Chapter 27

Chapter Twenty-Seven

~~~~~ Kylie – First Heartbreak ~~~~~

 As she ascended the stairs Alexandria’s words echoed in her head. No matter how hard Kylie tried not to cry, tears were rolling down her cheeks as she closed the door shut and slowly began to let her body fall to the ground. She brought her knees up and hugged them positioning her head inside not wanting to scream. She felt her heart ache like never before and did not know what to do to ease the pain. She didn’t know what to do with herself. Hugging her knees even tighter than before Kylie knew that this is what she should have felt when Anthony broke up with her.

After a few minutes of crying, Kylie got up and went to her drawer. She took a deep breath and got all the pictures she ever drew of the girl. She looked at every single picture and then put them all in the trash wanting to delete every memory of Alexandria Santiago from her brain. Kylie was sure that forgetting what she feels for the girl is going to be the most difficult thing she has ever had to endure.

She could still not truly believe it. Kylie was having such a good time with her girl at the mall. She enjoyed seeing Alex all protective of her and even felt flattered that the girl would care so much about her. If it were any other person, Kylie was sure she would have said something but since it was her girl, Kylie was more than OK with it. So when thinking back, she couldn’t comprehend what went wrong, what she did wrong?

Thinking only seemed to bring her down, so Kylie decided to go to the bathroom to get a quick shower before going to the party. She stripped out of her clothes letting the hot water with the steam it produced try to sooth her aching heart or at least make it heart a little less. Kylie then found herself crying even harder than before proving that the shower was not doing its job but was thankful that the noise of the water drowned the sound of her cries.  Kylie told herself more than once to stop crying, but she found it was easier said than done.

Getting out the bathroom she got a towel and wiped her face wanting to erase every trace of her pain but again was disappointed to find that even that did not work. When she looked up she noticed that she was about to open the door to go into Alexandria’s room. She somehow found the strength to let go of the door knob and go the opposite way to her own room. When entering her room Kylie saw that the screen on her phone displayed a miss call and a text message in which Anthony informed her that the guests were already arriving. Kylie quickly changed into her bikini and put on some shorts with a white see through shirt and finished by putting on some light makeup knowing that she might get wet. She fixed her hair and prayed that her eyes would not betray her.

“Alex, someone is here for you.” Kylie heard Rachael’s voice calling for Alex from the other side of her door. Kylie’s body stiffened and her eyes began to water as she heard Alex’s door close and her footsteps as she hurried down the stairs. This is not happening. Kylie thought to herself putting her hand on the doorknob for support.

Kylie took a couple deep breaths and after a few moments she pushed the door open putting her dark sunglasses on and started to leave. “Kylie, I thought you were going to take Alex to the party with you.” Kylie stopped and turned to face Rachael begging that her voice was back to normal. “She was asked by someone in school.” she simply said giving Rachael a forced smile and a hug goodbye. Rachael noticed nothing and asked no more questions which Kylie was thankful for.

On the drive to Anthony’s house, Kylie heard a familiar song playing on the radio. Her eyes began to water as she squeezed the steering wheel tighter when she listened to the words playing out the car speakers. This is defiantly not going to be easy. She thought as she sped up using all the shortcuts she knew. At this speed she was sure to get there in record timing.

The party had just started as she pulled up to the house but Kylie couldn’t wait for it to end. As she got out her car everyone greeted her as if the queen of England had just arrived. Samantha came up to Kylie and hugged her taking her out to the backyard where everyone was dancing or playing in the pool. She did not want to take off the glasses yet knowing that her eyes were still red from crying so hard in the car a few minutes ago.

“I need to use the bathroom.” She told Sam as soon as she felt the tears forming in her eyes when seeing a couple kissing to her left. Sam nodded her head and continued her conversation about who is a better kisser with Anthony.

When she turned around to go back inside, she collided with someone. “I’m so sorry I-” Her breath caught as she saw who she had ran into through the dark lenses of her sun glasses. For a second Kylie didn’t want anything but to melt into the persons arms but deep inside knew that it was not possible for her to do that.

Chapter Twenty-Seven

~~~~~ Alex – Play Hard or Go Home ~~~~~

“Why did you call me? Of all people why did you call me?” 

“I called you because you seem to know more about me than anyone else. That’s why you are the president of my fan club, is it not?” Taylor smiles and looks away embarrassed.

“You look amazing by the way.” She says looking at me up and down as if I were something to eat. I smile and say the same as I look at her blue bikini top and her extremely short shorts. ‘Did you seriously just check her out?’

“So you have a musical talent, you are very athletic, you live with the Smiths one of the richest if not the richest families in the city, and apparently you don’t like people with authority. What else is there to know about you?” She stops at a red light and turns to me with a curious gaze. 

“How do you even know this about me?” I smile once I see her face go instantly red. Her blush is really cute as she desperately tries to hide it. ‘So you think her blush is cute? You used to think Kylie’s blush was the cutest thing you had ever seen.’ When the light turns green she drives avoiding my question. ‘Like you are avoiding mine huh?’ 

“We are here.” I shake my head and look at her not sure of what she said. Taylor gets out the car and begins to greet everyone. ‘This is a bad idea.’ Since Kylie is determined to occupy my mind, I take a deep breath and follow Taylor into the enormous house. ‘This is a really bad idea she is inside. Kylie is inside. Alex for once in your life, will you listen to me.’

“Alex!”

“Hey, Alex!”

