Chapter 38

                                                                               Flame’s POV

Standing there as some girl clearly hits on Cainine and basically begs them to fuck her is uncomfortable and really awkward trust me. It was the first time and it is now, but it irritates me that now it comes with another foreign feeling. I knew very well what that feeling was… Damn it. I was jealous and I felt like stepping in front of that girl’s face and telling her to walk away. Then she placed her hand on Cain’s chest and I watched but Cainine made no move to remove it. From then, I felt this really annoying ringing in my ears and missed most of their conversation until I saw Cainine remove her hand from her chest.

Now see what pisses me off is, I don’t own Cainine… Or do I? I don’t. We’re not even anything and I had the guts to have those feelings. I was so confused, of course this was Cainine, she was known for… Well, doing what she did best. And from last night, yes, yes I could see why this girl could walk up to her and ask for it. But did I have a right to have all these emotions?

Cain turns and looks at me and I can feel her eyes on me but can’t stop staring at that girl, the same girl that she was with the other day, the girl she told me she was just using and they had an agreement. Did they still have an agreement, I mean she was pretty hot, I can’t disagree and I didn’t see any reason for Cainine to want… ugh fuck, to want me if that girl existed. I turn and find Cainine looking very pleased with herself as if she’s done something really big and I feel so annoyed at her and at me for giving a shit.

The whole ride to the gym she tries to talk but I’m busy thinking, what am I to her? I know she made it clear that she doesn’t want to use me and all but did I give myself to her too soon? Now was I just another girl to her after last night? Did she think of me as just some other girl she fucked like the rest of them? But she said she likes me. I remember. But where did that put us then? Fuck, what have I gotten myself into?

Right about this moment I would have regrets about letting my raging hormones take the wheel last night but last night was so amazing I can’t even have regrets. She was so real with me yet handled me delicately, she made everything feel so right… So fucking right and looking at her as she pointed Austin a frown on her face for whatever reason, I hated that I wanted it to happen again. Yes, I wanted her to do it all to me again and that was beyond messed up because where would that take us huh? Damn it, how had she messed up my mentality like this? She looks up at me and for some reason, glares at me for a minute or so. What the fuck had I done? She was the one messing with me. I glare back until she finally gives up and looks away.

I have to try and snap out of my thoughts for a while when I see how tensed she is when she begins dialling the numbers on the card. I know it’s a tough moment for her and I have to try and loosen up to support her because after what she had as a child, she needs people to show her that they care. After hearing her stories and knowing all that she’s been through I had somehow figured out why she is how she is. She’s really scarred and for some reason this made her more attractive and interesting. She was like a book and I loved that she was letting me flip the pages slowly by slowly, that meant she trusted me. But at some point I felt like I wanted a bit more and that’s what I hated so much. Did I even have a right to want more?

“Okay, what the fuck is wrong with you? Little miss I’ll quietly stand at this corner and just glare at you the whole time” I snap back to reality and look up at Cainine who looks really pissed for some reason.

“Nothing” I shrug looking around the room and noticing we’re alone.

“They left” she says making me look back at her, why did she look so bothered. “Now stop with the bullshit and tell me what’s going on… If I pissed you off or if you’re just leaking and are in a bad mood or something” she waves her arms around then leans on the desk. And after all that, my slow brain has picked up on the last part as the most important part.

“Sorry… Did you say leaking?” I ask frowning.

“Yes” she nods a frown on her face still.

“What the fuck is that?” I ask and a smile manages to break across my lips.

“You know what I mean” She points at me accusingly looking as serious as one could be.

“No… No I don’t” I frown the smile still on my face. Now I may have a hint on what she was talking about… But leaking? Seriously?

“Ugh” she rolls her eyes then looks back at me standing up straight and motioning with her hands. “Is it that time of the month or something and you’re just angry at the world?” she asks and I laugh. Sometimes she was just too funny.

“Are you scared of asking whether I’m on my periods?” I ask and she sighs covering her face and I find this reaction funnier.

“No… Stop fucking laughing” she points at me. “Just answer me so I would know. I mean you’ve been acting weird all evening and then night, why the fuck are you so distant?” she asks and the smile slowly fades from my face.

