeling for me what I feel for my own girlfriend?

“Now we just go inside and enjoy the night. We will talk, don’t get me wrong that is something that is unavoidable, but now we just enjoy the night like we had planned. At least for tonight, let’s just forget the bad and focus on the good.” She squeezes my hand reassuringly and half smiles sending chills down my entire body.

‘What the hell have you done? She is suffering because of you.’ What do you want from me! I’m sorry but I couldn’t lie to her face knowing I did something terrible that I’m not sorry that happened in the first place. If you want me to tell her that it meant nothing, I’m sorry but I can’t. Not when I did feel something when Taylor was kissing me.

…

     If you were to ask Kylie the night was going perfectly fine. she smiled and put on her best smile for our classmates never looking directly at me.

‘It seems it’s harder to look at your cheating self than she thought.’

When someone would come up to greet us, Kylie would hug them and make a conversation but never left my side. I followed her example and smiled at everyone who I knew and liked, but then it became tiresome so I stopped all together and went to the bathroom to try to find the strength that will get me through the night that is becoming more of a drag than anything else.

I hate the fact that I can’t just throw water on my face due to the make-up Rachael spent hours perfecting.

‘Who would have thought that Rachael Smith would become your mom?’ She must be crazy wanting you as a daughter. ‘I’ll take that as a full blown compliment.’ You are seriously impossible. ‘Not as impossible as her.’ As who?

“You told her didn’t you?” The voice sends shivers down my entire body, but not the kind that Kylie evokes. I look in the mirror and see her leaning against the door frame looking at me the same way I was looking at Kylie. Her eyes travel from my face to my shoulders to down my arms and finally my legs making me fully aware of my appearance and wonder if something is out of place.

‘The difference being that you have a right to look at Kylie like she’s a piece of meat, for the simple fact that she is your GIRLFRIEND and because she seriously is a yummy piece of meat .’

“You always talk to yourself don’t you?”

She does not allow me to answer or to recover from her scaring me.

“Your eyebrows always crease in an irritated manner as if you always argue with yourself. It’s funny to see all your facial expressions as you have these interior battles with yourself. It’s clear to see when you win and when the other half of you wins. For the most part it is safe to say that you win most of the arguments but not the most important ones”

‘How the hell does she know that? Did you tell her about me?’ God you sure are stupid.

She chuckles as she approaches the sink shaking her head at me fully knowing that I am in fact fighting my interior battle.

“Let me guess, your other self doesn’t like me much does she?” She takes a few more steps closing the distance between us fairly quickly.

‘Holy crap she is good.’ I told you she is smarter than you and I give her credit for.

“That is putting it lightly.” She laughs closing her eyes as she truly enjoys the joke not because she has to but because she wants too. “How are you Taylor?”

“I think I’m in a way better shape than you.” She looks at me up and down again but not in the same manner as before.

“What makes you say that?”

“Have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately? You are paler than your average white person and that my dear friend is putting it lightly. Plus, your hands are shaking like crazy.”

“You are too observant, Taylor.” I look down at my hands that are indeed shaking violently due to the fear inside of letting her get so close to me.

“No, I think that you need to relax. It’s our senior prom and you have had that fake smile on your face for the longest time. You have seriously got to brush that damn thing off your face, it is so not you.” Her voice is almost demanding. “And it ruins your beauty in so many levels.” She hesitates as she raises her hand probably thinking I will brush her off, but when I don’t she caresses my cheek lightly barely even toughing the burning skin under her fingertips.

“What are you doing?”

“I know I can’t have you. I know you will never feel for me what I feel for you.” A tear escapes her eye as she stares deeply into my own. “My mind has been screaming to me that I should just forget you, but my heart tells me to fight. No matter the outcome. No matter what I have to do, it just tells me to fight, but I’m going to listen to my better judgment and try and follow my brain on this one.”

‘I get it now.’ What are you talking about? ‘Why you feel something for her and why you don’t want to hurt her.’ And why do I have feelings for her? ‘She reminds you of yourself. Before Kylie was yours, and before you knew what your feelings for her were exactly. You can’t help but like this girl because you understand everything she is going through and you can’t bear to see her suffer.’