“How’s it going girl?”

People kept greeting me as I was dragged by Taylor outside. The crowd was dancing to some techno song. Some were dancing with friends while some were dancing with their partner or by themselves.

When we finally reach our destination I come face to face with someone as they turn around and run into me. 

“I’m so sorry I-” I grab the person’s body tightly with my arm not letting them fall. I inhale a familiar smell and look down. She has on dark sunglasses which hide her beautiful eyes. She then takers them off only for me to see a pair of torturous blue eyes staring back at me. My mouth goes dry and my stomach flips as my slowly gaze falls to her lips which are dangerously close to mine.

‘God she is so beautiful.’ Please don’t start. ‘Start what? You ended everything remember?’ Exactly so drop it.

Taylor clears her throat causing Kylie to back away quickly after realizing how close she really is to me.

“Sorry.” she says once again adjusting herself. I nod my head and let go of Taylor’s hand after seeing Kylie look down at us holding hands. An evident hurt look passes her features but she composes herself and put her glasses back on apologizing once more before entering the house.

“Come, I want to introduce you to some people.” Taylor grabs my hand again and walks me around meeting everyone she knows. I smile at them but once in a while I look back at the door looking to see if Kylie has come out yet.

“Hey are you a good volleyball player?” A girl asks from behind me. I turn around to find a girl smiling at me holding a ball. Her body is very fit and her eyes are a really deep green.

“I-” My speech slurs as I look behind her and see that everyone including Kylie is starting at me. “Play a little.” the girl looks happy with my answer and asks me to follow her. Since I do not move right away she grabs my arms and rips me away from Taylor. I look behind me but Taylor just has an apologetic look on her face.

“Taylor you too!” the girl says not even turning to address Taylor and letting me go so she can catch up to the other people. 

“I hope you know what you’re getting yourself into.” Taylor says positioning her arm around my shoulder as she catches up to me.

“It’s just volleyball.” I say looking at her arm around me wishing I had someone else’s arm wrapped around me right now. ‘Stop with the torture, will you?’ When will you understand that I don’t want your opinion. It’s my life. ‘And by the looks of it, you are ruining it.’

“I hope you know what you’re getting yourself into.” she says adjusting her arm.

“It’s just volleyball.” I say not sure why she still has her arm around me as if we are the best of friends or even going out. My heart sinks as I see Kylie looking at the way Taylor is holding me. ‘I think you just proved my point. The thing is that you are not just ruining your life, but the life of a wonderful girl whose biggest defect is that she loves you.’ You don’t know that. ‘By the way she is glaring at Taylor right now, I beg to differ.’

“Alright everyone, so we will do 4 sets of 15 this time since last time it took way too long. Anthony and Taylor you may begin to pick your teams.” the girl says pointing at the both of them with a huge grin on her face enjoying the tension that is going around.

“I pick Alex.” Taylor says moving my body from side to side. Since she is taller than me she grabs my head and messes with my hair. I laugh at her and gently push her.

“I pick Kylie.” Anthony says putting his arm around her shoulders. I clench my fist together and grit my teeth when seeing Kylie smile up and him and hug him back. ‘Payback is a bitch, isn’t.’

 “Ok everyone get in the pool.” The girl says blowing a whistle. I take my eyes off Kylie and look around as the girls take of their shirts and shorts while the guys take off their shirts. The girl whose name I have yet to learn walks over to the pool. Anthony who is already inside the pool swims to the edge and pushes his body up to give the girl a kiss. Everyone cheers and makes fun of them as they separate. The girl wipes her lips and walks to her spot as quickly as possible trying to control her blush.

 “Sam you better not cheat like last time.” Anthony says glaring at the girl. ‘So her name is Sam.’ It seems so.

Sam sticks out her tongue at Anthony for his comment and blows her whistle again making everyone who is left outside jump in the water. Taylor puts her hair in a ponytail and jumps in splashing some of the people on the outside. As she ascends to the surface she laughs. Once everyone is in the pool I walk over to the ladder and make my way down. The water is at a perfect temperature.

 “Ok guys play fair and stay safe. I don’t want any blood in this pool.” Taylor tells the teams before Sam throws her the ball. Everyone gets ready as Taylor exits the swimming pool without even using the ladder. After adjusting her bikini, Taylor throws the ball in the air and jumps inside the pool hitting the ball to the other side of the net before it hits the water.

The ball is then hit by Anthony over to Ismael who throws it to Kylie. ‘Holy shit did you just see that?’ The ball comes at a fast speed as it hits the water creating a big splash. My arms react to late making some of the water to go into my mouth and eyes. Sam blows the whistle indicating a point. As I cough and dry my eyes I glare at Kylie but she just smiles innocently.

 ‘This game is so on.’ oh yes it is.

 The next couple minutes are brutal for both teams. Both teams have won two sets. This last set will determine the winner. “I never imagined you were this awesome. I mean I knew you were awesome but you made us tie. You know how many times I have beaten my brother at his own game?” she puts her and up and connects her fingers to create a 0. She then smiles over at Anthony making me realize that Taylor is Anthony’s sister.