“Nothing” I say “I’m okay and not… leaking” I smile at the use of her grammar. I couldn’t just tell her what was going on in my head even I didn’t understand what was going on and what if it worsened everything instead of making things better.

“Bullshit! Listen I’m already fucking frustrated and stressed that I have to meet my wonderful ex tomorrow…” she says and I’m thrown back. They were meeting tomorrow? So I was just standing there all up in my thoughts to even know that happened? “Please don’t make it worse” she says and I frown. What the fuck did she mean ‘please don’t make it worse.’

“Make it worse?” I ask, all I’ve been trying to do was make everything better, as better as possible. “Oh, I didn’t know my presence made things worse for you” I tell her and she sighs rolling her eyes.

“I haven’t fucking said that Sparks and you know it” she points me again “I just prefer you telling me you didn’t want to be here than whatever fucking bitchy mood you got going on!” she yells and I have had just about enough. Why was she angrily yelling at me? It was my mood and I would have it whenever I wanted.

“I wanted to be here… That’s why I’m here even after you let that girl touch you like that in front of me… In fact why wouldn’t you have brought her instead?!” I yell back without thinking about my words and she scoffs.

“Don’t you dare act like I didn’t turn her down right in front of you what more could you possibly fucking want ?!” she asks and I slam my hand on the desk waiting for a comeback to come out of me… Anytime now…

“You still let her flirt and tou-“.

“Bullcrap” Canine interrupts me slamming her open palm on the desk too and leaning in, her face close to mine as she leans on the desk staring right into my eyes. “I didn’t want her, I turned her down, I don’t want either of them…” she says and I sigh looking aside in shame then back at her.

“Then why the fuck do I feel like this?” I ask her pushing my hair back.

“Like what?” she asks sounding a bit more calm now and concerned. What was I going to tell her? It was stupid… It all seemed stupid.

“Nothing, forget it” I say looking away and folding my arms across my chest. She scoffs rubbing her chin then takes a few steps back. I watch her as she walks to the door, twists the knob, peaks her head outside then gets back in and locks it.

She looks back at me “Feel what? Regret?” she asks and I frown.

“For what?” I ask.

“You regret last night don’t you? And now you hate me for it” she says waving her arms. “You’re afraid you made a mistake right?” she asks her tone mocking and this gets me a bit more irritated than it should.

“What made you think that?” I ask through gritted teeth.

“Because that’s what you think of me Sparks!” she yells. “You think of me as a mistake that other girls have made and now you think you’ve made that mistake too” she says and I scoff and look away. I won’t lie, I once thought that of her until I started to know her and it just slowly faded. She was more than just some smug, bitchy, violent fuck girl.

“That’s not it… I don’t regret shit” I tell her leaning against the desk and she gets the memo and leans against the desk across from me, her face so close to mine in the most challenging way.

“Then what?” she asks clenching her jaw and I roll my eyes at her. “Don’t you dare give me that attitude this scene might change real quick” she warns and I involuntarily roll my eyes again. “Damn it, you never listen” she looks away “what are you feeling ?” she asks looking back at me her dark eyes searching mine, begging me to just talk to her.

“Why do I feel jealous? Who am I to feel jealous? Why the fuck does such petty shit affect me? Why am I acting like I own you?” I give in to her eyes, spitting my thoughts and when I’m done she doesn’t move back or say anything. “Is that what you want to hear ?” I raise my eyebrows.

“Honestly… Yes” she simply says and I sigh rolling my eyes. It was a habit leave me alone. I knew she wouldn’t help solve anything. “Why the fuck are you jealous of Tia?” she suddenly asks and I frown harder than I have all evening searching her eyes, was that really a question she should be asking me?

“Why?” I scoff “well one, she’s really hot” Canine nods. “You’ve been with her intimately more than once I’m guessing and she has enough confidence to just come at you like that” I explain waving my arms around.

“Yes… Yes, she’s so hot and just reeks of sexual tension” Canine says and I look away, wow, she knows how to make everything better. “But I’m not going to waste my time comparing you to her or any girl I’ve fucked… I’m not doing that” she shakes her head moving back. “Do that all you want, but I won’t” she shrugs.