“Please understand,” I beg her putting my hand on top of hers. “I love her.” I don’t have to say her name for her to understand who I was referring to.

“I know.” She whispers in a low quiet voice breaking my heart as she does. I couldn’t stop the tears from escaping no matter how hard I tried to tell myself to remain calm.

“Please don’t cry for me. I’ll be okay. I’m a big girl remember. I am in a fact a big mean cheerleader for a reason.” She gets a nearby towel and presses it lightly on my face wiping away all the tears. “Now look what you’ve done, you ruined your make-up.”

“Why?” The question leaves my mouth before I can recall what I’m saying. “Why do you care so much about me?”

“The true question is; why not? You Alexandria are an extraordinary human being. You care about things that most people couldn’t care less about. You are not afraid to act and defend everything that has a meaning to you. When I’m around you I feel like I can take on the world. I look forward to soccer practices everyday because you always smile at me. Before they begin you always high five me and when I make a goal, making me score that damn thing a hell of a lot faster so I can have the pleasure of touching your soft skin again.

“I can’t explain what exactly draws me to you. I have tried to fight it with all my might to the point that I have skipped class just so I won’t have the urge to admire you even if it is from the back of the classroom or from the stands behind Kylie. Skipping class was not a smart move on my part since now I have a ton of missing assignments and my grades are suffering for it.” The most adorable laugh surrounds us as her shoulders move up and down as her body vibrates with true humor.

“What so funny?”

“I used to make Kylie’s life a living hell when she came first came here. She was too easy to mess with.” She pauses and a half grin appears on her face out of nowhere. A few seconds later she shakes her head remembering that I’m also in the room and continues. “When she started dating my brother it got worst. The teasing and bullying got to a point to where I didn’t even recognize who I had become.”

“Why are you telling me this? If you are trying to apologize-” She puts her index finger on my lips successfully keeping me from talking.

“Will you just shut up and hear me out?”

‘Ooh she just called you out.’ God dude are you on her side now?

“What I’m trying to say is that I had a crush on her and hated myself for it. I made her life a living hell because I didn’t want to face the fact that she made me feel things that I should have felt for the guy I was going out with at the time.”

“Wait, wait just a damn minute, so are you trying to tell me that you kissed me to make Kylie jealous and break up with me so you can have her all to yourself?” The realization hits me like a ton of bricks making me want to kick myself because if that were the case, I fell right into her trap.

“God dude, you are something else.” She scoffs and shakes her head. “Why would I want to be with Kylie when I just basically confessed that I love YOU?”

“Oh.” The statement surprises me leaving me basically breathless and speechless.

‘Oh. That is all you can say to a girl who just confessed to love your idiot self?’ What happens to we are one in the same? ‘Man you are on your own on this one. I will always be on Kylie’s side. She is the one who I want but apparently you think otherwise.’

“Maybe in another lifetime I could have the slightest chance with you.” Taylor grabs my hands and turns them only to take them up to her lips. She closes her eyes as soon as her lips come in contact with my skin. “Kylie is a very lucky girl.”

“What makes you so sure that I’m not the lucky one? After all I have the cheerleading captain as my girlfriend and the soccer captain as a suitor.” A wide smile shows as she punches my shoulder playfully.

“You are so full of yourself.”

“But I’m also very irresistible let’s not forget that important detail.”

“And you have to ask why I love you?”

My face falls as our entire conversation plays in my mind. “I wish I could correspond the way you want t me to. The way you deserve to be corresponded.” She is quiet for a moment.

“How about this, I’ll back off since I know Kylie will kill me if I ever touch you in front of her, but I’ll be here, whenever you need me or want to talk, I’ll be right here ready to help you in whatever I can. How does that sound?”

“It doesn’t sound fair. You are not a rebound girl, not by a long shot Taylor. You deserve so much more than that.”

She just closes her eyes and chuckles to herself.

“Would you be willing to share a dance with me?” I ask her surprsing the hell out of the both of us.

