Chapter 32

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The moment she opened her mouth and her smooth voice said my name in that sweet, cheery way she always did I felt bile along with the lunch I had rise up my throat and this… This was so fucked up I had to laugh. Laugh like some crazy person because at this point the universe had to have something against me. It was really fucking with me.

“You have to be fucking kidding me!” I laugh grabbing a fistful of my hair and pulling on it “you’re kidding right?” I speak to myself looking up at the white ceiling. “What the fuck did I ever do to you honestly?” I breathe and chuckle again. Holy shit I had to be hallucinating, but when I look back down everyone is staring at me as if I was crazy but no, not her, she knew what was up.

“What’s going on? You two know each other?” Drew asks a curious frown on his face and I look at Austin to find the same look, I look behind me at Sparks who was still standing by the door looking worried and confused at the same time.

“Know each other?” I laugh looking back at the guys, this was fucking ridiculous. “Know each other?” I repeat my voice getting lower as I look back at Hayley the familiar look in her eyes breaking my heart once again and I scoff surprised I still could feel this hurt by just looking at her. “What the fuck are you doing here?!” I suddenly yell, rubbing my neck roughly, the chocking feeling was back again.

“Whoa whoa Nine, what’s going on?” Austin walks towards me looking concerned “You know this lady?”.

I look back at Hayley and bite my lower lip hard unable to look at her for more than a minute without the memories flooding back to me “Want to introduce yourself?” I ask her.

“Alison I’m not-” she begins and her voice gives me chills from the amount nostalgic feelings it brings back.

“This my dear friends, my dear Drew, my dear Austin… Sparks, this is Hayley, Hayley Voldemort” I smile bitterly pointing my friends as I introduce the great Hayley.

“No… Thee Hayley?” Austin’s eyes widen and Drew takes steps backwards assessing the situation. Remember when I almost had a breakdown that one time and didn’t, I think it was going to happen rightnow.

“Alison I am not here to argue with you” she speaks her voice low and takes a step towards me stretching her hand for me but I quickly take a step back and release a shaky breath fearing her touch would burn me or worse. Why was she trying to reach out for me in the first place? I finally take my time to look up at her and notice she’s dyed her hair blonde and it was now longer and down in wavy curls, she could change everything about her but she would still remain the traitor bitch she was.

“Then what the fuck are you doing here?” I speak under my breath.

“I…” she sighs in defeat under my glare then looks down at her feet and I remember how I’d always raise her head by the chin when she’d do this and stare into her ocean eyes until she smiled. I run a palm down my face in frustration, why was my brain trying to fuck with me too?

“Get the fuck away from me” I point her.

“Listen Ali…”.

“I don’t have to fucking listen to anything you have to say” I interrupt her and we finally make eye contact, I’m too mad to notice that though. “And don’t fucking call me that” I warn her.

She scoffs “I see you’re still mad at me” she says and I want to laugh again but I just shake my head.

“Unbelievable, what’d you expect? Me to hug you ? Give you a warm welcoming?” I mock her and being the psycho bitch she is, she smiles.

“That wouldn’t hurt” she says and I laugh, I have to.

“Get the fuck out” I smile at her bitterly gritting my teeth and pointing towards the door. She was here but she could leave and we would all forget this night ever happened.

“Listen, what happened in the past happened, we were kids back then and I’m sorry but my apology won’t change shit…” I hear Austin scoff behind me but I’m just too astonished to do anything, she really had some nerve. “I’m not here to talk about that, I refuse to let what happened in the past affect the way you think of me now” she says and I have to scoff too.

“What the fuck do you want?” I ask already tired of listening to her bullshit.

“I want to invest in your gym, after all that’s what you’re looking for right?” she states simply maintaining strong eye contact with my twitching eyes. I grin, this was just amazing.

“Let me make this clear, I’d rather let this gym fall than work with you… I’d rather burn this place down and watch it burn to ashes than sit anywhere with you and discuss business, I refuse to be associated with you Hayley, now get the fuck out” I point the door again not realizing I was now so close to her face my jaw clenched so hard, my teeth hurt. My ears along with my neck were so hot, I couldn’t explain the anger I felt, what’s weird is I sounded calmer than I felt, I wanted to yell but I didn’t have the strength for that.

“Calm down” Austin pulls me back his voice quiet and I let him pull me back because I had no control over myself or anything at the moment.

“I’m sorry but I think you should leave” I hear Drew’s voice but I don’t have half the strength to turn and look at him.

“Okay” Hayley shrugs her hair brushing against her bare shoulders in the blue strapless dress she was wearing, she smiles and takes a step back placing her hand in her bag and removing a card. “It’s okay, but when you decide to be a grown up about shit call me” she places the card on the desk.

“A grown up? Are you shitting me?” I ask stretching my hands and she walks towards me and catches me completely off-guard by placing her open palm on my cheek. I freeze completely in place due to the unexpected contact, her cold touch feeling foreign on my hot skin. This had to be a nightmare, but when the fuck would I wake up ?