 “Wow you are friends with the sister of the guy who dated your girl.’ She was never mine to begin with with.

~~~~~ Kylie- Best thing I never had ~~~~~

Seeing Taylor all over Alex made Kylie very angry and although she hates to admitted, she also felt jealous. Even though Alex had broken off whatever they had, Kylie still managed to feel as if Taylor had no right to hold the girl as if she were hers.

“Come on guys we don’t have all day.” Anthony yells over at the other team. The game had turned intense ever since Kylie scored the first point against Alex. With each hit Kylie let out a little of the anger she felt inside. She worked with Anthony and even with Ismael to make sure the other team didn’t score but when Alex sent the ball over to other side it was almost impossible to do anything but let it touch the water.

 “Kylie it’s all you.” Ismael told her as the ball was headed directly towards her. Kylie hit the spinning ball but somehow ended on the other side of the net. When she reached the surface she saw a pair of surprised brown eyes. She grinned from corner to corner knowing that she had scored the last needed point. Alex gave Kylie a crooked smile and gave her a hug congratulating her. The hug was awkward since Kylie wanted nothing more than to hold the girl tight but she knew that she could no longer do that so she held back.

 The embrace was then broken when the guys grabbed Kylie and pulled her out the pool lifting her on their shoulders. Kylie smiled and held on for dear life not wanting to fall on her face. When she looked back she saw to what seem to be intimate moment between Taylor and Alex. Her face fell as she saw them together enjoying themselves. A single tear escaped her eye but Kylie wiped it furiously and continued to celebrate their victory.

 The party had turned into a karaoke as soon as Anthony brought the inside speakers and a projector out to the backyard to prove to Samantha that he could sing. Everyone gathered as they heard from the worst singers to the drunken crazy ones to the romantic ones dedicating the songs.

Her eyes got watery as a guy was singing a song that she had never though she would relate to. Her eyes followed the lyrics as her heart broke a little more with each word sung by the guy.

“That should be me,
Holdin’ your hand,
That should be me
Makin’ you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin’ your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin’ you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can’t go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me”

 “Kylie you’re up.” Anthony said after the guy was done and the cheering had died down. “No.” she said turning away. A couple of people stopped her when instructed to do so by Anthony. Kylie turned around frustrated only to receive the mike that Anthony had thrown at her. Kylie held the mike tight in her hand and scrolled down the infinite list of songs when knowing that there was no backing down. As the tittle popped up she knew it was the right song to sing to.

“What goes around comes back around, hey, my baby,
What goes around comes back around, my, my, my baby (hey),
I say, what goes around comes back around, hey, my baby,
What goes around comes back around,”

She sang to the song as her eyes were searching for Alex. She spotted her stepping outside and closing the glass door behind her. Their eyes met and Kylie began to sing the song directly at Alexandria Santiago.

“There was a time I thought that you did everything right,
No lies, no wrong,
Boy, I must’ve been out of my mind,
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you,
You showed your ass and I, I saw the real you,

Thank God you blew it,
I thank God I dodged a bullet,
I’m so over you,
So, baby, good lookin’ out,” 

She meant every word. Alex had broken her in more ways than Kylie ever thought possible. Kylie had never experienced such pain no matter how hard she tried not to show it. She was good at not showing her true emotions yet this time she didn’t know if she could keep herself together for much longer. She saw as Alex grab the other mike and get closer to her.

“I wanted you bad,
I’m so through with that,
‘Cause, honestly, you turned out to be the best thing I never had,
You turned out to be the best thing I never had,”

 Kylie stepped back a little as she heard Alex sing the words directed towards her but composed herself and kept singing. She didn’t want to be intimidated, not by the girl who had broken her.

“And I’m gon’ always be the best thing you never had,
Oh yeah, I bet it sucks to be you right now,” 

Kylie again stepped back as Alex stepped forward. Their closeness was too much for the both of them but they kept singing getting everything they have inside out in the open.

“So sad, you’re hurt,
Boohoo, oh, did you expect me to care?”

 Alex chuckled a little singing with passion. She didn’t hold anything back making Kylie do exactly the same.

“You don’t deserve my tears,”

Kylie tried to hold her tears back and this time she was successful. She didn’t want Alex to see how badly she had hurt her, she didn’t want to giver that satisfaction. Kylie looked down and saw that the girl was also trying to hold back her tears but that did not stop either of them.

“I guess that’s why they ain’t there,
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you,
You showed your ass and baby, yes, I saw the real you,”

They sang with everyone watching them. For once in her life Kylie didn’t care what everyone thought. She didn’t pay attention to what they were saying about her nor wanted to know what they thought of what she was doing Her entire life she had to hold back for the fear of what everyone might say. Not today, she thought to herself. Today would be different.

“I know you want me back,
It’s time to face the facts,
That I’m the one that’s got away,
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life,
Thank God I found the good in goodbye,

I used to want you so bad,
I’m so through with that,
‘Cause, honestly, you turned out to be the best thing I never had,
Oh, you turned out to be the best thing I never had,