“Are you sure you want to be seen dancing with me while Kylie is out there probably wanting to rip my head off for kissing you in the first place? By the way she looked at me when she came in leads me to believe that you told her everything that happened behind that closed door.”

“Man you are overly observant.”

“Are you really willing to risk your relationship even more for just one lousy dance with me?” Her eyes are glossy as she stares down at me.

“I owe you, and plus you can’t be that bad of a dance partner.”

She smiles and grabs my hand leading me towards the dance floor.

     ~~~~~ Taylor – In the End All That Matters Is Love ~~~~~

     Taylor had never approved of Kylie and Kylie was made well aware of it. She hated the idea of her brother dating the girl that stood in her way of being the cheer-leading captain. It occurred to Taylor that the envy and jealousy she felt towards her brother’s girlfriend was unreal and uncalled for. She couldn’t understand where the hatred came from. Taylor then realized that she hated the fact that Kylie was dating her brother because that meant that she couldn’t have her.

Like always Taylor kept to herself and prayed to whatever God she could think of to take the feelings away. She couldn’t face the fact that she might be in love with a girl. In Taylor’s mind the feelings she had towards Kylie were idiotic and very, very wrong. She convinced herself that the hatred towards the girl was truly because she was the cheerleading captain and taking her brother’s time away from her.

It took Taylor weeks to accept the fact that she truly was different. She could no longer deny the fact that she was not attracted to guys. She had numerous offers from nice guys but she couldn’t bring herself to accept them. She didn’t feel comfortable on a date with a guy who held her hand, or who at the theater wanted to put his arm over her. She didn’t enjoy kissing them goodbye or talking to them on the phone. She didn’t get excited when they texted or cried when they didn’t.

No one could know about it. Taylor promised herself that if she could, she would take the secret to her grave. Having everyone know that she is in fact a lesbian would ruin her reputation. She would fall to the lowest of the food chain and that she could never accept that fate for herself, not when she had lived under Kylie’s shadow for so long.

When she dreamed of a future she saw long brown hair and heard the distinct laugh of a woman lying next to her in a king sized bed.

“When I look into your eyes

It’s like watching the night sky

Or a beautiful sunrise

Well, there’s so much they hold

And just like them old stars

I see that you’ve come so far

To be right where you are

How old is your soul”

As she was spun by strong arms, Taylor couldn’t help but feel the overwhelming joy that overpowered her entire being. How many nights had she laid in bed dreaming of this moment? How many times had she wished that she could dance with the girl who she loved in front of her peers without any signs of fear?

“Well, I won’t give up on us

Even if the skies get rough

I’m giving you all my love

I’m still looking up”

Everyone danced around them not really paying attention to them as they danced to the slow ballad playing through the giant speakers behind them. Some were watching with their mouths clear to the floor but said and did absolutly nothing.Taylor knew it would all end too soon so she made the most of it.

When Alexandria brought their bodies back together Taylor grabbed the girl’s waist tightly and held onto her as the room was spinning around her.

“And when you’re needing your space
To do some navigating
I’ll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find”

“Are you alright?” Alexandria asked her clearly concerned for her well-being. She smiled when the room was coming back to its rightful place and she was not seeing everything twice.

“’Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We’ve got a lot to learn
God knows we’re worth it
No, I won’t give up”

“Yeah, I just got dizzy there for a second.” Taylor then lost her footing and stepped on a crumb that someone had dropped making her fall into the girl. Alexandria held onto Taylor in an intimate way preventing her from completely falling to the ground.

It was at that particular moment as Taylor clung to Alex, in which Kylie decided to turn around and witness the scene.

“I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you’re still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn’t break, we didn’t burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I’ve got, and what I’m not, and who I am”

“I don’t think Kylie likes the way you are holding me.”

“What do you mean?”

“Look at how you are holding me. It is… intimate, the way you would hold her not another girl who just happens to be your suitor.”

At this Alexandria looks down and see exactly what Taylor meant. Alex lifts her up gently and puts her hand behind her head not knowing how to express how sorry she is for grabbing her the way she just did.

