Chapter 5

“Are…are you…crying?” Kaylin asked.

I just nodded my head against her.

“Why? I thought this is what you wanted? Am I not good enough to be one of your playthings?” Her voice was a mixture of pain and disgust. Her question was met with silence from me. I didn’t know what to say to her.

“I’m so fucked up because of you. You ruined me…you…why did you have to pick me?!” She screamed.

I still held her in my arms. She made no effort to break free from my embrace either. The crying had mostly subsided. We remained in the same position for what felt like hours, but in reality only a few minutes had passed. Between the softness of her skin against my bare breasts, the rhythm of her heartbeat and breaths, and her scent, I couldn’t force myself to pull away from her. I knew that this was most likely the last time I’d ever get to hold her. She hated me. Those words were burned into my soul. I should just let her go.

“I have to go…” she began to say. I gripped her tighter.

“…pee. Seriously.” She stated.

I released my hold on her and moved away so that she could get off the sofa. I told her there was a bathroom down the hall, second door on the left. I watched as she walked away from me and down the hall. She was such a perfect creature. Long toned legs, a delicious, round ass, curvy hips, little dimples on her lower back, a toned upper back, her flowing hair…she was a goddess. I sat on the sofa awaiting her return. A few minutes had passed and she still hadn’t returned. I got up picked up her clothes that she had shed. I folded them and placed them in a chair. Several more minutes passed and still no sign of her. I was pacing around the front room of my home now. I needed a drink. I poured myself a rather strong rum and coke and paced around as I drank it.

“Are you ok?” I heard from behind me. I hadn’t been paying attention when she returned and it caused me to jump a bit.

“No. No I’m not.” I admitted. “I understand why you hate me. I’m very sorry and I know that my apology probably doesn’t mean shit. If you want to leave…I…I totally understand.” I turned to look at Kaylin and to my surprise she was wearing the robe I keep in the downstairs bathroom.

“It looked so soft and comfortable.” She spoke.

“Kaylin, why are you here?” I asked.

“Because…I…do you know what you did to me?” She sternly asked.

“Kaylin, lis…” I started to reply.

“No. Be quiet and let me speak. We had sex, Alyssa. To you, it was just sex. To me? Fuck… it was the most intense, earth shattering…life changing sex. Life changing! Did you fucking hear that?! You…having sex with you changed my life. You gave me pleasure that I’ve never felt before. You exposed emotions that I never knew existed…are you following me? Then what did you do? You made me feel like it was nothing to you. Eh, just another woman I fucked. Fuck you. You were the first woman I had ever slept with. I was instantly hooked. I wanted more. I suppose I was rather naive to think that maybe there was a connection between us. I really wanted more of you though. I figured the best way to get over it was to go get fucked, so I went out the next weekend and found a really hot guy at the club. I let him take me home and I was going to let him fuck me until I couldn’t walk. Want to know what happened? I could barely get wet. I just knew that nothing he did was going to be as wonderful as having sex with you. He tried licking my pussy but he was clueless. Everything was wrong because it wasn’t you. I knew I was truly fucked, in a bad way, after that. When I say you ruined me…yet I still wanted you.” she poured her heart out to me. I watched as her flawless beauty was defaced by emotions of anger and pain that were caused by me.

I motioned over towards the sofa and we both sat at opposite ends.

“Kaylin, I understand. Please hear me out.” I began to explain. I told her everything. How she was constantly on my mind, my meeting with Brit, and the turmoil I dealt with up until that time.

“Kaylin, I know I’ve hurt you and when I say that I understand, I hope you see what I mean. I’m like your Brit. I don’t want to be like her though. I…I would very much like to…can we see if we can make this work? If you need time…” I anxiously awaited her response.

“I don’t know…there is so much…negativity surrounding us and our very short “relationship” that I…I just can’t…I don’t want to be hurt.” She replied.

I knelt down on the floor in front of her, I held both of her hands and looked into her eyes. “Yes, I’m on my knees..begging you, please. Please let me have the chance to make this right.”

“I’m really tired. I can’t make a decision right now. This evening has left me emotionally drained. I just can’t do this right now.” She explained.

“Then stay with me tonight. Please! I’ll make you feel so good.” I pleaded.

“I don’t want sex tonight.” She countered.

“Then just let me hold you…or I’ve got a guest bedroom…I’m…listen to me…I’m fucking pathetic.” Sadness began to boil up inside of me. Things were never going to work between us. I had caused too much damage. Kaylin stood from the couch and helped me to my feet.

“Where are my clothes?” She asked. I pointed towards the chair I had set them in. She glanced at them then turned to look at me. She untied the robe she was wearing and let it fall back onto the couch. This was it. She was leaving and I’d never see her again. I backed away from her and she turned to walk away. My heart skipped a beat and my stomach began to tingle as she made her way towards the stairs. She turned and looked over her shoulder at me before she climbed the stairs up to the second story of my home. “Just cuddling tonight.” She said with a grin on her face.

