Chapter 31

dani’s phone buzzed. seven times, to be exact. then a series of texts flooded in. the first seven were from her. dani laughed to herself dryly. a whole ass essay. the bitch who had claimed to love her back, then proceeded to hate her had written a sob story about how she cared?

like dani was gonna read it.

okay, fine, maybe she’d read it. to laugh at it, y’know? not like she wanted to know what megan had to say. definitely.

awesome avanzini🤤🤤🤤:

megan..?

awesome avanzini🤤🤤🤤:

i never stopped loving you.

and part of me is scared that i messed everything up between us.
i basically gave you to lara.
megan… i’ve loved you for three years now. and i don’t know why i can’t stop.

awesome avanzini🤤🤤🤤:

and i think that’s the worst part. it never faded or softened or turned into something easier to carry. it just stayed, like it decided it belonged to you and never asked me what i wanted.

i keep thinking about how i let go like it was the right thing, like i was doing something good, something selfless. but it didn’t feel like that. it felt like standing there while something important slipped out of my hands and telling myself not to reach for it.

awesome avanzini🤤🤤🤤:

i told myself you’d be happier. that maybe i was just someone you passed through, not someone you stayed with. and i believed that long enough to step back, long enough to watch you become someone else’s without saying anything that could’ve changed it.

and now i don’t know what hurts more. the fact that i let it happen, or the fact that i still can’t convince myself i did the right thing.

dani felt a tear trickle down her cheek and land on her screen. her hands trembled as she typed.

awesome avanzini🤤🤤🤤:

i miss you in ways that don’t even make sense. not just the big things, but the small, stupid ones. the way talking to you made everything else feel quieter. the way i didn’t have to try so hard to be understood. and i keep reading your message over and over, like if i stare at it long enough i’ll find something i missed, some hidden meaning that changes everything. but it doesn’t. it just keeps saying the same thing, and i keep wishing it said a little more, or maybe something different. i don’t even know what i wanted from you. maybe i wanted you to stop me. or to say something that made it impossible for me to walk away. but you didn’t. and i can’t tell if that’s because you didn’t know how, or because you didn’t feel the same way i did. and that’s what keeps me stuck.

because if you didn’t feel it, then i lost you for nothing.

and if you did… then we both just let it happen.

awesome avanzini🤤🤤🤤:

and i don’t know which one is worse. i keep thinking about how easy it was for everything to change. how something that meant this much could just… shift, quietly, until it wasn’t mine anymore. like i blinked at the wrong time and missed the moment where i could’ve fixed it. and now it feels too late to reach back.

but not late enough for me to stop loving you. and i hate that. i hate that even now, after everything, after reading your words and knowing where you stand, there’s still a part of me that would choose you without thinking twice.

awesome avanzini🤤🤤🤤:

i just wish i knew if you would’ve ever chosen me too

awesome avanzini🤤🤤🤤:

i miss you but i wish i didn’t

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megan:

hi adri
today’s our three year anniversary
so i wanted to make things special for us

adri… i don’t know if i can keep loving you the way i do. i’ve tried so hard to get you to reciprocate the love i project to you but idek if you care. do you even love me or am i just another toy for you to play with?

megan:

wishing you well

megan has blocked contact: “my love❤️“

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look at megan taking her own steps 🥹 i still love her after all shes done to my dani