“I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up, still looking up.”

Alex looked up at Kylie and did not know what to do. She turned to Taylor for guidance. The girl simply nods her head and points in Kylie’s direction. “Thanks.” Alex says, reaching to kiss her in the check. After the girl walks away, Taylor follows her with her eyes and her hand cupping her burning cheek.

“She kissed me.” Taylor breathed still not fully believing it herself that the girl of her dreams had dared to kiss her.

“Well, I won’t give up on us (no I’m not giving up)
God knows I’m tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We’ve got a lot to learn (we’re alive, we are loved)
God knows we’re worth it (and we’re worth it)”

When waking up this morning, Taylor knew that the day was going to wonderful. Her brother had not teased her like he usually did and had even made her breakfast (something Anthony only did on special occasions or when he was in a very, very good mood). Her mother had not been on case about what dress she had chosen to wear, and her father did not complain about how much the dress revealed.

“I won’t give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I’m giving you all my love
I’m still looking up” 

As the last lines of the song were played Taylor looked at Alex and Kylie who were clearly arguing at the far corner of the building as almost everyone was watching them. She felt terrible. Taylor could not even bare to let Alexandria touch another girl but she knew that Kylie was indeed her girlfriend and there was nothing Taylor could do about it.

She was a witness of their love for each other and did not want to come between such a relationship. But she couldn’t help but wish that Kylie would just leave the picture already. She dreamed of the day Alexandria were free so she could ask her out and they could be together.

She dreamed of the days they would spend in their summer home walking the shore hand in hand. She dreamed of coming home from a long day of work to her wife who would have food on the table ready for them to eat by the fireplace. She imagined that at the end of the night they would go to bed together where they would explorer every inch of their bodies while being careful to not wake up the kids or the neighbors for that matter.

As she took her eyes of the couple for a second, she noticed the way in which a particular man was staring at the scene before him. It wasn’t the gun in his hand that alerted Taylor the most but by the way in which he looked at Alexandria.

Taylor sprinted towards Alex when seeing the man raise the gun and got ready to pull the trigger. No one was paying any attention to the man as their attention was towards the angry couple who were fully yelling at each other.

Taylor recognize the man as soon as she saw the tattoo on his wrist. She knew who he was as she stared at he way in which he stood ready to pull the trigger and kill the only family he has left in the world. Taylor knew to run the moment in which she remembered how scared Alexandria was when turning to her to track him down.

Money had been given to the man to leave Alexandria alone which he took and left the city. But clearly money was not enough for him. Taylor didn’t need to know the details of why Alexandria wanted to track him down and get him to leave the state or even the country, she just looked at the girl’s eyes and understood everything she needed to.

As she was flying through the air, the trigger was pulled and the blast went right into Taylor’s abdomen. The sound made everyone stop talking and stop breathing all together.

The impact made her trajectory change. When seeing the blood come out of her body Taylor literally saw her life flash before her eyes. And yet it wasn’t entirely her life. She saw herself leaning on the doorframe of a patio as she watched Alexandria play soccer with their 5 kids. A huge smile came across her face as she realized that even though she may never see that vision come true for herself, Alexandria would surely see it with Kylie by her side.

Once Taylor hit the floor Alexandria was by her side coming to her rescue. She had always envisioned her death. She had imagined her funeral and even when she was at the gates of heaven but never truly entering for she knew that there was a chance that she might not be worthy of entering.

Even as she lay on the floor looking right at the girl who had stolen so many nights of sleep, Taylor was happy and at peace for she had the chance to save the girl she loves.