And I will always be the best thing you never had,
Ooh, best thing you never had,

I used to want you so bad,
I’m so through with that,
‘Cause, honestly, you turned out to be the best thing I never had,
Oh, you turned out to be the best thing I never had,
And I will never be the best thing you never had,
Oh, baby, I bet it sucks to be you right now,

Goes around, comes back around (oh),
Goes around, comes back around,
Bet it sucks to be you right now (ooh),
Goes around, comes back around,
I bet it sucks to be you right now,
Goes around, comes back around,
I bet it sucks to be you right now, ooh.”

As the song ended Kylie dropped the microphone and ran wanting to escape everything and everyone. She pushed her way through the mass of people cheering for her and Alex. “Kylie wait!” She heard the girl’s voice calling for her but she didn’t stop. The voice only made her run faster knowing that she was not far behind.

She made her way to her car drove away honking at group of people to move out the way. The tears were now falling freely down her cheeks with Kylie doing nothing to stop them. She didn’t mind them this time. She saw Alex ran after the car as fast as possible through the rear view mirror but did not stop. As Kylie approached a red light, she was surprised to see Alex who seemed to appeared out of nowhere. Kylie opened the passenger window to ask Alex to leave her alone but instead saw that Alex was trying to open the door.

“What the hell are you doing?” Kylie asked her as Alex swiftly entered the car through the open window feet first.

“Drive.” Alex said as the light turned green. Kylie stepped on the gas paddle speeding down the streets causing both of their bodies to go backwards into the seats. No one speaks for the remainder of the ride home. The silence soon becomes too much for them and is clearly visible but neither of them are willing to be the first to break the uncomfortable silence that surrounds them.

“What do you want?” Kylie asks defeated parking the car and putting her head on the steering wheel. She has had enough of the torture and just wants it to end.

“I want you!” Kylie lifts her head and looks at the girl in disbelief wondering to herself if what she heard was true or if she made it up in her head.

“Don’t you get it? I want you!” Still shocked Kylie did not know whether she should trust the words coming out of Alex’s mouth. After all she had gotten really close to Taylor a while ago at the party.

“Then why the hell did you break things off with me and then go off with Taylor?!” Kylie gripped the steering wheel trying to control her anger. She squeezed her eyes tight for the fear of what she saw or even heard might hurt her even more.

“I broke things off because I’ll only complicate your life. You are the most popular school in the school. You are like a god to them Kylie, why mess that up?” Her voice was low and pained.

The anger inside Kylie rose within the instant she spoke. “Why not let me worry about that instead of breaking my heart the way you did?!” She got out the car and slammed the door as hard as she could. “You don’t get to decide for me. It’s my life! I get to decide how I’m going to live it not you or anyone else.”

“Why would you choose me over them?” The question made Kylie stop and look back at the girl. She looked into the eyes that have made her days worthwhile and her entire life better. She looked at the lips that had brighten her mornings and had given her a reason to be a better person. She looked at the girl who she had met at a park and from that day on had occupied her thoughts.

“Because I love you.” Kylie lowered  her head in defeat and closed her eyes knowing that she had lost the battle before it had even begun.

                                        ~~~~~ Alex – Friends with Benefits ~~~~~

“We could be friends. We could be the best of friends, even.” Kylie lifts her head away from my chest and looks at me as she leans on her elbow. I stop playing with hair and let my hand fall as my eyes find hers. Those blue eyes sparkle even in the dim light that only the lamp provides driving me completely insane.

“Just friends? You just want to be my friend?” She asks, her eyes getting a little watery with each word. I hate myself for being the cause of this; but at the same time I can’t help but smile inside knowing that she doesn’t just want to be my friend. ‘You have a funny way of looking at things my friend.’ I do not. I’m just stating the obvious, and I’m so not your friend. ‘Harsh much?’

“Yeah, I mean we can talk on the phone for hours. We could go to a movie or even go bowling sometime… as friends. We wouldn’t be able to date or be seen together in public since we can’t get caught doing so. But I think we can be great friends if we give it a try.” A wicked smile spreads across her face as I finish. I just stare back at her not fully understanding where exactly that grin came from. 

‘Was she not just about to cry over us a second ago?’ no, she was about to cry over me. ‘Whatever, same difference.’ you are unbelievable.

“If we were just friends then I wouldn’t be able to do this, now would I?” Kylie says in a low seductive voice with all hint of sadness gone from her eyes. 

Before I know what hits me, Kylie lowers her head and nibbles on my ear lobe. My breath catches and my eyes get wide with both surprise and an intense pleasure going through my body at the same time. She tangles her hand in my hair driving me crazy. 

‘Holly crap! That feels good.’ Took the words right out of my mouth.

Kylie lifts her head and the same wicked grin appears as she sees my face. “No, you definitely wouldn’t be able to do that.” I say out of breath barely getting the words out. God what the hell was that?

“And I wouldn’t be able to do this either, now would I?” This time Kylie lowers her head and kisses my neck. She starts to suck on my weak spot making my head move to the right giving her easier access for her to continue her torturous act. My breath once again catches as she slowly grazes my neck with her teeth causing a low whimper to escape my throat. Her lips leave Goosebumps wherever she touches my skin. Her hand moves down to my neck grabbing my neck for even easier access. Closing my eyes, I enjoy every moment her lips are against my skin. When I’m enjoying what she’s doing the most, Kylie removes her lips from my neck and laughs as she sees my face again.

