Chapter 13

JENNIE

They say that in great danger you can see your life passing in front of you like a movie.. And mine did.. I saw my young self with my sister playing, I saw my parents with us laughing next to our Christmas tree, I saw Ella when she was born and last thing I saw was Jisoo..

When I heard the door in Jisoo’s apartment I thought it was her and I was surprised because it was too early.. When I walked to see if it was her I came face to face with Suho..

“Jisoo? Is that you?” I asked while walking to the front door. That’s when I heard his voice..

“Think again.”

“Suho?”

“Good. I am glad you remember me,” his sarcastic nature. I really didn’t like him.

“Of course I do. You are hard to forget.” I said without even looking at him. “Jisoo is not here. And how you came inside anyway?”

“You seem to forget that I live here and Jisoo is my girlfriend. If anything you are the one that shouldn’t be here.”

“Suho from what I remember Jisoo said you are not living here. I think you should go. Suho will be here tonight. Come again later.” I saw his smile and it wasn’t a good smile. If anything it was a crazy smile. When you see those lunatics in a movie killing young girls.

“But I don’t want Jisoo. I came here for you.”

“Suho I don’t see the reason why. Please leave.” he came closer and instantly I felt his hot breath on my face. It smelled alcohol.

“You have no right to tell me what to do at MY house. Did you listen to me? It is my house. And Jisoo is mine.”

He was drunk. And he was starting to seem dangerous. I had to think really careful before I say or do anything that would piss him off. As much as I would like to punch him on his pretty face.

“Suho, Jisoo is yours. And I think that you should sit for a second and let me make you a coffee.”

That’s when he lost it. That’s when I saw my past right in front of me. He pushed me on the wall where I lost my balance and hit the ground. He was standing in front of me and I was afraid of the worst. I tried to get up but I couldn’t. My head was hurting and when I touched it I saw blood. He pushed me really hard.

“You changed her. You. My Jisoo was never like that. You are a fucking bitch who changed my Jisoo. Fuck you.” and I felt him kicking me on my ribs. Not once, not twice. But more than I could remember. And it was hurting. I couldn’t understand what he was saying. Why he was thinking that I changed Jisoo. He was crazy.

“Suho, please.” I tried to say between breaths. I couldn’t talk because the pain was unbearable. I think that he might broke one of my ribs because the pain was so sharp in my lungs when I talked.

“Please? Please? You are going to wish you have never met her.”

I was vulnerable. I was all alone. Not able to defend myself. I closed my eyes and let myself on his mercy. I was just praying for someone to hear his screams. I was praying for someone to come and save me from his wrath. I was feeling every kick on my body. After some time I couldn’t feel anything anymore. I was just laying down on the floor, without being able to open my eyes. Last thing I remember was his voice next to my ear..

“If you tell anyone about this I am going to kill you and your daughter. And even if you did no one would believe a filthy bitch.” and he spit on me. I was nothing to him.

I don’t know how long I stayed there. How long I was unconscious on the floor. I heard a soft hand on my face and I couldn’t even open my eyes to see who it was. My body was aching. I felt completely broken. Violated. I was afraid that he would rape me. Mark me for life. Because his look was the one of a crazy person’s. Thank God he didn’t.

“Jennie. Jennie can you hear me? Jen, please.” I could hear a soft voice calling my name. I couldn’t open my eyes though and my hearing was not good yet. I couldn’t place the noises surrounding me. I couldn’t move. My broken leg hurt even more than before. He hurt me really bad. I couldn’t hear the soft voice again. All I could hear was a voice far away and here and there things.. And then she was back again.

“You are going to be fine baby. You have to be fine. I called the ambulance. They are going to be here in a few. Oh God, Jennie.” and I felt their hand on mine and something wet. Was that person crying? And then I lost my senses for one more time..

Everything was so pretty. So bright. Colors everywhere. I saw Dahee and she looked happy. My parents were with her holding her. I was calling them but they couldn’t hear me. It was like I wasn’t there for them. And I could just see them from afar. I tried and tried but every time I was coming closer they were going away. And I just wanted to be there with them. I wanted to hold them again but it was like something was holding me back. It was a whisper..

“Jennie, please wake up. Ella is asking for you. She wants her mommy and I told her that you are going to be fine. So please wake up. I won’t forgive myself if you won’t. So please..” and I felt her lips next to my lips..

That voice. It was like Jisoo’s. But why she was here? Where here was?

I felt her hand on mine and it felt so good. The pain from before was nowhere to be found. I tried to open my eyes and my sight was blurry. I could see though her beautiful brown hair. I tried to squeeze her hand but I didn’t have the strength. She felt it though..

