Chapter 53

“It would be unbelievable in other cases, but come on guys, you know who we’re talking about right ?” Austin asks using too many hand gestures in his sentence having Drew frown and me chuckle.

“True” I nod my head in agreement.

“At least we know that nothing was your fault and everyone in your life was fucked up at the moment” Drew shrugs and I point him nodding again “So what now ? Fuck the stupid bet and everything ?”.

“Has he finally decided to leave you alone ?” Austin asks his eyes wide and I shrug sighing.

“I mean it’s been three weeks since we last spoke and I haven’t gotten a phone call from him or any of that bullshit so I think he already left”.

“Well holy shit dude, I think you’re a free man” Austin points me a surprised smile on his face and I laugh, it felt nice to have someone say that out loud for me, the thought of never having to hear from Nik was very calming.

“You can say that again” I point him.

“Wait, wait, wait.. where’s your crazy ex though ?” Drew questions and I look at him deep in thought for a minute or two. Huh-.

“The last time I saw her she told me I’m not allowed to get over her and we’re soulmates and it was at my gym, and then-” I pause for a while “Well I don’t give a shit where she is, she could be gone with Nik for all I care”. I shrug glaring hard at Drew for asking me such a dumb question, was I supposed to be keeping tabs on that crazy bitch or something ?.

“Fair point” Austin agrees “See, I noticed how weird she was acting and hitting on you with her words and eyes at times, it’s like she’s obsessed with you, how has she never gotten over you, that’s weird as fuck-“.

“That’s why you’re supposed to ensure that she’s actually gone and out of your life, she might be more dangerous than your dad for all we know” Drew points me sitting up on his couch and I consider his words for a while. Let’s see, she thought that we were meant to be together, trusted that we’d end up together no matter what, and was willing to listen to my psycho father..

“You make a good point, but I hope she’s gone for her own good… I don’t want to see her fucking face” just the image of her face angered me.

“Hey hey hey” Austin suddenly stands up “No negative energy, no anger, no sadness, none of that..” he points us.

“Just being cautious, that’s all” Drew raises his hands in defence, leaning back on the couch.

“Yeah, yeah, I get it but tonight.. tonight we get high as fuck and celebrate” Austin nods smiling to himself “You-” he points me “Invite your girlfriend, I miss her face” I frown. “You-” he points Drew “Get us drinks, I’ll get the rest”. And just like that Austin had planned a party and invited people. Yeah that’s how fast he was.

“Sparks doesn’t like the smoke of weed”.

“Ugh, she’ll survive” Austin waves me off reaching in his pocket and taking out his phone.

“I’m sorry, but aren’t you finding it weird when you refer to someone as Cain’s girlfriend and they just go along with it ?” Drew asks Austin chuckling.

“I know right? I was expecting a comeback or something” Austin answers, then looks over at me a questioning look on his face.

“What am I supposed to say ? she is my girlfriend” I frown eyeing both of them. You got that right, I can say it out loud now.

“So fucking weird” Drew shakes his head chuckling harder and I shove him roughly. I don’t get what was so funny.

“This so terrifying, if you can be tamed, then it’s only a matter of time before we get tamed” Austin points to Drew and he immediately quits chuckling.

“That’s it, I’m out” he says standing up from the couch and the silly frown on his face gets me to chuckle “Where’s the meeting place ?” he asks Austin.

“Cain’s place obviously, it’s the trashiest, chillest place” he answers confidently and I frown.

“What do you mean trashy ?” I ask laughing a bit and he raises his hands in defence.

“I don’t know, just go check your place out and you’ll get what I mean by trashy”.

“Fuck off” I laugh standing up from the couch “And for that, I won’t even try to clean up”. I point him as I walk out.

“Fine, it’s not like it would make a difference” he retorts and I turn to shoot him a glare as I flip him off.

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I had never felt like this, this warm happy feeling inside me when with someone or when with people, but they brought it out.. they made me feel happy, accepted, like I was human and that they’d accept me no matter what. They made me feel wanted, appreciated.. loved ?. Yes, loved and I was so thankful for them, they’d never know how much because there was no way I’d be able to show them how much I appreciated them, nothing I’d say or do would be enough.

“You’re what my kind calls fun sponge” Austin laughs pointing Sparks and she frowns.

“Why ? just because I don’t like marijuana ?” she asks faking an offended look and I laugh.

“Not that marijuana shit again, come on” I cover my face laughing hard as I hear Drew laughing too.

“Sorry mari- what ?” he confirms making me laugh harder and Austin join in.

“Marijuana” I repeat her words throwing my head back in laughter. This… this was just genuine happiness, I wasn’t that stoned or wasted, I was laughing because I was happy and I was having a good time with my friends and… girlfriend. I was having a good time with people who taught me the true meaning of family.