“That was so not fair.” I say glaring at her for the way she left me. She laughs one of those musical laughs which immediately makes me forget that I was supposed to be mad at her. I take a deep breath and close my eyes trying to calm down and recover from the previous seconds. ‘Take deep breaths.’ seriously that’s all you got to say to me. ‘Fool I’m telling this to myself. God, that girl has some serious skill.’ You can say that again. ‘If you mess this up I swear I’m going to kill your ass and dig your grave up myself.’

My brows crease together when I hear a low chuckle and then feeling Kylie’s get on top of me. When I open my eyes, she is hovering over me just mere inches away from my face. “If that was unfair, then this is going to be just down-right criminal and immoral.”

Once her lips come in contact with mine and we both close our eyes, I feel the electricity going through my entire body. I see the fireworks going crazy all exploding at once in my head. The butterflies in my stomach have mutated into fire breathing dragons threatening to explode inside my stomach. Kylie smiles into the kiss when I kiss her back into a kiss that’s making me forget my own name. “It’s Alexandria Santiago.’ What? ‘Forget it, just get back to what you were doing.’ Oh OK.

“You are cruel.” I say into her lips not daring to break the kiss. She smiles again as a chuckle escapes from the back of her throat. ‘God that was sexy.’ She is going to kill me one of these days.

“What are best friends if not cruel?” She says into my lips not daring to break the kiss either. After a few good minutes of kissing her, I open my eyes and stare at her beautiful face. How could god create someone so beautiful? Kylie is every guys dream ready to be swept off her feet.

“What are you thinking?” she asks opening her eyes and noticing my starring. She finally breaks the kiss and gets on top of me positioning herself on my stomach and her legs by my sides. She smiles mischievously when grabbing both of my wrists and crossing my arms above my head making it impossible for me to move. ‘It was about time someone dominated you.’ shut up.

“I was thinking that we could be friends with benefits.” This causes Kylie to raise a sexy eyebrow at me. I want to break free and kiss her so badly but I stay put and wait for her response instead. The offer is an offer I am most likely to enjoy. ‘I bet you would Alex, I bet you would enjoy that very much.’ you do know that my chances are pretty low right? Kylie would never agree to it. ‘a girl can dream right?’

“Friends with benefits, huh?” she says lowering her head. I wait anticipating the moment I see fireworks again, but Kylie’s head stops moving when our lips are just about to touch. I lift my head wanting to close the distance between us but Kylie pulls back her head back at the last second not allowing me that pleasure. I try again but she moves away once more. ‘Ok she is tripping.’ seriously need better vocabulary dude. ‘Look who’s talking.’

“Somebody is desperately wanting to be kissed.” she teases her eyes shining with humor. 
God why did you make her so beautiful? ‘Stop questioning the dude and enjoy his creation.’

Not taking anymore of her torture, I groan and use enough force to break her hold and switch positions. Kylie lets out a surprised gasp and stares at me wide eyed. I smile at myself and pin her hands behind her head just like she had done to me. And just like she had done, I lean into her but stop and linger when I’m close to her lips. 

She tries to kiss me but I back away. “You see how I’m not the only one who desperately wants to be kissed?” I say out of breath since she took it away the second her eyebrow did that sexy thing it does.
“Can you please just kiss me? I’m begging you, please.” Kylie says looking miserable after a lot of pulling back every time she got close to my lips.

“But friends don’t kiss on the lips.” I say playfully getting closer to her lips but not touching them to prove my point. She groans and looks at me angrily.

‘God that’s hot.’

I pull back again and take in her every detail like I’ve done so many times before. Those eyes, those flushed cheeks, her beautiful blond hair, her perfect kissable lips… every single detail of my Kylie is engraved in my head.

“Friends don’t kiss,” I take my eyes off her body and look at her curious as to what her next move will be. “But friends with benefits do.” Kylie says catching me off guard by breaking my hold and grabbing the back of my neck to bring me into her kiss. She begins kissing me in a way that sends me to heaven and back. We both moan into the kiss and fight for dominance as my hands pull her closer and she grabs my waist with her free hand. When it’s clear that no one is going to give up, I take her bottom lip and suck it while gently pulling on it getting exactly the reaction I wanted once Kylie arches her back. “God woman! What the hell did you just do to me?” Kylie says putting her body back down on the bed slowly. I smile as I see her face. We both breathe hard her hot breaths hitting my face and mine hers. I get lost in her eyes but soon recover.

 ‘Where the hell did that come from?’ I have no idea. ‘It seems I have underestimated you.’

“I didn’t do anything.” I say innocently. She laughs at me making her body vibrate under my own. I laugh with her and get off her stomach falling back on my side of the bed. After a few seconds of laughter we turn our heads towards each other. Nothing is said for a while. Her eyes just stare into mine as I stare back into her mesmerizing eyes.

“I love your eyes.” I say when I can’t take the silence that surrounds us. “Since the day I met you at the park your eyes have been hunting me.” 

“Is that so?” She asks with that stupid grin returning to her face. I nod my head and lean closer to her. This time she also leans not fighting me this time.

