Chapter 7

QUETTA-

Vanessa and I were sitting in her den eating Chinese food while she did her power point presentation. I was on my phone in my own little world thinking about my life. Where would Vanessa and I be if I hadn’t done what I did. I loved Vanessa but I was really scared of being with a woman for the rest of my life.

“You want to hear my presentation?” She asked as I looked her and she was looking at me smiling hard. I locked my phone and nodded my head. She got up as I sat in her spot to see the power point she created on the computer.

“I’m ready when you are” I said and she nodded as she explained her idea slide for slide as I listened and watched and read every slide. She wanted to open her own bar which I already knew that’s all she talked about when we were kids. She wanted to have four levels. The ground level will be the strippers, main level will be the dance floor, stage, and the bar, a few tables and couches for people to sit. The third level will be VIP and the fourth level will be her office.

“What do you think?” She asked as I got up and she sat down back her seat

“I think its really good. I knew you would open your own bar one day but what about your recording studio? I thought that’s something you wanted to do to” I asked curious

“Yeah I do I just picked this one for my presentation it was much easier plus I haven’t worked out all the things I wanted to do for the studio” She responded closing her laptop and picking up her food to eat it.

“Well I am glad you are doing what you always wanted to do” I said and she nodded

“So, anything new with you?” She asked looking at me

“Ummm no not really. I feel like I’m really not doing anything with my life right now. I wanted to take a year off and travel the world but that’s not gone happen anytime soon. I mean I am happy here but I feel like I am not doing much ya know” I expressed.

“Well what is it that you want to do?” She asked

I thought about what I really wanted to do. I never thought about my future.

“I did want to be a neonatal nurse because you know I always loved kids but I also always wanted to open my own nail shop. I love doing nails” I said

“Then why don’t you go to school and do that then? What’s stopping you?” She asked

“You know I hate school” I chuckled

“Yeah but if it’s something you really want to do then I think you should go for it. Don’t wait to the last minute or you gone regret it” She said shrugging

“I guess you right. I’ll look into a few things in the am” I said truthfully

“Good. I’ll even help you. We can go to my school and see what they can help you with” She suggested and I nodded

I really did want to better myself and get it over with so I won’t be in school for long since I hated school. I was glad Vanessa was pushing me to help to be honest I could use the help because I wouldn’t know where to start.

We got up cleaning up our mess after eating. We decided to watch a movie on Netflix. It was called A Fall From Grace I believe it was a Tyler Perry film so far, all his movies were good. (Yall go watch that movie its good and funny).

As we were on the couch snuggled up watching movies I couldn’t help but think about Vanessa and I relationship that I fucked up. I fell so stupid for hurting her once again and we were doing good but Drew came back in the picture and shit happened.

“Vanessa are you and Mia a thing now?” I asked scared to even bring it up because I didn’t want the truth. I wanted to here that her and I would work things out later down the line.

“Why you ask that?” She asked not taking her eyes off the tv as she sipped on her remy. She was tipsy and I knew I could really get the truth from her when she was drinking.

“I just want to know that’s all” I shrugged my shoulders

“Ummm no we not a thing we just kicking it she good people” She answered

“Do you think we would every get back together?” I asked and this time she paused the movie and gave me her undivided attention. She looked at me licking her lips flashing that smile/smirk that I feel in love with.

“Quetta you know you always gone have that special place in my heart you were my first and we went through a lot. I don’t know what the future holds but you hurt me to many times and I don’t want to end up going down that road again because you can’t keep yo legs closed for a nigga” She expressed

“What you trying say I’m a hoe?” I asked a little taken back

She shrugged her shoulders “Call it what you want” She said and got up heading to the kitchen which I am guessing to pour herself another drink. I followed her right on her heels.

“What the fuck does that mean?” I said getting heated

“You really wanna do this now Quetta damn” She said and I could hear in her voice she was getting annoyed with me but I didn’t care.

“Answer my question” I said

“You fucked me over once again for a nigga that don’t give a fuck about you. I gave you everything, I only fucked with you. You fucked that up not me. You can’t do what you wanna do and then think you gone get back what you lost. It doesn’t work like that shorty. I fuck with Mia because she a real ass bitch, she gone keep it a band with me and keep it honesty. At least I know she not fucking nobody else but me” She yelled at me

Once she brought up Mia name and to know that they have been fucking around and I didn’t know I lost it. I knocked the cup she had in her hand with the Remy in it on the floor an threw the Remy bottle to the wall. I was pissed and knowing I shouldn’t be but I couldn’t help but to think somebody else was touching what was mines.

