Chapter 38

JISOO

When Jennie showed me the letter I was angry, I was afraid, I was pissed at myself for letting someone into our life like that. I thought Bona the first moment. She was in the picture all this time so I couldn’t think of anyone who wanted to cause any problem to us.

Jennie from the other hand seemed not disturbed by the letter that she just showed me. I was trying to read her face, to see what she was thinking, what were her emotions. But all I could see was a blank face.

“What are we going to do?” She was looking at me like I was an alien from planet mars.. “Baby.. you are scaring me.”

“What is it that you want me to tell you Jisoo? That a psycho is trying to harm me and my family? Tell me what is it that you want me to tell you? Because right now I can’t find the words Jisoo.”

I sighed. She clench her fist and that only means she’s pissed.

“What?”

“You are pissed.”

“Of course I am fucking pissed. Why can’t we have a normal life? Why people always have to stand on our way? And these people are your people Jisoo. First Suho, now Bona. I have a child I need to protect.”

“You think I don’t care for Ella’s safety? You think I am not pissed at myself for everything that is happening? But I am not putting all this burden to anyone Jennie. Why do you?”

She didn’t say anything. We were yelling at each other for something that we didn’t know how to solve. And knowing Jennie and myself if we continued like that she would leave the apartment and I would try to chase her. So the only thing I did was to let it be. Apparently we were in a very tough spot and we both needed to relax.

All the way back home I was thinking what I could do with that anonymous letter. The thing is that it wasn’t only Bona a suspect. It was Suho and other people I put in jail. Some things I did and now I regret. I never told Jennie that I have been threaten several times. Up until now I never had any problem but I did believe that Bona couldn’t be that person. And Jennie was right. All these people that was trying to pull as apart where in my life and I brought them to Jennie’s and Ella’s.

Jennie and I didn’t go to work. I wasn’t feeling like going and Jennie wanted to see what we could do with this matter although she was still pissed. I could always go to the police and tell them but they wouldn’t do anything. This situation reminds me of a movie. And right now I can’t do anything to protect my family.

“Did you think what we are going to do?”

“We can’t do anything about it.”

“Are you fucking kidding me? We are going to wait to see what this person is going to do?”

“What do you want me to do Jennie? Go out and find who that person is? Do you want me to go to Bona’s house and start asking questions? I can’t fucking do anything Jennie. All I can do is to protect you and Ella.”

My last words were with tears in my eyes. I was starting to break. I was starting to reach that place and Jennie knew. That’s why she was right next to me when I said the last word. That’s why she was holding me in her arms trying to make me feel better.

“I am sorry..”

“Jennie, I know. But we can’t do that to ourselves. We are going to drive each other crazy. We need to be together in this. The three of us..”

“I am scared.”

“And I am as well.”

“What are we going to do?”

“Wait. Right now all we could do is wait.”

Waiting is even worst. When you have to wait all your senses are alert. So while we were waiting for another letter or for that person to do something, at the end we fall apart. Jennie was sleeping in the living room while I was sleeping in our bed. In front of Ella we were acting normal but when we were alone everything seemed different. And those people who send that letter did whatever Suho and Bona couldn’t all this time.

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JENNIE

Being close but yet so far away. Being so much in love with the person that you love but at the same time hating them. It’s true what they say.. Love and hate are so close. The question though was if I hated Jisoo. No, I don’t think I could ever hate her. But what is happening between us now it hurts me, it pisses me off and I want to scream. I want to go outside and let it all out. Because I am so tired. I am so tired of people wanting to hurt someone else. I am so scared for Ella’s life and for Jisoo’s. And me being me of course I let my fear hurt Jisoo.

After three days of not talking to each other and me spending my nights in the living room, sleeping on the couch, Jisoo approached me and I really didn’t like how I made her look. She seemed afraid of touching me. She seemed scared to talk to me. And that, because when I get scare I push the people I love away. I am so stupid sometimes. Well, most of the times.

After the first letter we didn’t have another one. That was what driving me insane. Waiting for something to happen is the worst thing. I heard Jisoo one evening talking to her friend in the police. I didn’t say anything though. I just got inside the bathroom. When I got out Jisoo was in the kitchen looking at me. And that’s when I heard her talking to me again.. I missed her.

“Jen?” I looked at her telling her with my eyes that I was sorry. I was ready to talk and not yell.

“Yes?”

“Can we talk please? Without yelling at each other.”

“Okay.” I made some space next to me and pointed her the empty seat for her to sit.

“I talked with detective Kang. I told her about the letter.”

“And?”

“She told me to take it there to see if they can find any fingerprints.”

“Okay. I will come with you tomorrow.”

“Jen.. I am sorry. I hate being like this. I hate it when you blame me for everything. Those people were in my life before you. I didn’t know that they were crazy and I don’t want you to believe that I would ever bring someone to our life. I want Ella and you safe as much as possible.”

I was really one stupid, stubborn bitch. I had this wonderful person next to me, being my girlfriend, and I was pushing her away every time I was feeling scared. Sometimes I wait for her to tell me that she wants to break up with me. I really don’t know what I would do then.

I took her in my arms and cried on her shoulders. I wasn’t crying very often but these days were so difficult not only for me but for us. I wanted to feel her arms around me, she always make me feel safe.

“I am sorry. I.. I.. am scared Jisoo. I am afraid that something will happen to you or Ella and I am so fucking scared because I can’t protect you. Tell me there is something we can do.”

