Chapter 45

JENNIE

I sat next to the window looking outside. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t turn off my mind that was thinking way too much. We made a step forward. We knew that it was my fault at the end. I was the one who put my favorite persons to this situation. I wiped my tears before they fall. I held my sob for not waking them up.

I looked back to our bed and Jisoo had Ella in her arms. They looked so calm. Like everything was like before. Like we were on a trip. Just the three of us.. Tomorrow morning Ella would leave with Seunghyun. I would miss my baby girl but that was the right thing to do. I wanted her to be away from all this. She’s already been in a life full of drama.

I left the cold window and I walked back to my princesses. I lied back down. Ella was sleeping in the middle of us. I held both of them in my arms. Having them close to me I always felt safe. Before I close my eyes I felt Jisoo’s hand on mine. I looked at her and her eyes we closed. She didn’t say anything. She just held my hand that was on top of Ella’s little body. Like we were both protecting her from the outside world. With that feeling I managed to close my eyes and sleep.

Next morning we woke up at 8am. Ella’s flight was at 2pm. She was exited that she would go to New York with Seunghyun, although she was sad that she was leaving back her mommies. We told her that we would come too but we needed to stay back for a while. How long it was going to be? And what would happen at the end, no one knew.

“Baby, could you please bring Ella’s book? It’s next to the nightstand.” She couldn’t sleep if we didn’t read to her. With her teddy bear in her arms and us reading to her she was sleeping every night.

“Here it is..”

“Ella, baby girl, lets go. Grandpa is waiting for us downstairs to go for breakfast.”

“Okay momma. I am coming.”

I was standing there, looking both my girls moving around the room. I was looking at them in fast forward. Only that I was standing still and I was looking at them moving.

“Jen.. Baby? Jennie…”

“Yes, I am here.” was I?

“Are you coming?”

“Yes, I am sorry. Let’s go.”

Seunghyun was waiting for us downstairs. He greeted all of us with a hug and a kiss. He gave Ella two kisses though. I could see how he was with the little girl.

“How are you girls? I talked with Taeyang yesterday and he told me everything.”

“At least we know now dad. Before, we were clueless. Now we know..” Jisoo said looking at me and holding my hand underneath the table.

“Jennie, how are you?”

“Good? I guess..”

“Are you?”

“I don’t know Seunghyun. I wish I could really tell you.”

“Baby?” Jisoo looked at me for one more time, holding my hand tighter this time like telling me she was here with me. I knew I had her. That’s why I was staying strong.

“So.. princess.. Are you exited you are going to New York with grandpa?”

“I am mommy. I am sad though. When are you going to come?”

“We discussed it sweetie. As soon as everything is set up here and momma and I have everything planned we are coming there as well..”

“But when?”

“I don’t know. I just don’t know. Okay?” My voice was higher than usual and it was actually the first time I was raising my voice especially to Ella. When I saw her lowering her eyes and being ready to cry I cursed myself for being like that.. And Jisoo wasn’t happy either.

“I am sorry mommy..”

“Jennie, come with me right now. Please excuse us..”

I saw Jisoo being mad but this right now was something else.. She was furious.. After all the things I have done to her, after the yelling, and all these lovely stuff it was the first time I was seeing her like that.

“What the hell? Are you crazy?”

“I know. I know. I am sorry. I didn’t want to raise my voice. It’s just.. I don’t know.. Everything is..”

“Everything is fucked up. The life we are living these days is like hell. There is someone that is hunting us, the same person who wants to kill you. But you have to smile infront of our girl. As I did all this long. As I was smiling when I thought that it was my fault. When all this long you were accusing me. I know you Jennie; I know what you do when you are afraid. But we are talking about our daughter here. She is young and she will be away from her mothers for the first time. Just put that fucking poker face and go back to the table for her. Get it?”

“Got it..”

She was right. I couldn’t say a thing because she was so right. So I did what she told me to do. I had a smile on my face. When we got back Ella wasn’t looking at me. I couldn’t see those beautiful blue eyes.

“Ella?” She didn’t look at me.. “Baby girl? I am sorry.. Mommy didn’t want to raise her voice. Okay? I love you and I am sorry.”

“It’s okay mommy..”