Nothing had to be said at that point, since no matter what happens next, Taylor gave her life for the girl of her dreams.

~~~~~ End of Chapter ~~~~~

          Questions and Answers: Parte Doz

     Alright people time for part two of this highly anticipated question segment. I swear if any of you request to do the Super Kiss again because they were interrupted, I will personally hunt you down (my wife is a detective so try me). Other than that I am really excited to see how Alba and Rebecca answer your questions. And let me tell you that you guys asked a ton of more questions so yup there might just be a part three to this darn thing.

We are all once again in Rebecca’s bedroom but this time Alba and Rebecca have switch positions on the computer chair since Alba was wining that Recca is too heavy for her. Rebecca apparently cannot wait till their honeymoon and has her hands all over Alba while she tries to control her fiancé. Your host does not have her legs crossed because she has learned her lesson from last time. It was highly impossible to bend my legs for the rest of the day.

Alba has her laptop speaker’s low playing some Spanish song. This girl has the weirdest tastes in music. She honestly really doesn’t discriminate when it comes to music. If you put her music in shuffle mode it will take you from pop to reggae to hip-hop to soul to bachata to songs from back in the dinosaur age. Some songs are really interesting though and since she is bilingual you get a taste of her Hispanic side and now her American side.

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Rebecca: Alright who did it?! Which one of you little thieves took my lemonade? Man I swear if you guys-

Alba: (looks at her weirdly) umm Bec honey, you already finished your lemonade. I saw you throw the bottle away a few minutes ago.

Rebecca: oh. Seriously? When?

Alba: About 2 minutes ago baby.

Rebecca: oh, Sorry.

Alba: (shakes her head at her girlfriend and kisses her forehead)

Caprice: and on that stupid note we shall begin. The next 10 questions, or so, will be from a Wattpad fan whose user name is PRAAKRITIBHATNAGAR. (Try saying that ten times) Alba the first question is for you.

1) Has orange always been your favorite color?

Alba: yes it has. When I was little I used to watch the sunset with my dad. He would take me to the beach on a beat old Chevy truck that we fixed together; well in reality I just held the light and passed him the tools he asked for. It was about a 10 minute drive but the road was bumpy so we had to protect our heads or we would hit the roof of the car since the truck did not have seatbelts or anything to grab onto. My mother would prepare us a little snack and make us promise that we would be back in time for dinner. Trust me we never wanted to miss out on my mother’s cooking so we listened to her. She seriously was the best cook ever.

When we were at the shore he used to put me on his shoulders so I could get a better view. I would put my chin on top of his head and watch as the sun hid behind the Atlantic Ocean. I saw the blue sky and the different colors that painted it, but orange was the one that always caught my attention. I could watch it forever and never get sick of seeing how it went from a bright hue to a darker hue.

When we were early enough, my dad let me soak my feet and sometimes he would even let me take a quick swim. Swimming was one of those things that my father only taught me once and then expected me to learn by myself. He stood there always watching me and encouraging me to spread my arms wider or to kick faster but he never interrupted me. When I would drown he rushed to me and brought me to the shore only to throw me in the water again.

I used to cry every time I could no longer see the sun but then my dad would crouch down and wipe my tears saying: “Don’t worry Alba the sun will come out in the morning and when it sets, we will be right here to watch it again.”

Rebecca: (kisses Alba’s cheek when she sees the tears in Alba’s eyes)

Caprice: I wish I could have met him. He sounds like an awesome dad.

Alba: He was the best dad ever.

Rebecca: (wraps her arms around Alba when she puts her head on her chest)

Caprice: do you want to go to the next question?

Alba: (nods slowly)

2) What is Rebecca’s favorite color?

Rebecca: My favorite color when I was a kid was definitely green because no one in my kindergarten class liked it and because a kid told me that green was an awful color when looking at my painting of a green flower.

Alba: (Smiles as she clearly knows Rebacca would choose Green because of that certain detail in her life)

Rebecca: As I grew older, blue gradually grew on me.

