Chapter 14

JISOO

You hear every day about women being abused. Women being raped. You wonder why someone didn’t say anything. Why someone didn’t help. How is it possible to hurt another person? And when that happens to someone you know, a friend, a family member, your own child then things are different.

I knew that Suho was an asshole. A pusher. When we were together he had his way persuading me to what he wanted. He was another Nara Kim. And I was always listening to him. Not that I didn’t understand what he was doing. I just didn’t want to say anything. And for my mom I should be a lovely girlfriend and a future lovely wife to my boyfriend.

Jisoo Kim. This is me. But who is me actually? The one that I wanted to be or the one that my mother wanted me to be? Jisoo Kim wanted to be free. Jisoo Kim was in love with a girl when she was younger but to her mom that was forbidden. That was unforgivable. Nara Kim couldn’t have a gay daughter and of course as a good daughter I was I put it behind. I hide it deep inside and I forgot what I wanted and she never found out about it. I had only two relationships my whole life. To my mother’s discomfort. Suho being my second of course.

You are wondering if I liked a girl after that crush in high school. The answer is no. I managed to hide it so well that I pushed my feelings away. It amazed me how they came back when I met Jennie for the first time. When I saw her that shiny day with her beautiful smile. Then the things I forgot, the things I thought that I forgot were coming back and I just didn’t know what to do. How to react. What would happen? I was with Suho. A guy that I’ve been with for two years. And now I was starting to like Jennie. A girl I didn’t know at that time. A girl that I didn’t know how to talk. And all I did was to be what I knew the best. Being an uptight snob bitch. As she said I was.

Day after day I was going to that bakery shop just to see her. She was always making my day without even know it. Till that night that fate brought us together accidentally. And since that day she managed to bring light to my life. She managed with her beautiful daughter to make me feel something when everything was black. And I could smile because of her.

I was starting to forget Suho. Suho was a back up plan. Someone that I was supposed to be with. But when Jennie came into my life I just wanted to end this with him. I wasn’t in love with him. I never had been. And he was making miserable. Jennie was making me happy just being there with me. Even as friends..

When he came to my office that morning I knew that it wouldn’t end well. I didn’t expect him though to do something like that. Although it is just an assumption. Jennie still doesn’t say anything about who it was. But I know it was him. I saw it in his face that he was up to no good. I didn’t know that he would hurt Jennie. It wasn’t her fault. She had nothing to do with me and Suho but in his crazy mind he thought that she was the reason I was changing. She was the spark of my change not the reason.

When I got inside the meeting I felt strange. My mind was to Suho and what happened minutes ago inside my office. I don’t know why or how but something was telling me to go back to my house. I told Bona that I was leaving and I called my house phone. No one was answering. Jennie was in her crunches so the first time I didn’t get worry. Second time and nothing. Third and nothing. I knew that something was wrong.

When I opened the door to my apartment I found her on the floor, unconscious covered with blood. The first thing I did was to see if she was alive. I checked her pulse but it was almost not existent. I tried to talk to her. I tried to see where she was hurt. She was a mess. And the blood on the floor. That bastard. It had to be Suho. No one had the reason to come in here and hit Jennie. I called the ambulance and found the strength to call Ella’s school. I didn’t know how long we would be at the hospital. Once the ambulance was here I found the doorman and asked him if he saw who came inside. He said that he couldn’t remember because he was on the phone at some point. He realized what happened when he saw Jennie on that medical table and his face fell. Our building had cameras and I am sure it wasn’t a thief. It was someone he knew.. And that someone was sure Suho.

“I want the tapes from today. Who got inside our building, who left and what time. You heard me John?”

“Ms. Kim.. I don’t..”

“Someone was hurt at my apartment and since you were talking on the phone and you haven’t seen them I want the tapes. I will come and take them when I will be back. Have them ready.”

“Yes, Ms. Kim.”

“Spencer?”

“Yes?” I was looking outside the window thinking the last three days. Jennie wasn’t allowed to leave yet from the hospital because they were worried about her concussion

“Why you are there?”

“I was just thinking.”

“Where is Ella?”

“At her school. Once I drove her there I came right here immediately.”

“I am sorry.” now I was coming closer to her bed. My heart was breaking looking at her in that condition. I am going to kill that bastard. Because now I have the evidence I need. He was at my building that day and I am going to put him in jail. If only I could make Jennie admit that he was the one who hit her.

“Don’t be. There is nothing to feel sorry for.”