“Jennie? Jennie can you hear me?” I could see her now but I couldn’t speak. I had a tube on my throat and the moment I realized it I wanted to throw up. “Jennie, wait. Don’t try anything. I am going to call for a doctor.”

I was in a hospital again. I tried to look at myself. A cast on my hand and I could feel something tight on my ribs. Something on my hand that I supposed was drugs and the sharp pain on my throat. Was I that bad?

“Doctor. She just opened her eyes. It must be like five minutes ago that she did.” I tensed the moment I saw him..

“Jennie, relax. I am Dr. Torres. You have a tube on your throat. We are going to remove it in a sec. It will be painful and you might have the need to throw up. Okay?” I just opened and closed my eyes. I wanted this thing out of my throat. “Okay. Are you ready?” I nodded for one more time.. When he removed it I threw up in a sec. My throat felt dry and it hurt.

“Jennie can you talk?”

“Yes.” my voice was even huskier than before.

“It will go away. Don’t worry. You feel like that because of the tube. You will drink a lot of fluids and it will go back to normal. Ms. Kim if you would like to sit?”

“Yes, doctor.”

“Ms. Kwon, you suffer from a concussion. The second one in four days. I would suggest for you to be very careful. This time it was really bad. You were unconscious for a long time before Ms. Kim found you and you were unconscious for two days now here at the hospital. We did stitches in the back of your head so it is going to be sore for some days. Now.. as for your body. You have three broken ribs and you are very lucky because one of them was really close to go into your lung. So it might be a little difficult for you to breath for a couple of days. You have a broken arm that we put back to its place but you are going to have the cast for two weeks and then you will need therapy. You were lucky that your leg was already in a cast but we had to change it and put a new one because the person who hit you seemed that his goal was really to hurt you. We found your cast broken is some places.”

He was talking and I was trying to remember what happened. It was like my mind was black and now the memories were coming back.. Suho. His was the one who hit me. And his words were still in my head ‘If you tell anyone about this I am going to kill you and your daughter’. He was crazy. If he was able to hit me like that I was afraid that he would make his threat real.

“Ms. Kwon. Do you know the person who did that to you so you can press charges?”

“No. I can’t remember doctor.”

“Well, when you do we will have to talk Ms. Kwon. Don’t let that person be outside and harm another woman like you. Ms. Kim did you see if something was missing from your house?”

“No doctor. I didn’t. I will once I am home.”

“Okay. If you need anything tell a nurse and they will page me.”

I was afraid. I was afraid. The first time that I felt that kind of fear was about how I would raise Ella without having money. How I would feed her and give to a child what they needed. But now this fear was different. He was threatening me and Ella. And I didn’t care for myself. I cared for my child. She was innocent to all this and he was fucking crazy.

“Jen, tell me who was it please?”

“You called me Jen. And I thought that my mind was playing tricks” I wanted to ease the situation. And how could I tell her about what happened. She wouldn’t believe a stranger over her boyfriend.

“Jennie, please. Don’t.” she touched my hand once again without moving from where she was sitting. That meant next to my bed.

“I.. I don’t remember Jisoo.”

“It was Suho right?” how she knew? How she suspected that? Did he find her? Did he hurt her too? “I just want you to feel better and come home. Then I want you to tell me what happened Jennie. You scared me. Do you know that? Do you know in what condition I found you?” and she was crying. I didn’t want for her to cry and I wanted to touch her beautiful face and tell her that I was okay. Only that I wasn’t. “And I know it was Suho. That fucker. I am going to hunt him down.” was it wrong that in my condition I thought she was hot when she was swearing?

“Where is Ella?”

“She will be at the school till 5pm. I took the week off from work so I can take care both of you. Thank God I came home an hour before I go and pick up Ella. You were bleeding on the floor Jennie.” and she stood up from her seat. Immediately I felt my hand going cold without her touching me. “I don’t know how I found the strength to call at her school and tell them to hold her there for a while because her mom was at the hospital.”

“Thank you. For everything that you are doing and I am sorry that you had to take a week off. Did Mr. Yanni call? We can go at their house. I don’t want to be a burden to you..”

“Don’t even think like that. You and Ella are not a burden. And.. I like having you there. I am just scared for you Jennie.. You are broken. Literally”

“I am going to be fine.” could I be fine though? And could the three of us be fine with Suho out there?

“I hope you will. I am going to take care of you.”

“I am sorry I thought you were a bitch.”

“I was. You just changed me. You and Ella.”

When she said that, Suho’s words echoed back to my bead ‘You changed her’. But how I did?