Ugh… What the fuck was that even supposed to mean? Who the hell did she think she was giving me that smug response? “What am I to you?” I ask just wanting an answer to that all of a sudden the rest wasn’t enough. She looks at me, studies me carefully before shaking her head.

“I honestly don’t know, you make me fe-“.

“At least those girls you fuck around with know their place” I let that slip accidently and watch as the calm in her eyes disappear again.

“Don’t you fucking do that again” she points me slamming a fist on the desk but I don’t make a move to move back. I do regret saying those words, but I won’t show her that. “I trust you Sparks, I fucking care about you more than I should, I do respect you though you might not see that, and I might be scared to figure out what exactly I feel for you but I am here with you because I’m willing to figure all that shit out with you. Damn it Sparks, it’s not easy to trust someone like that again without fear that they might do the same thing”. She speaks through a clenched jaw, anger and raw emotions clear in her voice and the whole time my anger and all the emotions from earlier melt as I watch her lose her cool. I hadn’t gone through what she went through, but I was imagining it had to hurt and obviously it would bring a lot of trust issues. And here I was pressuring her for I don’t know what. Damn it.

She stops and bends looking down at the desk and guilt hits me so hard, I suddenly regret ever starting this whole thing. I walk over to her side of the desk and sigh just looking at her, her dark hair that was now losing it’s blue colour dangling over blocking her face a little. I sigh and raise my hand slowly knowing that sometimes she didn’t want to be touched and hoping it wasn’t one of those moments. Fortunately it’s not and she lets me push her hair back for her and tuck it behind her ear.

Her eyes are closed, jaw clenched she looks so angry, yet so beautiful I couldn’t begin to explain how devilishly beautiful she was. She faces up her eyes still closed, her breathing heavy, then faces back down, turning a little then opening her eyes to look at me. Her eyes were so dark, it’s like they had a whole story behind them, a story that involved a ship wreck. Or she was the ship wreck.

“I’m sorry” I whisper but she goes on studying me without a word “I just… I got a little possessive” I shake my head.

“Not a little” she says her voice low. “You were possessive” she corrects me and I look down feeling shame slowly drown me “and I have no problem with that” she adds and I look up at her. “I would be like that with you too… You’re amazing and I don’t want to have to share you with anyone” she says and I don’t understand where the wave of relief that hits me comes from. “I’m sorry I’m fucked up and it’ll take time for us to get to that step or any step for that matter but I promise you, I’m here for it, I’m here to wait until it happens, I’m not interested in anyone just you” she whispers her stare getting intense with every word and I nod, my hand already cupping her cheek and caressing her.

“Tell me you understand” she mutters our faces now so close and I do, I do understand, and I was willing to wait and go through the steps with her.

“I understand” I nod and watch as she smiles softly her full pink lips enticing and calling me. Before I know it, our lips are locked and I’m already under our spell, I let her take the lead as she always does and allow her to violate my mouth. She sucks on my lower lip after withdrawing her tongue from my mouth and opens her eyes then looks at me.

“Good” she whispers and before I can say anything she lifts me and places me on her desk parting my legs and standing between them the placing her hands on either sides of me. I smile to myself already knowing what was on her mind, or half of it. 

She nuzzles into my neck and I feel as she sucks on my skin, trailing kisses all the way to my ear, “Ever since I met you, I’ve been thinking of how it would feel to fuck you right here on this desk” she whispers into my ear and pulls me a bit closer to her making me feel excited suddenly.

Damn. I wanted her to continue talking and tell me every dirty thought she’s ever had of me. I know it’s a lot. “To eat you out, your head thrown back, your hand pushing my head further into you, your moans, fuck, how I love your moans Sparks” she goes on as if she’s heard my thoughts and my breath is already heavy by now just waiting for her to do something. To do just what she had said.

I can’t believe we were arguing a few minutes ago, but as I once said, things got sexual quickly with her except now I actually wanted that. “Do it then” I pant as she nibbles on the skin behind my ear sending shivers all over my body.