“I told the guy downstairs to be careful with anyone who wants to leave anything for you or me. We have the security cameras but knowing how these people work they can pay someone to bring the letter and they will wait outside in the car. I know those people baby. I put a lot of them in jail.. Actually I believe that maybe one of those people is after me now.”

When I heard her saying these things I couldn’t take my eyes off her. All this time I thought we had to deal with Suho or Bona. I didn’t expect to hear about murders, drug addicts or rappers. Now we sure needed to leave from here.

“Are you sure?”

“I don’t know. It can be anyone. I really don’t know.”

“Okay. I will call Ella’s school and tell them we are going on vacation. I don’t want to put her in danger. Also I will call my job and tell them I am taking a week off.”

“Jennie.. stop.. we can’t do all these things. We will be hostages inside our home. That’s what they want. To scare us. So if we do that we are going to play their game.”

“And what do you want us to do Jisoo? What if something happens like we are out there driving?”

“We will go to the police. I already told them not to let anyone to come up here. Jen.. I need you to be with me. Don’t close yourself and please don’t start putting the blame on me.”

“I’ll try. I am sorry. So tomorrow?”

“Tomorrow. Yes. Will you.. you know.. sleep in our bedroom tonight?”

“Yes. I missed you.”

And after three days I slept with her in my arms again. Sometimes I think that a day will come that she will say we are over. I hope that that day won’t come.

Tomorrow morning came and we woke up trying not to think what would happen. I called Ella’s school not to tell them that she wouldn’t come but that if Jisoo or I weren’t there to pick her up not let anyone to come close to her.

And like that we found ourselves outside the police station I was not so long ago. Memories of Suho hurting me and me being here pressing charges. It was a strange feeling and Jisoo knew. She took my hands in hers and we both walked inside to find detective Kang for one more time.

“Hello, we are here to see detective Kang please.”

“She is at her office. First door on your left.”

“Thank you.”

I was quiet. Not looking, not talking. I was just walking. Jisoo had to turn my head to bring me back to reality. When she did, we were already inside detective’s Kang office.

“Jisoo, Jennie. I want to say nice seeing you but I don’t think you are here to see me. So Jisoo tell me what happened.”

“Four days ago we found a letter on our doorstep. Jennie opened it and inside there was only one phrase written.”

“Do you have the letter with you?”

“Yes. I put on a bag so we didn’t have to touch it.”

Jisoo gave her the letter and she looked at it very carefully.

“It said only that?”

“Yes.”

“Do you have some people that might want to hurt you?”

“I was thinking of two. Suho and the other one is my secretary. Or was my secretary. Bona.”

“I am going to give it for fingerprints and I am going to check if Suho was out these days and I want you to give me all the information you have for Ms. Bona.”

“What can we do to protect ourselves though?”

“Did they send you something again?”

“No, they didn’t.”

“You will continue with what you were doing three days ago. If they want to scare you they will contact you again. Just be careful though.”

“But what about Ella detective? What if they hurt my daughter? Because that’s how they can hurt me. If they harm Ella or Jisoo.”

“Jennie, if they want to do something they will. Those people don’t think. They just act. If they want to hurt you, or Jisoo or Ella they can do it at your house as well. Look what are we going to do. I am going to call you later tonight to see if we found fingerprints. If they are stupid enough they didn’t wear gloves. I am going to check if Suho was out and I am going to investigate Bona. Jisoo do you think of anyone else?”

“I out a lot of people in jail.”

“How many?”

“More than 50 people.”

“Do you still have their names in a file or something?”

“Yes. I can bring them to you if you want them.”

“Do that. So girls, we will talk later tonight. Just be careful.”

“We will. Thank you.”

Talking with the detective made me feel better. Somehow. But hearing Jisoo telling her that except Suho and Bona she had 50 more people in her mind that actually made me to want to faint. I really wanted to take my family away and go back to California. But we had to continue with what we were doing.. Continue living our lives.

“Baby.. are you okay?”

“To tell you the truth. I don’t know.”

“We have to..”

“I know. To stick together. Jisoo.. Why don’t you call your dad? He can help us. Maybe we could go to New York or something. What do you think?”

“I can call my dad but I don’t think it’s a good idea going to New York. I really don’t want to see my mother.”

“Yeah, that’s true. I don’t want to see her either.”

“I am going to call my dad though. Okay? I will protect you and Ella with everything that I can.”

“And who is going to protect you Jisoo?”

“I don’t care about me.” She said looking anywhere but me. I would never let her put her self in danger for saving me.

“Don’t you ever say that again okay? You, me and our daughter will be together. And you and me both are going to protect each other and Ella. Don’t you ever say again that you don’t care about yourself because without you I wouldn’t be here. I love you.”

“And I love you too baby.”

These last three days Jisoo nor me went to our jobs. I said I was sick and well Jisoo was her own boss. So we stayed home, cuddled with each other and waiting to take Ella from her school.

Right about when we were ready to get inside our car Jisoo’s phone rang and it was detective. They had the results already.

“Hello?.. Yes, she is with me.. Ok.. It’s not him? Ok.. will you call us again if you find anything.. Thank you very much for your help. I appreciate it.. Yeah.. Bye.”

“What did she say?”

“Suho is in jail. He wasn’t out these last couple of days. Also they didn’t find any fingerprints. She will go from Bona’s house or her sister’s since she doesn’t have her home anymore and she will call us again.”

“What if it’s not Bona?”

“Then it must be one of the those 50 people.”