Chapter 29
MAT’s POV:
I’m not stupid.
At least, I’d like to think I’m not.
Which is why it didn’t take long for me to realize what Pat was doing.
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At first, it was subtle.
Small things.
Easy to ignore.
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She stopped waiting for Kat after duty.
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Started making excuses.
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Started disappearing whenever Kat wanted to spend time together.
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Started pushing me into situations where I’d end up alone with Kat.
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Too many coincidences.
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Way too many.
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And Patricia Dela Cruz was not the type of person who believed in coincidences.
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One evening after training, we were sitting on the bleachers.
The gym was empty.
Practice had already ended.
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Pat was tying her shoelaces.
Avoiding eye contact.
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Which was usually a bad sign.
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“You’re doing it again.”
I said.
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“What?”
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“That thing.”
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She frowned.
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“What thing?”
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“The thing where you pretend you’re helping someone when you’re actually sacrificing yourself.”
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Her hands immediately stopped moving.
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Got her.
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The silence stretched.
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Then she laughed.
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A quiet laugh.
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Not because it was funny.
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Because she knew I was right.
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“You think too much.”
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“No.”
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I leaned back.
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“I think you don’t think enough.”
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That earned me a glare.
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Victory.
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For a few moments, neither of us spoke.
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Then she quietly asked:
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“Do you like her that much?”
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I didn’t need to ask who she meant.
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Because whenever Kat was involved…
Neither of us ever needed clarification.
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“Yeah.”
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The answer came easily.
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Too easily.
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Because it was true.
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Pat nodded slowly.
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As if confirming something she already knew.
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Then she looked away.
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And suddenly…
She looked tired.
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Not physically.
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Emotionally.
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The kind of tired that sleep can’t fix.
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“Then pursue her.”
She said.
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Simple.
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Direct.
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Exactly the way Pat always spoke.
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Except this time…
It sounded wrong.
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Like she was forcing herself to say it.
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Like every word hurt.
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I stared at her.
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“Are you serious?”
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She laughed.
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“Why wouldn’t I be?”
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Because you love her.
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The answer remained trapped in my throat.
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Because we both already knew.
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Years.
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She had loved Kat for years.
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And somehow…
She was sitting here telling me to pursue her.
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The girl she’d probably loved longer than I’d even known her.
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I looked away.
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Because for the first time…
I felt guilty.
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Not enough to stop.
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But enough to hurt.
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Because the truth was…
I liked Kat.
A lot.
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Enough that I couldn’t walk away.
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Enough that even knowing how Pat felt didn’t change anything.
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Maybe that made me selfish.
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Maybe it did.
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But feelings didn’t disappear just because someone else got there first.
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And if there was one thing I’d learned in life…
It was that timing wasn’t everything.
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Sometimes the first person wasn’t the last person.
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Sometimes years didn’t matter.
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Sometimes people fell in love unexpectedly.
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And maybe…
Just maybe…
I had a chance.
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The thought made me feel awful.
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And hopeful.
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At the same time.
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Pat stood up.
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Then grabbed her gym bag.
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Before leaving, she stopped beside me.
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“You’ll take care of her, right?”
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The question hit harder than I expected.
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Because she wasn’t asking as a rival.
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She wasn’t asking as someone jealous.
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She was asking as someone who genuinely cared about Kat.
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More than herself.
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And suddenly…
I understood why she was suffering.
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Because Pat’s biggest fear wasn’t losing.
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It was hurting Kat.
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Even if that meant hurting herself instead.
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I looked up.
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And answered honestly.
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“Yeah.”
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The reply came without hesitation.
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Because despite everything…
That part was true.
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If Kat ever gave me a chance…
I would do everything I could to make her happy.
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Everything.
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Pat nodded.
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Then smiled.
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A small smile.
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The kind that never reached her eyes.
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And somehow…
That smile haunted me long after she walked away.
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Because for the first time…
I wondered if I was watching someone give up.
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Not because they stopped loving.
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But because they loved too much.
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And unfortunately…
I stayed silent.
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I didn’t tell Pat to confess.
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Didn’t tell her to fight for Kat.
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Didn’t tell her she was making a mistake.
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Because the truth was…
I wanted a chance too.
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And that realization made me hate myself a little.
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Because while Pat was stepping aside…
I was stepping forward.
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And neither of us were bad people.
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Just two people who happened to love the same girl.
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The difference?
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Pat was willing to lose her happiness for Kat.
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And I was willing to risk everything for mine.
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The scary part was…
I still didn’t know what Kat wanted.
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And somehow…
That would end up hurting all of us.
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### Author’s Note
OHHHH THIS ONE HURTS.
Mat knows.
Pat knows.
The readers know.
The only person who doesn’t know anything is Kat.
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Pat: “Pursue her.”
Mat: “You love her.”
Pat: “I know.”
Mat: “…”
Pat: “…”
Reader: *throwing phone across the room*
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Nobody is the villain anymore.
That’s the problem.
Everybody has a reason.
Everybody is hurting.
And everybody is making mistakes.
Which means the emotional damage is only getting started.
See you in Next Chapter.
(Respectfully, I need therapy after writing this.)
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