~~~~~

I wake up to the sun’s light illuminating the room and feel an arm wrapped around my body. I open my eyes and look at Kylie’s sleeping face. Her upper body goes up and down as she sleeps peacefully. I put a strand of loose hair behind her ear and silently laugh at her messy hair. She is so beautiful even when she’s asleep.

I watch her sleep for a few minutes until she begins to stir. “I can feel you watching me Alexandria.” She says with a smile never opening her eyes. I smile at her and kiss her nose. “How long have you been up?” She asks still not opening her eyes. I shrug my shoulders not knowing the exact time. Kylie laughs making it spread around the room and bring everything back to life.

I bring her body closer to my own. She gasps at my sudden movement causing her to open her eyes. “There you are.” I say once seeing those blue eyes. She relaxes and puts her arms around my neck bringing our bodies impossibly closer. “Wait!” I say not wanting to be kissed with morning breath. I grab her arms and untangle them from my neck since she refuses to do so. “I’ll be right back.” I assure her and leave the bed and head to the bathroom. I run to the sink and brush my teeth as quick as possible. When I’m rinsing my mouth off I feel Kylie’s hands wrap around my waist behind me. I look up at our reflection and grin from ear to ear and see as she puts her head on top of my shoulder.

Once I’m done I get the towel and dry myself allowing Kylie to also brush her teeth. She does it as fast as she can moving the toothbrush all over her mouth making some foam come out into her lips and chin. I laugh at her but all I get is a reflected glare. When she turns the water off I throw her the towel. 

The towel hits her face as she catches it while I hurry to get as close to her as possible without touching any part of her body. Her surprise is evident as she removes the towel and notices my closeness. I can feel her hot breath hitting my face. 

Next thing I know Kylie turns us around and slides her hands down my waist all the way to my butt. She then uses her strength and lifts me up on the counter positioning herself between my legs. God this woman is something else.

“Now can I kiss my friend with benefits?” She says her gaze on my lips. I grab her chin and bring her lips to mine. She moans once we make contact. I let go of her chin and put my hand on her neck trying to keep the kiss going. Kylie puts her hands on my waist and begins to run them up and down my body slowly. Intense feelings run through me as I feel her hands enter the inside of my shirt. I gasp once her hands start to go higher the hair in my arms rising from such pleasure. We both remove our lips from each other and watch as we try to catch our breath.

Kylie still has her hands inside my shirt and I still have my hand in her hair neither of us willing to back off. “If you want to keep that hand I suggest you move it back down.” She chuckles and takes her hands out my shirt. The second her hands leave my skin I start to miss them. ‘You are one contradicting woman.’

“I don’t want to be your friend.” Kylie says her eyes staring deep into my own. I put my brows together. Before I can say anything she puts a finger on my lips silencing every thought from my head. “I can’t be your friend or your friend with benefits for the simple fact that I want more.”

I don’t know what she wants me to say or if should even speak so I keep quiet and try not to jump up and down like a damn fool. ‘Did she just say what I think she said?’ I really hope so.

“What are you saying exactly?” I ask her when she doesn’t say anything else. To answer my question she puts her hands back under my shirt only this time she takes it off my body with surprising speed and technique. Next, she pins my arms on my wall above my head and stares at me hungrily.

“Alexandria Santiago, be mine.” I stare back into those eyes shocked. “Will you be my girl?” She says once nothing comes out of my lips. Did she just ask me to be her girl?

“Now why would I agree to such a thing?” I say playfully breaking her hold on me and jumping off the counter. I grab my shirt in the process and start to put it on. I see Kylie looking frustrated when she turns to face me and closes the distance not allowing me to fix my shirt.

“Alexandria Santiago you are the most stubborn, frustrating, obnoxious, abnormal, childish girl I’ve-” Kylie says looking down at me with those damn eyes. I stop her and get on my toes to get to her level but of course not reaching it.

“Is that any way to talk to your girl?” I say into her ear and then back away wanting to see her face. The biggest smile spreads across her face as she realizes what I just said. Before I can do anything Kylie grabs me and spins me around while laughing excitedly. I wrap my arms around her neck and hold onto her for dear life. She has me way up in the air to where I can position my forehead on hers while she spins me. When she’s done Kylie still doesn’t put me down. I open my eyes and find her looking at me with curious eyes.

“What?” I ask lifting my head from hers. She safely puts me down back on solid ground and bends down to kiss me. “Please say it again.” She says into my lips. I open my eyes confused. “Say what?” I ask her not breaking the kiss.

“Say you’re my girl again.” Kylie whispers opening her eyes slowly. They twinkle with happiness and anticipate the moment the words leave my mouth.

“You’re my girl.” I say with a smile my lips still against hers. Kylie glares at me but I laugh and break the kiss. This gets Kylie even more enraged so I quickly return to her lips after seeing this and pray she forgives me.

“You little-” I stop her by grabbing her leg and lifting it to my side and dip her. Surprise is written in her every feature as I stare down at those deep blue eyes. “I’m your girl.” I tell her before I bend down and kiss her.

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 When we are born we only have five basic functions: cry, eat, sleep, poop and pee. Not necessarily in that particular order since sometimes we wanted to annoy the hell out of our parents by not wanting to eat meaning we just cried and cried or by doing our business all over them while they were changing our diaper. 

When we get to be older we learn by observing our surroundings. We repeat everything that is said in our presence and want to do everything everyone is doing around us. We are everywhere at once causing our parents a few headaches and a few gray hairs to appear sooner than normal.

If we survive our childhood (and our parents are still intact) we move into what I consider our good years. In this time span we worry about nothing but learning as much as we can and if we will get to go first on the slide when recess comes along. We don’t worry about the bills or if the stock market will crash causing us to lose our jobs. No, we worry if that little kid over there is going to take OUR toy because we have yet to learn how to share.

The years where our parent’s wish we were still in diapers crying instead of causing even more headaches than ever, are our teen years. We go through puberty something completely new and for some, even scary. Our bodies begin to act crazy and our brains think differently than they had. We no longer play with dolls or action figures (which by the way are just male dolls). No now we worry about looking good for someone. We worry about what this boy is going to say once he sees us or what this girl is going to say when she notices that you have spent all your morning getting ready for her. We worry about what people will say and if we are hanging with the right people. 

Some are lucky. They don’t care about any of that. They only care about getting the best education available. These will move on and be doctors, firefighters, even our next president, or maybe they will just end up doing what they love no matter if their pay is nothing they deserve.

