Chapter 49

“What’s this about ?” Hayley tilts her head a bit a small suspcious smile on her lips and I have to laugh at how familiar that look is.

Drew had left reluctantly after our little meeting and it was now 7 in the evening and begining to get dark out. ‘But Cain what about the gym? how’s it going ?’. Calm down I was getting to that, I wouldn’t say it was great but I would say there was major improvement with biking wednesday going on and Logan doing great advertising it in his own way. It was doing better than it was before all this and you have no idea how good this made me feel, not because of the bet, no. I felt good because my baby was growing, it was doing amazing and I felt proud to be the owner. With this gym, my friends and Flame by my side I felt like less of a fuck up, I felt like this was my second chance to do good in my life and I would take it with open arms. I would embrace it.

“What? Can’t I just want to talk to you?” I ask Hayley and she raises her eyebrows her smile widening.

“Oh no, please do” she leans back in her seat raising her hands in defense.

I nod to myself and bring my seat forward leaning on the desk to get a bit closer to her since she was seated across from me “Remember how we started dating?”. Her eyes widen and the smile on her face disappears only for a minute before she smiles again. She was in shock I could tell but she recovered quickly.

“Of course I do, for a virgin at the whole dating thing you had game” she laughs waving her hands and I place a hand over my face, laughing along with her. “Your game was unique though, you didn’t have to pour a smoothie on me to get me to take my top off” she points me and I look away smiling at the memory.

“You know I did that by mistake though right?” I raise an eyebrow trying to contain my smile and she shrugs.

“Yeah right, as far as I know, you were just smooth and wanted a reason for me to take my top off for you”.

“I wish I was that smooth” I chuckle. Hayley and I started talking in the silliest way. I somehow just fell for her the moment she took her top off confidently in front of me in the bathroom, I sure couldn’t do that, I didn’t even know people were allowed to be that confident. That was until I poured my drink on this pretty girl who was slightly older than me and I had to lend her my jumper because I’d ruined her shirt.

“You were smooth, trust me” she pulls me out of my trance when she speaks again and I shake my head a smile on my lips.

“You were the smooth one, you got me to go out on a date with you without me knowing it was a date” I scoff and this gets her to laugh.

“I did, didn’t I?”.

“Yeah and-“.

“By the time you figured out it was one, we were already making out” she cuts me off laughing harder and I shake my head laughing along with her. She always had her ways, she’d never tell you what she wanted, she would just get it without you noticing.

“See, smooth” I point her and she nods covering her mouth to contain her loud laughter.

“I am the queen of smooth, aren’t I?” she waves her eyebrows at me and I look away chuckling to myself.

“That you are, that you are” I raise my hands in defense, I couldn’t argue with that, she knew she was right.

“So…” she studies me her head tilted a bit after our little laughing session. “You just wanted to reminisce about the old days?” she questions eyebrows raised and I nod. It didn’t feel as bad as I’d thought it would to talk to her about those days if we could laugh about them like this.

“Yeah”.

“I’m really glad we can do this” she nods sitting upright in her seat “I don’t want to be an all bad memory in your head”. I’m not lying when I tell you that since she showed up, that seemed like the most honest sentence she has ever said to me. I could hear it in her tone. It kind of made me speechless, that all too familiar tone in her voice, it scared me for some reason. “Look Alison, what I did was fucked up but I’d also like for you to remember our good times and smile because I know I made you happy”. I release a breath, I suddenly feel like this whole thing was a bad idea.

“What was fucked up? Breaking up with me without giving me a reason or fucking my friend a short while after while you were still fucking me?” I scoff, leaning back in my seat and away from her.

“I couldn’t give you the reason Alison” is all she says instead of answering my question and I scoff again and look away from her, from the hurt look she was trying to fake.

“Can you give me the reason now?” I ask my voice quiet. It would feel really good if she told me it was her fault, that she was the one who was fucked up and not me. I look back at her, her hair was down today, caressing her face with every movement of her head, her blue eyes were staring right at me but they seemed distant, it was as if she wasn’t in the same room with me anymore. “Well…” I raise an eyebrow and she finally blinks before looking away from me and shaking her head slowly.

“You know I blamed myself Hayley…” we’re both suprised by the sudden increase in my voice. “I spent hours, days crying and asking myself what was it that I did, what was it that I couldn’t give you, what was it that I did that made you unhappy” I point her and shake my head in disapproval leaning closer to my desk again. “I blamed myself for how fucked up you were” I whipser harshly and watch as she visibly gulps. There was so much that I wanted to unload right now, there was so much that I wanted to tell her but I know it wouldn’t do any of us good. I was letting all of it go after all, there was no need to go off topic.