“I do. You are here instead of working. And that because of me and my stupid leg and now arm and a concussion.” I sat at the chair next to her bed and I put my hand on hers. It was so soft. I looked at her in her eyes.

“How are you feeling?”

“A little dizzy but good. My arm hurts though.”

“The nurse said that you can press the button and have morphine in your system when you’re hurt.”

“I don’t want to.”

“Why?”

“I.. just don’t want to. Morphine is a drug that I don’t need in my system right now.” she would rather hurt than have the morphine. Why? I didn’t pressure her though..

“I am going to ask the doctor when you can come home. Okay?”

“Can you just stay here for a while? Please?”

“Of course.”

Although she was awake only for fifteen minutes she fell asleep again while holding my hand. That was what the doctors were afraid. That she couldn’t stay awake for more than an hour. They assured me though that they were keeping her here out of precaution and nothing more. When I knew she was already asleep I walked outside her room and tried to find her doctor..

“Excuse me. Can you please page Dr. Torres?”

“Your name Ms?”

“Kim. Jisoo Kim. His patient is Jennie Kwon.”

“Sit right there Ms and I will.”

I waited for twenty minutes passing infront of Jennie’s room in case I would see her awake when Dr. Torres came..

“Ms. Kim, hello. How is our patient today?”

“She hurts and she still refuses to take the morphine.”

“We can’t do anything about it if she doesn’t want it. We can give her though another pain medicine that is not that strong.”

“Anything doctor.”

“You care a lot about your friend.”

“Yeah, I do. When can I take her home?”

“We are going to take her to have some tests and if they are okay you can leave tonight. There is no reason for her to be here.”

“When are you going to have these tests?”

“Once we are ready I’ll come by her room. Okay?”

“Yes, Doctor.”

When I got back to Jennie’s room she was awake. These last days I noticed her a lot. She was sleeping for a couple of minutes and then she would wake up. And then the same again.

“What the doctor said? Can I leave?”

“You have to do some tests to see if you are okay and if you are we can go.”

“Perfect.”

“Also he said that he can have you under another pain pill and not the morphine. So maybe you won’t hurt that much now.”

“Okay.”

She seemed.. I don’t know.. Sad? Hurt? She seemed different since that day..

“Do you want something to eat?”

“Not really but thank you Jichu. For everything.”

“You.. gave me a nickname.” I said while smiling. I am 29 years old and if someone gave me a cringey nickname like that, I would be mad immediately. But it’s Jennie and it felt so good hearing it from her. Jichu hmm it doesn’t sound that bad or maybe not bad at all. Especially when it comes from Jennie’s mouth.

“You did that first.”

“I did. Didn’t I?”

“I missed Ella.”

“I know. But I didn’t want to bring her here. It’s not a place for a child.”

“Thank you for taking care of her. I hate it that I can’t take care of my daughter.”

“You can’t in your position. I know you want to but you have to realize that you can’t. I am just glad that you are alive and not dead. I am going to kill him for what he did to you.”

“No you won’t do anything.”

“Jennie, how can you say that? Can’t you see yourself? It was Suho and don’t try to say otherwise. I know.”

“So since you knew why you kept asking me?”

“Because you are the one who was hit. You are the one who can put him in jail. Not me. I can help you do it.”

“Really Jisoo? You want to put in jail your boyfriend?”

“He is not my boyfriend anymore. I broke up with him that day..”

“What day?”

I haven’t told her. She didn’t know that Suho went to my apartment the day I broke it off with him.. And slightly it was my fault that she was hurt..

“I broke up with Suho the day you were hurt.”

“You broke up with him?”

“Yes and I am so sorry Jennie. Please believe me. I didn’t know that he would come to my apartment and do what he did.”

And she was silent. I didn’t know what to get from her silence. She was mad? She hated me? And she still wasn’t talking..

“Jennie?”

“You broke up with him.”

“Yes.”

“Good.”

“That’s all you have to say?”

“What do you want me to say Jisoo? That guy is an ass and he doesn’t deserve someone like you.”

“So it was him?”

“Jisoo please.. Can we let it go please? I am not feeling well.”

“Jennie, please.. if you don’t help me I can’t help you.”

“Jichu, please..” My heart soften when I heard her called me with that nickname again.

“Okay. But we are going to talk about this again. You heard me Jennie?”

“Whatever..”

I couldn’t understand why she was like that. Why she couldn’t confess that it was him. I might had the tape but that didn’t mean anything. The tape showed Suho got in and get out. He could be everywhere and if I couldn’t prove that he was at my apartment then there was no case. Jennie was the only one who could put him in jail and she was still refusing to do it..