Vanessa grabbed me holding me up by my shirt.

“You wanted the fucking truth and you got it” she yelled as she was all in my face mad as hell and so was I.

“Let me go Vanessa” I said trying not to hit her ass

“You need to chill the fuck out for real before I fuck yo little ass up” She yelled letting me go but not before pushing my head into the wall which didn’t hurt that much. She ends up punching the wall next to me and thinking she was finna hit me my reflex kicked in and I punched her ass in the jaw. She stumbled back a little bit feeling her lip seeing that I drew blood. I knew I fucked up but I didn’t mean to hit her.

“Vanessa I’m sorry. I didn’t mean-” before I could finish what I was gone say she grabbed me again but this time she held my neck. She started chocking me hitting my head on the wall. I could barley breath and my eyes was rolling to the back of my head. I got the courage to use my hand to scratch her face drawing more blood. That loosened her grip around my neck but she still held on to me. One hand was around my neck and the other moved my hands.

“V…..ne…ssa” I could barley speak

I felt her loosen her grip on my neck and I could breath again. I looked at her and she shook her head and let me go leaving me in the kitchen. I felt a little bad for putting my hands on her but it was my reflex I didn’t mean to.

I walked out the kitchen to look for Vanessa. I figured she was in her den so that’s where I went to find her down there with a new bottle of Remy. She had these on deck at all times. This time she was drinking out the bottle.

“Vanessa” I said and she didn’t even look at me

“Just go home Quetta” She said. We always fought but we never would put our hands on each other. It never was this bad.

I walked over to her grabbing the bottle, lifting her head with my finger but she moved her head from me.

“I don’t want to go home” I said and she got up trying to grab the bottle from me but I moved back.

“Quetta give me my bottle” She said annoyed

“Come get it” I said smirking. Is it crazy that I wanted her to get in my insides even though I felt like I was about to lose my life in the kitchen?

She grabbed my shirt again pinning me to the wall.

“Why you think I’m playing with yo ass” She said grabbing the bottle from me and going back to sit down at her desk.

“I wanna play” I said walking back to her and pushing her back and straddling her lap.

“Quetta get off me. I’m not finna fuck you after you been fucking with some nasty ass nigga. Yo ass probably got something” She said and chuckled. I leaned back and slapped her ass getting up and tried to grab my shit but Vanessa grabbed my once again.

“You gone stop putting yo hands on me for real” She said through gritted teeth

“Just let me go Vanessa. I’m done trying” I said on the verge of crying

“Trying? You fucked up shorty not me. You wanted to have this conversation” She said letting me go turning her back on me. “Not my fault you letting niggas fuck on you” She said and laughed.

Honestly me and drew haven’t fucked around in a month. We did hang out before I came over to see Vanessa but she kissed and snuggled that’s it. I went to the doctor regularly.

“Fuck you Vanessa” I yelled pushing her, hitting her everywhere I could. She grabbed a hold of my hands

“What I just tell you about your hands shorty just because we got history don’t mean I won’t fuck yo shit up. I’m trying be nice” She said

I took it upon myself to kiss her. She kissed me back roughly picking me up and sitting on the couch making me straddle her. She ripped my shirt taking it off exposing my lace bra. Our lips never lost touch. She rolled us over and she was on top.

She kissed my neck leaving passion marks. It felt so good I moaned biting my lip.

I had on sweats so she slips those off with no problems. She started kissing my inner thighs moving her way up to my pussy. She looks at me as she eats like its her last meal.

“Fuck baby” I moaned. I was wet as hell. I lost it when she started to tongue fuck me. All you could hear was her slurping on my pussy. I was close to cuming.

“Bae I’m about to cum” I moaned about to explode.

“Cum for Daddy baby” She said lowly and as soon as she said that my juices poured out and she licked it all up. I guess all that fighting had me tired because I was about to go to sleep.

“Nah you wanted to play I’m just getting started” She said licking her lips. She picked up my limp body and carried me to her bedroom throwing me on the bed. She closed and locked the door. She stood in front of me taking her clothes off, leaving her boxer and tank on.

“You love me Vanessa?” I asked as tears came down my face. She looked at me confused and walked over to me, hovering over me.

“Quetta, I don’t care what happens I will always love you. You will always be my first love” She said kissing me

“I love you too. I want you back” I said truthfully. I was done with doing her wrong. I want to be fully committed to her and only her. I know it was gone take time for her to trust me again but I was willing to do it.

“Shhh” She hushed me up.

I hope that we can work this out.