Chapter 50

I’m taken back when he receives the phone and I hear his voice, “Did you miss me? I think you missed me”. I’ve never called him myself, he’s always the one that calls me and he always does it with different numbers, so I was suprised when he received this call. I recover quickly though after I remember my reason for attempting to contact him.

“We need to talk” my voice is low, barely recognizable, I didn’t even sound as angry as I felt, maybe because this time it was anger with a bit of hurt.

“We do?” Nik sounded generally concerned, I wanted to throw up, then spit on his face after.

“That’s what I fucking said”.

“Language Alison-“. I huff in annoyance looking outside the rolled down window of my car. “What do you want? To have dinner with me or something? You can come to my place and we can-“.

“No”. I was the one that called him and here I was growing sick and impatient at the sound of his stupid voice.

“What? You want to meet at a restaurant or something?”.

“No, my place, of course you already know it since you paid me a visit there”.

“I also paid for that house Alison”.

“No, I paid for it, with your money but I’d earned it coz I was working for you, you didn’t pay for shit”. My anger could be heard in this sentence because it had barely been two minutes into the call and he was already testing my patience.

“Your house it is” he agrees “What time?”.

“Now, I’m on my way there” I start my car.

“Did you stop to think that maybe I had something going on at the moment?” he has the nerve to ask, I can hear the smile in his voice, he just wants to piss me off, I wasn’t in the mood to entertain his bullshit.

“I’ll be there in the next twenty minutes, try to make it on time” and I hang up, I knew he’d be there, he wouldn’t pass up an opportunity to be in the same room as me and feed me his bullshit.

Nik, Nik offered my mentally ill teenage girlfriend a sick offer that her sick brain thought was okay to accept. Hayley had insisted on explaining things after she noticed how confused and hurt I looked but I’d deal with her later on, I didn’t want to hear it from her, I wanted to hear all of it from him. How he couldn’t stand me having other people other than him in my life, how he wanted to torture me every chance he got, how he thought he was god and could take and bring people in my life. How twisted this fucker was.
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I park outside my house and and sit in my car deciding I’d just wait for him to arrive… my phone vibrates with another text message and I sigh knowing it was either from Hayley or Sparks, either way I was in no mood to speak to either of them. Hayley would just piss me off more and Sparks would bring out emotions I wasn’t sure I wanted out yet, so I take my phone and switch it off, throwing it on my passenger seat. I take a moment to try and meditate as I think things over.

Hayley really was sick in the head wasn’t she? after all she did, after fucking one of my friends and fucking me up, with both her actions and words, she thought I’d still feel the same for her? She thought I’d still get back together with her? ‘We’re soulmates’ she said, what the fuck is soulmates? Is that the bullshit Nik and her were feeding each other behind my back?

My eyes fly open when I hear a loud honk and I watch as a black sleek Chevy Camaro parks in front of me. As if he’s the star of the show, Nik takes his time sliding out of his car and I rest my head on my back seat, trying to regulate my breathing as he walks to me, in his all black outfit.

“So what? We’re sitting in our cars now?”. I close my eyes, deeply exhale then look to my side at him feeling my heart rate slow down, I wasn’t going to let him see how much he affected me, not today.

“No, we can head in” I gesture nod my head towards the house and pull my keys out of the key hole and open my car door watching as he moves back for me to get out.

I look him straight in the eye as I slam my car door shut, he was a few inches taller than me but I didn’t care much about that today. He watches me an all concerned look on his face for some reason, by concerned look I mean I couldn’t see that stupid smile on his stupid face, he had a small frown and was just watching me. That was a weird look on him.

“That mean you finally got a couch?” he smiles, and his silver tooth shines in the night. That face is more like him.

“No” I look away from him as I turn and begin heading for the house “There’re stools in the kitchen if you insist on seating though”.

“Kitchen?”.

“Mmhm” I look back at him to confirm he’s following me “You know, the room with knives and shit” the smile on his face widens. He thought I was joking?

“It also has forks” he points me and I roll my eyes deciding that was enough small talk for tonight. I open the front door and lead the way to the kitchen in silence without much as turning the lights on. When I get to the kitchen, I have to turn the lights on, I wanted to see the fucked up man that decided it’d be fair to fuck me up.

He takes his time walking behind me and looking around as if he’s planning on moving in or something and I stand on the other side of the counter and prop my hands leaning on it trying to master up enough patience for this.