“I would ask you to calm down if anger didn’t look so good on you” she says quietly and I gulp, she was kidding me right? But before I could come up with a response someone else speaks on my behalf.

“I thought she asked you to leave” Sparks voice comes from beside me, her tone sharp but her voice soft. Hayley’s hand drops from my face and she turns and looks at Sparks then smiles biting her lower lip. What the fuck? She looks back at me.

“I like her, she’s pretty” she says nodding as if Sparks isn’t right beside me. “Doesn’t really seem like your type though” she adds then looks back at Drew and Austin “it was nice meeting you guys” her smile widens and her voice raises sounding so fake “I hope I get to work with you people”. She looks back at me and puckers her lips flipping her hair to one side “Call me” she says then in slow yet loud footsteps walks out of the office leaving us quiet listening to the click-clacking of her heels.

I hear the door close behind her and visibly sigh and cup my face. I felt weak and heavy at the same time, how was all this fair? This didn’t even make sense, who the fuck was the powerful being that kept fucking up with my life like this?

“What the fuck?!” I yell into my palm.

“Are you okay Nine?” I raise my head to find all of them staring at me and I could feel it… My heart rate increasing, I could hear my own heart beat, feel the stinging of tears in my eyes, it hurt like hell. Everything hurt.

“I have to go… I…” I rub my eyes moving back slowly, this was too much to handle and with people watching too. I couldn’t stand there and face any of them when I felt this vulnerable and stripped completely naked to the bone.

“Cain…” Sparks takes a step towards me but I raise my hand. I didn’t want anyone close to me at the moment.

“Stay away” I breathe and shake my head then turn and walk out the door slamming it shut just when Drew yells my name. I needed some time alone, a lot of time alone.

I walk passed the room filled with people, pushing some of them, why the fuck were there so many people here anyway. I push open the glass door and look in all directions for my bike panting like a lunatic. I spot it and run towards it, desperate to get away from humans. I jump on it and start it, still not comfortably seated but immediately drive off not giving a shit, I just needed to be away.

I didn’t even know where I was going, I felt unsafe at my own house at the moment and I would have someone constantly checking up on me at Drew’s or Austin’s and I didn’t want that. I just wanted to be alone and feel like complete shit to unpack all the emotions I was feeling at the moment. I think it was better to be at my house and deal with Nik, I’d take Nik any day to Hayley, at least he never lied.. he’s just a natural dick.

The night breeze didn’t work on me tonight as I sped through the road feeling my face growing hot from all the memories. “I love you” she said she made me believe that she was all I had, made me believe that she cared for me and made me make her my priority, and all for what ?! To play me in the end, to kick me out of our own bubble that we had created? Make me feel unwanted and like some stupid needy loser? Make me beg for the love that she had promised to give me forever until the ‘next life’? Is that what it all was for? It was a game to her, she just used me and when I wasn’t convenient for her anymore she dropped me like I was nothing then found a new toy. Fucking disgusting.

“Fuuuuuuuuuuckkkkkk!” I yell speeding past a red light and that’s when I hiccup painfully realizing it’s already happening, I’m already crying because of her… Again. I was so tired, why her? The fucking same people. They never game me a break.

I literally jump off my bike letting it fall when I get to my place and run to the front door, finding it locked. I knew I had spare keys somewhere here but damn it I wasn’t thinking straight. I jiggle the door knob and when it didnt open I felt frustrated and start kicking on my door, why wouldn’t it open, it knew I was the fucking owner of the place. Dumb door.

“Why the fuck?” I hit it again the hard wood hurting my foot but the physical pain felt way better at the moment than what I was feeling inside so I start to punch the door. Not that it would open, I just wanted to feel something else. Something to get my mind away from her and all her lies. The way she made me look so stupid in front of people. She was quick to turn against me and treat me like trash. “She was just using you you fucking idiot!” I yell punching the door again hearing and feeling my knuckles crack and screaming in both emotional and physical pain.

“Fuck!” I yell again falling to my knees and letting my forehead meet the door roughly, I close my eyes allwoing the tears to fall, hating myself more for letting her have this effect on me. I was so pathetic, I had always been pathetic, and it hurt to know that I still was. A fucking idiot. I groan hitting the door several times with my open palm as tears roll down my cheeks.

“Why won’t you open up?” I cry and pull on my hair letting myself cry out loud like the pathetic person I was.

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This wasn’t fun to write…. not one bit. But ayy, press that star looking thingy and the next chapter might just pop up. I also wrote this late and I am sleepy af, so it might not be perfectly edited, I wasn’t even supposed to post it tonight but I figured why tf not I need to work on another tomorrow anyway.

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Hmm, re-editor me here to remind you to vote and comment, also I love this chapter, coz I would laugh too if I was Cain then cry later, sometimes you just don’t know what else to do…

Also I felt like apologizing to cain when they were like ‘who the fuck was the powerful being that kept fucking with my life like this ?’ I felt so freaking guilty, damn.