I have hated pink and purple ever since I can remember. I never wanted to be a princess. I wanted to be the Prince in shining armor that saves the damsel in distress. My mother always said I could be whatever I wanted so I told her I wanted to be a Prince for Halloween. She spend weeks making me a blue Prince costume. I remember that she made me try on so many fabrics and took so many measurements that when it was finally finished I took out 5 cents that I had in my pocket and gladly paid her for her hard work.

Walking out that door with my crown and holding my sword in place I knew that it was going to be the start of something new.

And man was I right. I impressed my first girlfriend with that costume and because even as a 9 year old I was really smooth.

Alba: (Slightly punches her girlfriend but knows the statement is completely true)

Rebecca: Since our neighborhood was filled with many kids running around I held her hand and protected her from the monters and gouls that would almost run her over. At the end of the day I gave her a rose and a kiss on her cheek. I asked her to a play date and she gladly accepted. Of course after her parents found out about my true intentions, I had to say goodbye to Dianna. My heart was broken at the age of 9.

Caprice: Isn’t that a young age to come to the realization that you are gay?

Rebecca: Maybe, but I knew at a very young age that I was different. For one, I didn’t find Joseph Miller to be handsome and when he asked me out I had no doubt in my mind that it would always be a no. My mother explained to me that no matter what I did with my life she would always stick by my side. God that woman is an amazing human being and according to my father, she is also an amazing foot masseuse and the reason he married her in the first place.

Caprice: So you saved the damsel in distress only to have her taken away by the evil mother? Now that is just cruel.

Rebecca: Yeah it was, but Daniel was my first real crush. She was amazing and she made me feel things that intensified when I met this little thing here. (She tickles Alba’s sides)

Alba: Rebecca please stop! Come on Bec! Oh God no not there!

Caprice: Alright next question.

3) What’s your and Rebecca’s favorite movie of all time?

Rebecca: This may not be my all time favorite movie but it comes really close. It’s not just because of the storyline but because this was the first movie Alba and I watched together in the theater room of my house.

Alba: Oh God not this story again. (She goes back into hiding in Rebecca’s neck)

Rebecca: (Smiles quite evily and pats Alba’s back) It was our fith date and she did not want me spending more money on her, so I took her to my place, not to do what you are thinking (looks at me knowing I went there myself).

This particular date was special because we hadn’t made it official yet that we were in fact a couple and because this was the first time I saw the real Alba Luz.

It was the first time I had the chance to see the walls fall and see the trully amazing person she is when she is not trying to keep her hard exterior shell on. I saw her crying when Ellie died and couldn’t understand why it hit her so hard.

Seeing as she was (and is) in every sport imagnable at school, while keeping her grades impacable, I never thought that she had suffered so much in life.

The part that I loved was that I got to hold her for the entire movie after that. She laughed at the funny scnees but she never let me go and neither did I.

Alba: I don’t understand how they could make such a sad movie for kids. I mean they were so happy and then she looses the baby and then dies on Carl before they could even make their trip for which he had finally earned the money for.

Rebecca; See what I mean? She is too adorable, even if she is a mean old football player.

Alba: Shut up. (glares at her girlfriend making me laugh at them both)

Caprice: Alright question numero four.

4) Do we, as fans have permission to kick your ass if you don’t go through with your wedding?

Caprice: Yes you do. I give you full permission.

Alba: Last time I checked this was Alba’s and Rebecca’s question and answer segment not Caprice’s q and a.

Caprice:(my phone rings) saved by the bell you little-

Alba: Just answer your wife beefore she kills all of us for doing this again.

…..

So we have a new member of the family joining us. She is an 8 month old little girl who has stolen the hearts of everyone that comes in contact with her. I think that my daughter likes her even more than she likes her mommies. Can’t say I blame her though.

Rebecca: Umm babe, I think she wants some of that chicken.

Alba: God this fool can eat!

Rebecca: Have you met your sister? Now that girl can eat and what I hate about her is that she is as thin as a toothpick.