Kaylin was snuggled up against me. Our nude bodies pressed together under the sheets of my bed. She had quickly fallen asleep, but I was afraid to close my eyes and find that I was only dreaming. I had seduced at least 15 women and slept with easily that many more over the years since Brit broke my heart. I had even seduced the woman currently in my bed. The woman I had fallen for. I had pledged that it would never happen. I had slept with so many beautiful, smart, charming women, yet I had never caught feelings for any of them. Kaylin was different. Yes, she was easily the most gorgeous woman I had ever been with, but her beauty was only part of it. Maybe it was because she reminded me so much of myself. When I met her she was stalking her prey, much like I did. Only her prey was of the male variety, whereas mine was strictly female. What ever it was, I was madly attracted to her and I wanted her.

I woke with a panic but that feeling was soon eased when I discovered that Kaylin was still safely cuddled against my body.

“Why is your heart pounding so hard?” Kaylin asked in a groggy voice.

“It’s nothing.” I assured her as I gently stroked her arm with my fingers. “Go back to sleep.”

“Mmmm, that feels good. If you’d like to do that to my back, I promise I won’t complain.” She hinted.

“It would be my pleasure.” I said as she proceeded to roll onto her stomach, giving me access to her bare back. I trailed my fingers across her skin, drawing shapes and patterns over every inch. Her breathing was relaxed as she laid motionless. I let my fingers travel down past her cute back dimples and onto her delectable ass. Up and down both of her soft ass cheeks before I trailed one fingers down her crack. She giggled as I neared the bottom but rolled over to face me.

“You’re naughty.” She claimed with a grin on her face.

“Oh, you have no idea.” I replied with a sly grin.

“Well…” she said as she leaned in and kissed me on my neck, “keep those naughty thoughts handy for later. Maybe we’ll need them.”

I moved to kiss her but she covered her mouth “uh-uh, morning breath” she said.

“Trust me, I don’t care.” I assured her as I lowered her hand with mine and kissed her soft, full lips. Her body relaxed as we melted into each other. Our kiss went on for quite some time before she pulled away.

“Oh my, your kisses are divine.” She cooed. “I’ve never experienced anything like them.”

“I could lay here and kiss you all day.” I softly said to her.

“Mmmm, as nice as that sounds, I’m starving! I didn’t eat dinner last night. Let’s go get breakfast somewhere.” I couldn’t argue with her idea, as I didn’t eat much at all yesterday.

“I’m going to grab a shower…by myself.” She stated before sliding out of bed and across the hall into the bathroom.

I watched her gorgeous ass as she disappeared from my sight. I laid there hoping that things between us were going to be ok. This was a foreign idea to me- a relationship. It had been years since I had been romantically involved with anyone and I prayed that I could make this happen. A though then popped into my head. There was a beautiful, very naked and wet woman in my shower. She did say that she was showering alone, but…a little peek couldn’t hurt…could it? I walked over to the bathroom door and poked my head around the door frame. The scene before me was incredible. Kaylin’s stood in the shower, looking at herself in the giant mirrored back wall. Her left leg was up on one of the built in benches, her right arm was in front of her and it appears as though she was pleasuring herself. I walked towards the shower, her eyes caught mine in the mirror as a smile spread across her face. In the reflection I could see that she was rubbing her pussy. I watched as she alternated between sliding two fingers between her lips and up inside of her and then spreading her juices around her clit. She broke our gaze when she closed her eyes and leaned her head back. She slowly bucked her hips as she fingered herself. She opened her eyes and found mine in the mirror again, smiling as she bit her bottom lip. I had a hand on the glass wall for balance, my legs were slightly spread apart and I was mimicking her motions on myself. We maintained eye contact as our fingers circled our clits. Soon I heard Kaylin’s cries over the sound of the raining water. Her eyebrows furrowed as an orgasms pulsed through her body. Seeing her overcome with pleasure caused me to reach my peak and I came with fingers buried in my wet pussy. I had been so turned on by Kaylin that my wetness dripped from me and left a puddle on the floor. Kaylin’s eyes remained locked on mine as she dipped her fingers into herself and then licked them clean. She turned and walked towards me, placing her hand up to mine, only the glass wall separating us. She looked me up and down and grinned then walked out of the shower. I met her as she walked out and we kissed. She took my bottom lip between her teeth gently.

“Your turn. Please don’t dawdle. I’m hungry.” She said.

I quickly showered while Kaylin got ready. I dressed in leggings and tank top and we left to grab breakfast.

“Thank you for spending the night with me.” I said as we sat drinking coffee while waiting for our food.

“I don’t hate you.” She admitted. “I was…and am still sort of, confused…and nervous…and scared…and excited.”

“Talk to me. Tell me everything.” I urged her.

“Right here? Out in the open?” She asked with a hesitant tone.

“Sorry. I’m so comfortable with being out, that I forget that you might not be. Let’s eat and then go somewhere more private.” I offered.

We made small talk as we ate our breakfast. We were about halfway through our meal when were approached by two young women. One was a blonde and the other a brunette. Both were attractive and were dressed in cute summer dresses. I noticed that they were holding hands.

“Excuse me, but can we talk to you for a minute?” The brunette asked?

I offered them both the empty spots at our booth and they slid in next to us.

“You might not remember us, but we will never forget you!” The brunette said to me. I still wasn’t making the connection.

“We were at Beth and Lucas’s wedding reception. You were leaving and I was sitting at a table while Brooke here was breaking up with her boyfriend. You gave me some, uh…advice and…well, I took a risk and it paid off.” She explained.

“Of course, yes! I do remember now! I told you to take your friend home and…well…yeah.” The encounter finally coming back to me.