“Can I see those beautiful blue eyes of yours? Because I am going to miss my girl so much and I want to remember her eyes when I’ll be alone..” She looked at me and her eyes were watered. I made my princess cry and I wanted to cry right now.. “Please don’t cry sweetie. I am sorry. I promise to come there with mommy as soon as we can ok? We will talk on the phone and video chat.” She hugged me and started to cry on my neck. For five years it was me and her. Us, being lost in this world. She was my sanity. The reason I was trying everyday.

“I am going to miss you and momma. I love grandpa but I love you more.”

“And we love you too baby girl. Mommy and I love you more than anything.”

I loved Jisoo. That wasn’t unknown to the people they knew us. But when she wasn’t putting up with my shit and she was telling me that I was a bitch I loved her even more.

The hours till it was time for them to leave came so fast. Seunghyun told us that it would be for the best if we said our goodbyes at the hotel and not at the airport.

Jisoo was at the car with Ella while I was talking with Seunghyun. I felt like he was my father. I trusted him that much.

“We will call you once we land. Ok? I promise to take care of her. Actually I already cancelled everything back to New York. It will be princess Ella and me.”

“Thank you Seunghyun. For everything.”

“Jennie, I told you that you make my daughter happy. She loves both of you. You are her family and you are mine. We will be in touch. Take care and I feel better because you are in good hands. Now, I am going. Take good care of my girl.”

“And take good take of ours. Have a nice trip.”

“Thank you. Princess Ella, say goodbye to mommy.”

“Goodbye mommy. Love you.”

“Love you too. Take good care of grandpa and stay out of trouble.”

“I will. I promise.”

And like that we stayed there till the car was nothing but a black dot on the road. Jisoo held me and we walked back at the hotel.

“Baby.. Everything is going to be fine..”

“Are you sure?”

“I am sure that I love you enough to promise you that I will make them okay. I am here, I will protect you..”

“I..” Jisoo’s phone rang and I didn’t tell her what she meant for me. That I loved her so much that when she was away from me I was hurting.

“Hello? Ah, yes Taeyang. Goodmorning.. Yes, she is here with me. Okay.. We will see you in a few. Bye.”

“Taeyang?”

“Yes. He found something and he wants us to meet him in his room.”

“Did he tell you anything else?”

“No. Just to go at his room.”

“So, let’s go then.”

I really didn’t know what Taeyang wanted to say or what he found but whatever it was I am sure it was better from nothing. All these days Detective Kang and Lee didn’t tell us a thing.

“Goodmorning girls. How’s little Ella?”

“They left a few minutes ago for the airport.” Jisoo said.

“It’s for the best. So.. I found some interesting things. I talked with a friend of mine at the FBI. I did a background check for those two detectives that you told me. Detective Kang is okay. She is an excellent detective. Nothing is wrong with her. Unfortunately I wouldn’t say the same for Detective Lee.”

“What? Detective Lee?”

“He graduated first from the Academy, with excellent grades. But the last two years there is a suspicion that he is taking money from underground people. From the outside he is an excellent officer and family man but from the inside he is not that pure. I checked his bank account and it’s bigger than a detective would make per month. So I believe that Detective Lee is the one who helped Seungri. Also he was the one who investigated the case at that time and interrogated him.”

“Oh my God. That’s why he knew where to find us. And the man I saw that day outside the hotel.. Oh my God..”

“What man Jennie?”

“The day I was out with Ella I saw a man figure looking at me or the hotel. I couldn’t see his face but he seemed creepy. He made my skin crawl.
“It’s the day that I lost Ella and she was found by a man..”

“Yes..”

“Jennie.. I am going to ask you something. It’s risky but we need proofs. I want you to call detective Lee and tell him what I am going to tell you. Okay?”

“Taeyang, I don’t know. What if something happens?”

“Jisoo, if its detective Lee we will catch him and Seungri. Because he is the one who gives all the information. They want Jennie and we need to give her to them.”

“What? No!! What if they do something bad to her? I will not agree on this…” She was scared. I could see it in her eyes. But it was time to man up. Or woman up. You know what I mean.

“Jisoo. Look at me. I would do anything to stop all this. For him to go in jail and let us continue our life with our girl.. And when everything is finished I want to ask you something..”

“Ask me something? What?”

“When everything is finished. Now Taeyang, please tell me what I have to do. I want to get over with this.”

“Okay. You are going to tell him..”

Was I scared about what I would do? Yes.. Was I ready? Maybe. But I wanted for everything to finish. I wanted to feel free again. Leave the past behind and start my future with Jisoo and our little girl. That’s why, although I was scared, I was ready to do what Taeyang told me.