There comes a time when girls will hate their parents for not letting them go on a date with a boy because he is older and they are not even suppose to be dating. The guys can get away with it; after all they are guys they can get away with almost anything.

We throw fits and desperate times call for desperate means so we rebel. Yes, we don’t listen and do whatever the hell we please going above orders and against judgment not caring about the consequences. We party. We enjoy life to the fullest. We go with the flow.

These times can also be hard, and for some they are more difficult than others. During these years we find out who we are and who we are meant to be. We find where we want to go in life. We fall in love and maybe break a few hearts here and there. 

See the thing that complicates everything is that feeling right there, love. Some love unconditionally. Some have put a lock on their heart shutting everyone out for the fear that if they do, they will end up hurt. 

Once we find the person we know we love, we begin to put them above everything and everyone else. After all, no one can cause your heart to skip a few beats, your knees to get weak and tremble, and the butterflies to explode inside your stomach like the person you love.

This life is different for all of us. No one is alike. No one has the same fingerprints. No one has the same DNA. My problems are not your problems.

 Sometimes we wish we were little kids when the hardest thing for us was figuring out what 2 plus 2 is.

As we grow as people we begin to see life differently.  Some may never grow up and act like kids all their life. Some will come into adulthood ready to take on the world. Others are frightened and don’t know how to approach the things that come their way.

See if you figured out early in life that you were different, things at this point seem a little better. A person who is barely coming to the terms that they are not who they thought they were, have it a little more difficult. Their entire world changes and some are not ready for that change. If you come out at an earlier time you have the certainty that the people you care about love you and accept you or have disowned and want nothing to do with you.

Coming to the terms that you are in fact part of this LGBT+ community is the most important step to your true happiness. If you have decided that you want nothing to do with the community, there are treatments designed to pray the gay away or beat it out of you.

When we become part of this community we risk so many things. We take so many chances. We don’t know if the next person we meet might beat the crap out of us if they find out we love someone of our own sex. We need to be stronger than anyone if we want our rights to be fulfilled. We might not be able to marry the person we love since many states don’t believe that we should marry this person just because we love them. Their excuse being that if a person were to say that they love their dog then they can marry their dog since they do indeed love their dog.

Our community is faced with so many obstacles, some might even seem impossible to overcome. But when you reach a point in your life when you go home and see the person you love on the couch waiting for you after a long day to watch some TV and eat yesterdays leftovers, you know that it was all worth it. Every tear, every bad moment, everything was worth it.

When Bec was at the hospital (fighting to live for the third time since I’ve met her) I saw our lives go before my eyes. When she coded in the ambulance my heart stopped and came back when she did. The doctors did not allow me to see her. She was in surgery for almost 14 grueling hours. We got no information about her condition. After she had the surgery only family could see her. They said that I was neither her sister nor her mother and I was defiantly not her husband, so I couldn’t see her. 

I didn’t really get that angry. I knew that the law did not acknowledge me as anything but a friend to her. I knew everything is against us. Like I said I didn’t get mad, no what got to me was when the doctor comes out and tells us that Bec has only a few hours to live. I didn’t know whether to cry, yell, kick, jump, scream bloody murder, or just stay still. Everyone became silent just watching and waiting for my reaction.

I asked the doctor if I could see her and he finally agreed knowing that maybe it would be the last time I could see her.

When I enter the room everything that happened scared the doctors. As soon as I stepped inside the room Bec’s machines went crazy. Her heart sped up and her vitals became stable. No one could explain it, not even me.

Throughout this time I had a friend helping me. She helped me stay sane. She was my rock. Without her I would have lost it for sure. She stayed up with me and even taught me how to pray. Oh and she also became my first official online girlfriend. Hey Julissa how you doing?

When she was teaching me how to pray this girl starts following me. I didn’t really do anything at first because she just seemed lost. But then she starts to run towards me. I run away from her and find that there is not one single person that can help me out. The elevator seemed to be the safest place so I go to it and finally breathe. As the doors are closing the girl slips in and starts to approach me taking off her clothes. She then starts wanting to kiss me as she is trying to undress me. As soon as the elevator doors opened I saw my entire family’s eyes on me. I was about to be raped and all they could do was laugh at me and my situation. The security guards came and took her away but my oh so wonderful sister took a picture of the exact moment the doors open saying she wanted to see my face when she told me that Bec was doing better than they expected.

So all this happens while Bec is in a coma that is helping her brain heal. I stay with her 24/7 just waiting for her to open her eyes. One of the reasons I stayed was because 5 of Bec’s ex girlfriends came to visit her regularly. These girls are fucking beautiful. I mean, they got the body and the face and basically they got everything.

The day Bec woke up, I was watching the Olympics. Honduras had just beaten Spain and I was jumping up and down like a mad woman. See Honduras is an insignificant team so for them to take Spain out of the Olympics is a pretty damn big deal. So yeah I was freaking out. When I spin around I see Bec just staring at me. I stare at her for a second and then run up to her and jump on her kissing the life out of her. When I finally pulled away she just looks at me and asks who I am. 

The doctors never mentioned anything about amnesia. How the hell does this keep happening to me? The only memories Bec had were of her family and her recent ex girlfriend (Well that was three years ago but she was still her recent ex girlfriend) who came to visit her regularly. It hurt to see them happy together. Karla made Bec smile and laugh. When I was with Bec she seemed uneasy and pressured. I was ready to step out if needed to be so that if she decided that Karla was the one she wanted, then I would let her be happy with her.