“With pleasure baby” she chuckles and doesn’t waste anytime as she gets on her knee “it’s like you knew” she smirks as she stares at the dress I was wearing which had now risen a little bit to my thighs. I stare at her as she pushes the dress up a little bit more and even help her move it all the way up to my ass. I watch as she bends her head down slowly trailing kisses and nibbling on my inner thighs causing chills to spread all over my body, before I feel her warm tongue press against my clit through my panties in the most teasing way.

I grab her by the hair and push her head a bit closer feeling like I needed more contact already.

“Calm down” she chuckles. “I’m all yours, I’m not going anywhere… We have all the time in the world” she says and I shake my head breathing a bit too hard. What was she talking about?

“No” I tell her and she chuckles again and looks up at me.

“Okay then, let’s make a deal… I give you what you want but you have to give me a show from up there” she says and I’m confused as to what she means by that.

“Hmm” I frown, hoping she’s not asking me to do something I can’t. I know she’s seen and done a lot and maybe I would never measure up to all that. But it all didn’t seem like that when she was here speaking to me with all this lust in her voice and when she looked up at me and made me feel as if I was the only girl in the world.

“Massage your tits for me” she says her eyes hovering over my chest and I could feel my erect nipples brush against the soft material of my dress, I knew it was visible to her.

“Hmm?” I hum again and she smirks, her eyes still on my chest.

“You heard me” she looks back at me and I sigh. “Mmhm” she nods then bends her head and I feel as she moves my panties to the side then in no time, her tongue is right there passing through my folds, flicking my clit a few times in the most teasing way making my legs cross behind her head instinctively to bring her closer. She gets the memo, and brings my clit into her mouth sucking on it.

“Holyy fuck yesss” I pant and pull her closer by the hair, my legs crossing harder.Hoping that I won’t kill her but not having enough strength to uncross my legs. Her hand holds on to one of mine and slowly guides it to my chest and she begins guiding me slowly and in no time, I’m touching my tits for her just like she wanted, my moans turning into breathless cries when she pushes her tongue inside me.

I throw my head back feeling my un-neat bun undo itself, and my hair fall. I pinch my nipples and squeeze hard on my breasts. Damn this felt Unbelievably wild and unlike me. So fucking good it hurt.

“Holy shit, you look hot from this angle I could paint you” she says and I find her staring at me as I try to catch a breath. She doesn’t allow me to catch a breath though because she gets back up and captures my lips in hers kissing me roughly “Jesus Christ you taste like fucking gold…” she moans into my mouth kissing me harder. “My turn” she whispers and her hand falls to my breasts. I moan as she squeezes them gently yet so roughly at the same time.

She trails kisses all the way to my open cleavage and with care pulls my dress down to my stomach by the straps. She presses her tongue on my nipple, then flicks on it a few times before pulling it into her mouth and starting her tricks as one of her hands drop and slowly rubs on my clit getting me to surrender my body to her and hold on to the desk for dear life.

“Shit Cain” I clutch the desk groaning as she abruptly enters me, slipping inside me so smoothly as if her finger was perfectly made for me.

“Fuck yes, moan my name Sparks” she groans against my lips adding another finger inside me as her thumb firmly rubs my clit.

“Yeah?” I moan breathlessly looking into her dark eyes that are pleading with me to moan her name. “Mmh fuck me Forbes” I moan knowing that’ll somehow do it for her and knowing none of the girls she’s been with knew her full name.

“Holy fuck, just like that” she moans kissing me again and curves her fingers inside me hitting a spot that causes my eyes to roll all the way to the back and I just let myself fall back flat on her desk. I don’t think any bone in my body has enough strength to hold me up. At this point I’m panting and crying out at the same time and I want her to stop because the feeling is too intense and I’m beginning to get scared that I’ll explode or something… But my mouth has other ideas.

“Don’t fucking stop, never stop” I half scream, my hand flying over my mouth as the other one clutches the desk. And she listens and doesn’t stop, she never stops.

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Ayy, I managed double chapters in a day, which means I started writing at 9.00 pm and finished at 3.00 am… And had to try and edit it the following day… Anyway, I love the two chapters I’ve worked on overnight. Don’t forget to star the freaking chapter, and leave a comment on anything and trust me the next chapter will pop up… it works. I’ve tried it😌.

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Re-editor note-What do you know, I actually enjoyed this smut…