“Aww, come here baby” I coo to Sparks stretching my hand over to her when I see the glare she’s sending over to us but with a secret smile on her lips.

You know if there’s one thing I’d strongly disagree with my old man, is the thought that my house needed a couch, it did not. It was comfortable like this and really suitable if you wanted to get high with your friends and fun sponge girlfriend.

“I’m not coming anywhere near you with that thing still in your hand” she says pointing the blunt in my hand and I roll my eyes passing it over to Austin who was seated across from me on the bean bag next to Drew and opening my arms to her so she could come sit on my lap.

“I swear if you guys start having sex in front of us I will die.. no-” Austin stops his stupid sentence raising a finger. “I’d probably get turned on, then die” he corrects himself and I frown trying to kick his foot but Sparks was already on my lap so I couldn’t do much.

“Shut the fuck up” Drew shoves him for me, good “Now they won’t do it, cause they know and that’s your fault” he points Austin beer bottle in hand. Never mind, I wish I could kick both of them now.

“You assholes are stupid, you know that right ?” I ask them as Sparks lies her head on my shoulder burying her face in my neck, her breathing immediately spreading chills on my skin. I find myself closing my eyes and losing my trail of thought to the point I don’t hear Austin’s comeback clearly.

“You really think I’m a fun sponge ?” she whispers close to my ear and my breath hitches. What kind of question was this ?-.

“Of course I do” I answer honestly my eyes still closed and chuckle a bit as I picture her facial expression at the moment. I didn’t need to open my eyes to know she was glaring at me.

“Seriously ?” she laughs her soft breath tickling my neck and I laugh along with her.

“Yes seriously”.

“Hmm, now I feel like I have to prove that I’m not” she whispers and I feel as her lips brush my neck. What was she trying to do ?. Whatever it was, felt good and I couldn’t help but sigh and feel my arms tightening around her. Within the past weeks we’ve been.. I don’t know how to put it, but I don’t think I’ve ever been this intimate with any girl. Though I was still not totally comfortable, everything just felt right and so good, she was so patient with me and I enjoyed every moment with her. I hated to admit it but this scared me, me letting her be this close to me and touch me in ways I never thought I’d allow anyone to, brought out this strong and confusing emotions and I have no idea if she felt the same way or could feel what I was feeling.

“You don’t really have to, but do what you got to do Sparks” I whisper back and she laughs placing a soft kiss on my neck making me smile. I couldn’t stress on how much this girl made me feel things.. emotionally and physically and oh how I was dying to let her know how she made me feel.

“What I have to do? Or what I want to do ?” she questions “Cause they’s a lot I want to do to you”. My eyes shoot open at this sentence and I almost… almost chock on my own saliva. Wooww okay.

“Where did that come from ?” I laugh looking to my side at her and she shrugs innocently as if she didn’t just say that. “Don’t act innocent on me Sparks” I warn her and she laughs a little throwing her head back and by the time she raises it up to look at me I can’t help but just kiss her. Now listen.. there’s a difference between being wanted the way Hays or all the other girls wanted me and the way Sparks wants me. They wanted to just use me whether for their mental issues or for a good time but Sparks, Sparks wants all of me, and I would’ve never known the difference if she hadn’t come into my life. I would forever be okay with being used and using people, but she showed me that I wasn’t completely broken and useless, she showed me that I could be accepted for who I was and that I could be wanted as broken and fucked up as I was.

Fuck, I felt lucky, and wouldn’t have any protests if this was finally The end, cause I felt happy and liberated and like I could start a fresh with these people who made me feel happiness. I could also feel Sparks’ hand creeping under my shirt and I couldn’t help but harden the kiss as I felt her amazing touch on my bare skin.

“You guys really fucking in front of us ?”. We’re roughly brought back to reality when Austin speaks up causing Sparks to pull away from me, ugh. I glare hard at him as he looks innocently at us puffing smoke out of his mouth but before I can even come up with an answer the silence in the house is interrupted when there’s a knock on the door. Austin raises his eyebrows at me and I frown.

“Expecting someone ?” he asks and I shake my head. Ofcourse I wasn’t expecting anyone, who would be looking for me anyway.

“Just go check it out” Drew shrugs and I sigh heavily as Sparks gets off my lap. Ugh, this better be important “I’ll come with, I need to grab my phone from the car” he says getting up with me. We leave Sparks and Austin seated and walk towards the door my frown hardening as the impatient asshole goes on knocking on the door. I open the door ready to insult the fucker who disrupted my calm evening but the moment I see who’s on the other side of the door, my heart drops, the anger being replaced by confusion.

“What are you doing here ?” I question my frown hardening.

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