I lean back in my seat and sigh, she looked tensed, her shoulders stiff, her eyes still glued to mine but in that distant manner. “I forgive you” I finally say words I never thought I would be saying to her face. You’d think wind would blow over me and I’d feel light like I was floating or something… Well I felt something close to that, I felt free in some type of way, I felt light, like I had some heavy load and I just let it go, like-

“What?” Hayley on the other hand looked anything but light, she had a small frown on her face as she pushes her hair behind her shoulder. I thought she’d be happy to hear this.

“You heard me” I shrug. Or maybe she didn’t hear me well?

“What do you mean you forgive me?” she scoffs and it’s my turn to frown.

“I mean I forgive you, I forgive all that shit you did, I don’t care about it anymore, and I’m letting all of it go” I’ll explain it if I have to I guess “It’s a few years too late but still-“.

“Letting what go exactly? Me?” her voice is slightly raised now, her tone sharp and I am confused at the question.

“I guess you can say that, you along with all of that past shit” I shrug and she scoffs looking away. Why did she look infuriated? “Why am I getting attitude? I thought this would make things good between us”.

“Good in what way?” she tilts her head “Alison, you holding on to that anger, you still being infuriated with me is the only way I was ensuared that you still gave a shit about me”. I frown leaning back in my seat to watch her. So she wanted me to be mad at her?

“Give a shit about you? I despised you Hays”.

“No” she shakes her head her eyes wide now. “You didn’t despise me Alison, you were never able to forget me, you were never able to let me go even after all those years you still thought about me, after those fucking years I was able to get a reaction from you the moment I walked into your life” she speaks her voice sharp then looks away standing up from her seat. I didn’t get what she was going on about but I was scared of where it was headed, I try not to show it to her though and just watch her pacing around before she stands to look at me. “Get this Alison, you can’t let me go, you can’t let your first love go” she speaks between gritted teeth and my frown hardens.

“Who are you to tell me what to do Hayley?” I get up from my seat “What the fuck are you going on about right now? Telling me I can’t let you go, do you have any idea how re-living what you did to me fucked me up over the years?”.

“How do you think I felt?” she slightly raises her voices proping her hands on the desk to lean closer to me and I scoff a laughter.

“How you felt? how youu felt? You fucking did this!”.

“Ugh” she sighs shaking her head, looking away for a second before meeting my eyes again “And you think I wanted to?”. The moment that sentence falls from her mouth my heart starts racing for more than one reason. Anger, confusion, it was as if there was something I was missing… there was something right in front of me that I was missing.

“What do you mean by that?” I ask my voice low now and she immediately looks away from me. “What the fuck do you mean by that Hayley?” I ask again and this gets her to look back at me her jaw clenched.

“Why the fuck would you be interested now?” she challenges and I feel like punching her right across her face.

“Don’t be fucking stubborn rightenow Hayley, it’s not the time” our faces were now a few inches apart as I propped my hands on the desk to lean on it challenging her like she was me. “What did you mean by that?”.

“Alison I loved you” she confesses an unbelievable statement.

“I don’t need that bullshit right now Hayley” I whisper “I want you to tell me what you meant by ‘and you think I wanted to?'”. I repeat her sentence for her.

“Must I translate everything for you? I’m asking you whether you think I wanted to leave you-“.

“What else would I think? you left me”. We were whispering now, glaring daggers at each other.

“That doesn’t mean I wanted to” she tries to sound tough but even in a whisper her voice cracks and I frown.

“Did someone make you do it?”… The moment those words leave my mouth it hits me. It hits me harder than fifteen trucks… ‘you don’t need her… let the powerful being make you just as powerful’. No… he couldn’t be this fucked up… he could not… could h- “He made you break up with me” I whisper more to myself looking away from a broken looking Hayley. I feel the familiar sharp pain in my chest and try to inhale and exhale like Austin adviced I do during moments like this.

“I loved you Alison, he promised me a safe and secure future with you if I sacrificed the present…” I look back at Hayley but I cant see her clearly, my sight is blurry, I have to blink to try and get a clear view of her. “I knew we were soulmates, no matter what happened, we would end up together Alison, you belong with me” her voice is raised and shaky. I could feel this lump in my throat, this pain in my chest, this stinging in my eyes, I could hear my fucking heartbeat and just wanted it to stop… I wanted my heartbeat to stop fucking beating.

“What the fu-” I inhale “What the fuck Hayley?” I stumble back away from the desk and her “You-” I didn’t even have words, this right here was beyond fucked up.

“I love you Alison, always have and I’m back to take what’s rightfully mine and was promised to me”. The pain in my chest increases. I don’t know what hurt more, her betrayal and her acting like it was normal to do this, like what she was confessing right now was normal or the fact that my own father would go through exreme lengths like this to hurt me. What did I ever do?

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I am not kidding, just writing this gave me chills and made me feel bad for Cain, and I knew it was coming, poor Cain can’t seem to get a fucking break… Anyway we’re making our way to the ending as you can tell and it has to be this way. Haha, vote fucking vote and comment for the next chapter to pop up and for Cain’s missery to end.