Alba: Hey at least Einstein can control herself when she’s around chocolate.

Caprice: Einstine why are you calling her that?

Alba: Have you seen this hair? This is Einstine hair my friend as we have yet to find a product that will fix it.

Rebecca: Lisbeth hates when Alba calls Alicia that in her precence.

Alba: Can you seriously sit there and tell me that this is not Einstine’s hair?

Rebecca: (shakes her head no)

Caprice: can you just leave the poor baby alone and continue this thing so I can go home to my wife who is very furious with you guys by the way.

Alba: You told her what we were doing?!

Caprice: Of course she is my wife. And plus, if she finds out later its my head in a platter not yours.

Rebecca: Let’s just keep going shall we?

Caprice: This question is for the two of you.

5) Where do you both see each other 5 years from now?

Alba: Graduated and working.

Rebecca: Working at Via Cristi as a general surgen and living with his thing in the house I bought her.

Alba: How do you manage to both win me over and make me mad at you in one sentence?

Rebecca: It is one of my many, many talents.

Alba: (Blushes as Rebecca winks at her (we all know what other talents she was refering to))

Caprice: And before you guys take this question to the next rating, we will keep going to question six. Alba this is for you.

6) If there is something you can die for, what is it? (Other than Rebecca…)

Alba: (chuckles and kisses Bec on the mouth for a solid minute) definatly oranges. This thing right here gives me an orange every morning, afternoon and eveing. If she can’t give them to me personally she sends someone. That is the main reason I love her.

Rebecca: Oh really? Its not because i- ( Leans into Alba’s ear and whispers something really softly that can not be heard by anyone other than her)

Alba: (Gasps and blushes a deep deep shade of red while covering Alici’s ears) Einstine you are way to young to hear this from your crazy aunt.

Rebecca: Come on babe its been 34 days of pure torture. This bet of yours is killing me!

Alba: you’re the one who made me do this. You honestly think I want to go 40 days and 40 nights without sex when it’s been said that we are used to doing it more than 8 times a month?

Caprice: I don’t know how the hell you guys are doing this. Em and I only lased 40 hours without touching each other. You guys sleep with eah other for crying out loud. You spent every waking moment by each other. How the hell our you doing this?

Alba: I promised myself I could do this and it seems to be working.

Rbecca: Shit maybe for you, but damn there is only so much a girl can take. Hell you fucking sleep with only a bra and underware, Do you even realize what kind of torture i’m under when you brush your skin agaisnt mine ‘Accidently’?.

Alba: It’s called payback, honey. For all the sex jokes and refernces I have to put up with every single of those 34 days. Every single time you whisper something into my ear I take something off in my mind. Hence me only wearing a damn bra and underware.

Alicia: (Claps her hands knowing that Alba has won this argument (at least for now that is))

Rebecca: (Grabs Alicia and picks her up) Traitor.

Alba: (Takes alicia from her) Hey she knows whose the boss.

Caprice: Oh God before you go deeper into this i’m just going to save your ass Alba and go to the next question.

Rebecca: You do that.

Caprice: Wait hold on, Em is calling again.

Alba: Is she coming over? I want to see Alba.

Rebecca: You really want these two babies together under the same roof again?

Alba: We don’t have food this time though, so we should be alright.

Caprice: I’ll ask her.

…

Emily came with Alba who is having her own little play date with Alicia.

Alba: How many do we got?

Caprice: About a ton, so let’s get back into it.

7)If there is something you both are very passionate about, what is it? (Other than each other…)

Rebecca: I would have to say my career. I love being a doctor.

Alba: Yup that she does.

Rebecca: Like you are not passionate anout being a computer engeineer?

Alba: I never said I wasn’t.

Emily: So they still haven’t broken the bet have they?

Caprice: You knew abou the bet?

Emily: Of course, I was there when they made the stupid thing. Clearly no one has bent yet.

Alba: And i’m sure I won’t either.

Rebecca: We will see about that.

Caprice: Yeah yeah but see that later cause right now you have questions to answer. The next few are fairly simple so answer them quickly and move on.

8) Are you a summer person or a winter person?

Alba: Summer.

Rebecca: Winter.

9) What’s your biggest fear?

Alba: Heights.

Rebecca: Not living to see our children win the world cup.