Luckily for me it didn’t work out between them and Bec came back home. Everything was going good, we kissed so that she would remember, and when it didn’t work we kissed some more just for the heck of it. We had two of the most amazing nights ever. Then in the morning when I get up to cook her breakfast, her maid Maria is there cleaning up. I start to play flirt with her and she follows my lead. When Bec comes in she just glares at me and leaves.

The thing with Maria is that I used to have a crush on her and I even told Bec which is why she was mad. Bec being Bec did not speak to me nor even looked at me. I left her house and went straight to a friend of mine. This is the first time ever in my life that I have tried alcohol. I know this is going to make me sound pathetic but I got drunk with just one beer (like I said first time ever that I try alcohol). I convinced my friend to get me a mariachi and drive me to Bec’s house.

So there I go with a flower and a mariachi to her house all drunk not seeing straight. When the mariachi is playing she comes out to her balcony. I Sing a few lines of the song and watch as she just shakes her head at my state. After a while she goes back inside only to return a few moments later. When she returns she throws a bucket of ice cold water down at me and goes back inside closing the door and curtains behind her.

I spent a few hours sitting on a hard rock in the park waiting for my sister to pick me up. Lisbeth just laughed at me and told me I was stupid. But I didn’t give up. I went to her house and sat down on her 10 feet gate until she would let me explain.

Long story short we made up and she got her memory back. The next days were really great. I had some time with her and my new niece and my nephew. They are so adorable. She loved spending time with them and then told me we should have some.

See I always thought that she was kidding when she spoke like this. But seeing her with the kids, the way she looked at them I knew she wasn’t kidding.

A few days later she took me out on the most perfect date. We had some ice cream and then Bec paid a guy on a horse carriage to take us around the plaza. When we approach the spot where she asked me to be her girlfriend and told me for the first time that she loves me, she gets on one knee. Everyone around stops what they are doing and either pulls out their cameras or just stays silent waiting for what happens next. In my mind I’m like, ‘this is so not happening’.

“I know that we are young and a little naive, but anyone can see that you are the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with. You have put up with me for all this time and have never left my side. Alba Will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”

When I saw her there before me all I could think of was her happiness. I thought about everything that I have done wrong. I thought about the fact that if we were to have kids they wouldn’t really be our kids. I thought about the possibility that I might not make her happy. These things are what made me say no to her.

Some people told me that I must not love Bec as much as I keep saying I do because it took me so long to tell my parents I was gay and had a girlfriend. The truth is that I was scared. I was scared of what they might think of me. I was scared that they might think that all their sacrifice was for nothing.

My real parents die when I was a kid. We were planning my birthday party and also celebrating the fact that my father had gotten a better job. We had the table full of orange decorations that we had found at an affordable price. When my mother tells me to try on the dress that I am to wear I look at it and cringe. My hatred for dresses goes back to the dawn of time. But seeing their faces and knowing how hard each of them had to work for that simple orange dress, I sucked it up and went to try it on. When I come out my dad has his hands in the air and turns to me with his eyes full of fear and worry. I saw my mother paralyzed with fear as the man had a gun pointed at her head.

I covered my ears and closed my eyes when I heard the loud noise. I didn’t dare open my eyes. The second time I covered my ears harder and fell to the ground still not comprehending what happened.

I keep asking myself why. Why did they die and leave me alone? Why did I survive? What did we ever do to deserve this?

When Bec and I went to Honduras I took her to my parent’s graves. I introduced her. What scared me was the reaction of my foster parents. They never approved of the gay lifestyle. I am nothing to them. They took me in when no else would. Their family took me in as one of their own without a second thought.

My life has never been easy. I hate myself for bringing Bec into such a world. She deserves something better. I love her more than I ever thought possible and continue to love her more every second of every day.

And that’s why I said no.

I know I know I really do suck. But hear me out. When Bec was in the hospital I bought her an engagement ring. A $10,000  ring!!! It cost more than my stupid car (sorry baby you are so not stupid). I went to a jewelry store and bought it knowing that when she woke up I would ask her to marry me. That of course never happened so yeah.

So when I saw her on one knee with a $20,000 I knew I would never be able to give her the life she deserves. I could work my ass off at three jobs and never make as much money as she does and possesses.

Bec told me that none of that mattered and if she decided that she wanted to marry me than there was nothing I could do about it.

I still don’t know how I’m going to do it but I’m going to make her happy. I’m going to give her everything she needs. We will have kids and live in a house with a pool. I’m going to make her happy.

About two days after that I took her to the same spot she proposed and got on one knee. She covered her mouth and her eyes got watery. I smiled like a fool when Bec put her arms on my shoulders. She then picked me up and slapped me. Yup, I was seeing little Bec stars for a good 5 seconds. I was shocked and so was everyone else for that matter. But then she just shakes her head and grabs my neck to kiss me.

So without any more delays….

You are cordially invited to Rebecca and Alba’s wedding.

 We have yet no idea when it’s happening but I’m getting married!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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When I uploaded this book I never expected it to get this much attention. I have earned new friends and apparently a few enemies. But I would like to thank you all for your support and again apologize for the big delays.

 Wait did you possibly think this was the end?  HAHA no I still haven’t figured out how to finish this story so yeah hang with me. 🙂

What did you think should I keep going or just quit while I’m at it?