“It’s a nice place though” he shrugs to himself, nodding a bit his eyes moving around the kitchen before they finally land on me. You’d think he was nice and not sick in the head by the first look, he had somewhat deep, kind looking eyes and a kind looking smile too, wait till he opened his mouth… “So… what’s going on? It has to be serious… you want to drop out of the bet or something?”. Bet bet bet… all he ever thought of was his bullshit, his head was filled with bullshit “Alison you can’t quit even if you know you’re going to lose I didn’t raise a quitter”. See… bullshit.

“I wanna get something straight Nik…” my voice is low, almost a whisper.

“Last I checked you weren’t straight” fuck. I rub my eyes with my fore-finger and thumb in frustration as I watch him laugh and pull a stool to sit on like it’s his house. This was him though, when he was serious about something, you had no other choice but to listen and when you were serious about something he’d be making jokes and making you feel like an idiot.

“You made her break up with me by feeding her your usual BS then decided it was okay to bring her into my life right now?” I frown, he looks confused for a second but I can see as he catches on to what I’m saying so I continue. “That gift you were talking about that my friends couldn’t get me was her wasn’t it? You made her invest in my gym”. He looks deep in thought and nods to himself as if he’s having an internal conversation then he sighs and grins, if he so much as acts innocent-

“You can’t be that slow baby” he shakes his head a small frown appearing on his face. “This happened what? Weeks ago and you’re figuring it out just now?” he chuckles and I can feel the chills crawl up my neck “What other gift could I have gotten you Alison? As your father I can only get you the best of the best, an unmatched gift, something that’ll get a reaction from you”. Inhale… exhale, I close my eyes hoping I’ll see clearly when I open them and take one last breath, I don’t know why I was letting his confession affect me when I already knew it.

“You-” my voice breaks, fuck “Why do you do this?” I wanted- no, needed to know what I ever did to him.

“Do what? Plan for nothing but the best for my child?” he seemed calm as usual, a genuine inquisitive look on his face.

“No… why do you insist on fucking with me? What did I ever do to you?” I tilt my head, standing up straight and folding my arms across my chest. “You just-” inhale, exhale “You keep on messing with me for some reason and I just want to know how I wronged you and why you can’t let it go and just treat me like your fucking child for once… you-” my voice cracks again. “You made her break up with me, saw how hard it was for me, for her too but did nothing about it, you only made me feel worse by blaming it on my childish insecurities then you think it’s okay to just bring her back now? Play around with my life like it’s a fucking game-“.

“First…” he raises his voice a bit to get me to stop talking and it works. “Watch your language with me, and for fuck sake Alison I didn’t know you had insecurities like those, you can’t just blame that on me” I almost… almost laugh at how ignorant this asshole is.

“I didn’t ask her to do all that she did, I didn’t ask her to fuck around Alison, all I did was threaten her in a friendly way, I offered her two things I knew she needed, her mother’s attention and a promise that she’d end up with you as long as she ended things with you at the time and by end things, I meant really end things. I didn’t want her in your life, I needed all of your concentration, and she delivered, brutally delivered by fucking you up, but I didn’t ask her to do that” he points me, shrugging and I run a palm down my face. “She kept her end of the deal so I had to keep mine, I don’t give a shit that you don’t have feelings for her anymore, she’s your fucking problem Alison, I have to admit though, she’s a keeper if she still has feelings for you after all this time” he shrugs again and I can’t help but scoff.

This meant that I wasn’t the fuck up, Hayley and Nik were the fuck ups, I never did anything wrong to Hayley, she was just fucked up and fell for Nik’s stupidity. Hearing him speak of what he did like he’s actually proud makes me sick though. I’ve been sick of him for a long time and although I have so many un-answered questions I wanted to set a few things straight with him.

“You’re fucked up” I murmur and finally look up to meet his eyes.

“Hmm?”.

“Didn’t you hear me? I said you’re fucked up, mentally ill, screwed in the fucking brain, sickest man alive” I finally raise my voice pointing myself in the head as a gesture and watch as the smile on his face fades “You make me sick Nik, you make me fucking sick and the thought that I’m related to you makes me even sicker-“.

“Watch how you spea-“.