Emily: So you still want 11 children huh?

Alba: And nothing in this damn universe can change her damn mind.

Rebecca: Just picture it babe. ( Puts her arm around Alba and waves her hand in front of her painting the picture) Alex passes the ball to Peter who gets run over by Stacy since she is the fiesty one. Then Alma slides right under her and steals the ball only for Marcos to take it away from her. Harvey will then try to go after Marcos but the kid is a horse. When he least expects it, Francisco comes out of nowhere and takes the ball kicking it back to Stacy. Now the goalies will be you and Carmen will each stop a goal from Marcos and Harvey.

Just when the time is running out, Stacy kicks the ball to Carlos who does a bycycle kick and scores a goal on his dearest mommy.

Alba: So what are you doing while our kids are kicking me ass?

Rebecca: Like any ordinary soccer mom, I’m in the sidelines cheering you guys on while preparing tea?

Alba: But we aren’t British.

Rebecca: In my dream we are.

Caprice: Wow you guys are idiots.

Both: Hey!

Emily: uh babe, next question.

10) Do you masturbate?

Alba: If I dared to then I would loose the bet so for right now no, no masturbating for Alba Luz.

Rebecca: I can only dream about it.

Emily: This is disturbing so next question please.

11) When was the last time you took a shower together?

Alba: 33 days ago. The first day when we tried to do everything like we always d, we couldn’t handle it so I decided to wake up eilier than her to shower and get the sexual frustration out in time.

Rebecca: We have cut down on so many things that made my life worth living. This bet is the worst thing I have ever agreed to!

Caprice: Next question before she burts.

12) How old were you when you had your first kiss?

Alba: 12.

Rebecca: 9. (wiggles her eyebrows at Alba)

Emily: Ha I was 5.

Rebecca: holy shit really?

Emily: yup I broke a girls heart at 6 and cheated on my first girlfriend by marring my best friend Broke at 7.

Caprice: So you commited bigamy?

Emily: Naw we got a divorce when she started dating Charles. That asshole stole her right from under my nose.

Alba: Damn Em, you have been around haven’t you?

Emily: You make me sound like a whore. For your information I have only been with Cape my entire life.

Caprice: Gosh I am honered.

Emily: But I have kissed serveral other girls.

Caprice: Had to ruin our moment didn’t you, hon?

Alba: Next question.

13) How old were you the first time you had sex?

Alba: 15.

Rebecca: 15.

Emily: 15.

Caprice: 15.

Alba: Wow so we are all sluts.

All three of us: (laugh but glare at her for the unnecessary comment).

21) On a scale of 1-10 (1 = a little, 10 = a lot) how much do you enjoy kissing in general?

Both: 10.

Emily: 20, especially if the lips are not the ones you talk with.

Rebecca: Wow she just mouthed my exact thought.

Caprice: Babe, you hang around Bec way too much.

Rebecca: Or maybe she doesn’t hang with me enough. The things I could teach you young apprentice.

Alba: God no. I already have enough with one Rebecca I do not need a clone walking the streets.

Emily: She is really that bad huh?

Alba: You have no idea.

Caprice: Babe umm babe we got to go.

Emily: Why?

Caprice: Cause I just now remember that we have a dinner date at the club with my parents.

Emily: I thought that was sunday?

Caprice: babe, it is sunday.

Emily: (checks phone and her eyes get huge as she sees that it really is sunday) Holy mother of god. Alba say goodbye to Alicia we are leaving before your grandparents kill us.

Alba: wait we haven’t even finished the questions yet.

Emily: You can have her tomorrow or any other day but we cannot miss this dinner.

Rebecca: Alba we can do this some other time. I’ve met the Parkerson’s, they are not people you keep waiting.

Alba: good point. We shall continue some other time then.

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See I uploaded , three months later but I uploaded didn’t I?

Many things happened to me and Bec that have tracked me back on this story. It was like someone cursed it or something cuz everytime I tried to write, something really bad would happen to me or Bec.

But we are okay and on the verge of saying “I do”, thank the mighty lord cuz I am ready for this honeymoon i’ve been promised.

I swear that this damn surgery put a stop to my 40 hour sex plns which you guys do not need to know, but still can you honestly blame me here?

It has been fun writing this story guys thanks for all the support.

Did you honestly think I would leave you like I did though? No i’m not that cuel.

There is one more chapter left of this book, so get ready to say your goodbye’s.

This time I promise not to take three months to upload.

-Alba Luz :^)