“Shut the fuck up!” I slam an open palm on the counter “I’m not watching anything, the way you raised me didn’t earn you any respect and you’ll never get respect from me, I’ll fucking curse when I want to” I lower my voice a bit the last part just to spite him and when he frowns I know my words hit a nerve… Good “I’ll also tell you how fucked up you are because that’s what you are” I point him.

“Alison…” he stands up from the stool “Just because you’re grown doesn’t mean I can’t fucking shut you up and teach you manners”. Ohh this gets to me, this fucking gets to me and I feel myself boiling in anger. He was threatening me, in my own fucking house too.

“Oh I dare you, I fucking dare you to lay a hand on me and I swear to the fucking heavens I’ll hurt you in ways no one ever has” I stand up straight challenging him. I wasn’t only saying this, I meant it, I had had enough and if it’s a fight he wanted, I’d give it to him. I watch him grit his teeth in annoyance, something he rarely did then look away from me. I actually made him look away from me.

“I don’t want to do this kid” he whispers still not meeting my eyes “I wanted to be nice, understanding, the supportive father, but you don’t fucking deserve that” he finally looks at me, his eyes cold. That’s more like it, I wanted him to be real with me and stop faking it, smiling and acting like he wanted the best for me when that was all a lie.

“I didn’t ask you to be either of those, hell I would’ve been fine without a father but your twisted brain thought it’d be okay to raise me in your fucked up twisted way”.

“You don’t know what you’re saying Alison, I fucking tried” he points me taking a step towards me but the counter blocks him from nearing me further “You should be fucking grateful”. I almost laugh… actually you know what, let me have this.

“Oh cammon…” I laugh “I know I’m gay and can’t get shit straight apparently but get this straight Nik, I’m not and will never be grateful for having you as a parent, if I can get that straight, you can too”. I notice him clench his jaw and even his fists to the side and it’s fine, I don’t feel threatened, this was my house and I knew where I kept the knives. “Don’t you see? don’t you see how your bullshit has messed me up Nik? Your jobs scarred me mentally, sometimes physically, then you added to the pain, you added to both the physical and mental pain and you expect me to be grateful? Are you fucking kidding me right now?”.

He scoffs, looks away from me again then runs a palm down his face, he takes his sweet time but meets my eye after composing himself and his thoughts… he sighs nodding to himself then I watch as a grin slowly spread across his face. “I had doubts that you were actually my child…” he nods “But this… this confirms it all, that’s my fire I see in you right now and I can’t even stay angry at you, damn, Alison fucking Forbes”. Was this man okay in the head? “I won’t apologize for raising you the way that I did, because it made you who you are now and who you are now is deserving of so much power-“.

“Don’t even think about starting that bull crap Nik” I point him “We’re done with all that shit Nik, the bet is fucking off I don’t want to play your stupid games anymore, you can take Hayley and go back to wherever hell you two crawled out of, just leave me alone”. I point him. Those two were the cause of my insanity and I wanted them gone.

“And why would I agree to that?” he scoffs a laughter “I don’t have any other kid if not you to carry on the Forbes name, we have real-estate businesses to run, it’s not only the trafficking you need to worry about Alison”. I let out a sigh.

“You would agree to that, because I need a break Nik, I need a fucking break from all your shit, I’ve been going through it since I was a kid, for fucking twenty four years and I’m exhausted, I just need a break, and if you won’t give it to me then I’ll give it to myself, I’m not taking any of your shit, none, I’ve had enough” I wave my hands and watch him nod to himself. I hope that means he was understanding me.

“A-“.

“I don’t need a lot from you Nik, I just need you to understand” my voice is low now as I walk closer to him never losing eye contact, I needed to get this point across, I needed him to understand that I was exhausted. He looks away and I hear as he inhlaes deeply, actually considering my words, he throws his head back then looks down at me.

“You’ve grown better than I’d expected, I’ll give you that” he nods. That was a compliment, from Nik himself to me… wow.

“I know that, unfortunately you had no part in it” I shake my head.

“That’s where you’re wrong” he points me “But I’ll let you off the hook” he raises his hands in defence, “Okay, if it’s a break you need”.

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It was… umm stressful writing this, I have chewed up all the fingernails in my right hand but here we are… anyway I’m exhausted now, both physically and emotionally and as much as Cain needs a break so do all of us, so I guess here it is… or is it? Vote and comment for the next chapter to appear it’s like a magic trick I swear.