Chapter 30

Flame’s POV.

I’m woken up by a low painful groan and someone violently turning in bed, I open my eyes to find myself in a strange looking room. It was well arranged and looked super clean which made me realize quickly that this was not Cain’s house, and second it had the most attractive looking wallpaper and not boy band pictures on the wall. My heart starts racing as I realize I’m in a stranger’s house and I don’t recall most of last night, so how the hell did I end up wherever I am?

There’s another groan and suddenly I’m very away of these arms around my waist, I look down to where I’m met with dark hair right on my face. I stretch my arms rubbing my eyes and yawning as I try to calm the hell down and recall what happened last night. The last thing I recall was Cainine trying to talk me into doing shots with her and her friends. Seems like I shouldn’t have agreed to it.

I feel like I’ve woken up enough times with Cainine like this to know that nothing good happened the night before. I groan inwardly, cursing at myself for not being able to stay away from her for some reason, it was like there was some invisible pull and I just couldn’t stay away no matter how much I wanted to.

Trust me I was fighting it so hard, the other night when she was so close to me and looking at me with those dark eyes as if I was gold, as if I was even more precious, the most precious thing she’d ever seen, I felt the pull and damn it. I hate to admit it but I wanted her to kiss me, I wanted her to claim me, but I refuse to be one of those girls she uses, not saying I’m better than them, I just don’t want to be like them.

As if to mock me, right on cue, some of last night comes back to me and I remember throwing up, I recall Cainine sweetly rubbing my back, did she do this with all her hook ups? And then the part I dread the most, I remember kissing her. I made the move… I kissed her. I cup my mouth and feel instant regret.

‘You surely put the horny in horny drunk’ a voice at the back of my head mocks me and I bite my lower lip hard ready for an argument with myself.

‘No I don’t, it was just a mistake’ I try to calm myself down.

‘A mistake that you keep on repeating, it’s like you’re doing it on purpose’.

‘I am not doing it on purpose, I was drunk’.

‘Oh but we both know you’ve kissed her sober Flamey, don’t act all innocent, you like it’.

‘Fuck you, I don’t like anything’… I was beginning to lose the argument to my own self.

‘Yes you do, admit it, you like kissing her, you like how her lips feel on yours, how rough she is at times but still holds on to you firmly like you’re the most delicate thing she’s ever touched’. Holy shit, she has a point, I palm my face feeling ashamed for no reason.

‘Yeah, maybe I do, but she does that to other girls too, holds them the same way and probably tells them the same things she tells me’ I defend knowing I already have this locked.

‘Oh my god, how dumb are you? So you think she tells them about her psycho dad and how he’s been chasing after her… It was even hard for her to tell you that, she trusts you woman and it’s clear, she has trouble staying away from you just as you do her’. I sigh, another really strong point right there. Could she be feeling the same pull too?

“I also don’t feel the same for you as I do for other girls…” her slurry words from last night hit me and I smile instantly, what did this mean? Her saying that, her saying all that she said last night, her stopping herself from doing anything with me just because she didn’t want me to think she was using me. She cared about me, she cared about what I thought and she trusted me.

What the fuck, were there feelings?… Real feelings going on here?

“Go back to sleep, you feel so tensed and stiff when you’re awake” a scratchy voice interrupts my thoughts, her words coming out as a mumble.

“I’m neither of those” I reply in a soft whisper to match her energy knowing how she gets when she’s hangover.

“Mmmh” she groans “I really want alcohol banned” she mumbles.

“Why is that?”.

“I can’t seem to stay away from it to save my freaking life, so maybe if it stayed away from my life, it would be a bit better you know” she explains and adjusts her head on my chest. Holy shit how did we get here? How did I allow it to happen? Does she have control over me?

“Yeah” I say absent mindedly.

“What? You hangover too?” she asks and raises her head slowly pulling her hands from around my waist and rubbing her neck wincing painfully. “You feeling like a piece of shit too?” she finally looks back at me, propping her elbows on the bed and resting on them then studying me, her eyes squinted and dark hair now covering her forehead.

“I don’t get hangovers” I tell her a thinking frown still on my face. It was really hard to know what she was feeling. If I knew what she was feeling it would make all this easy for me.

“Another thing that’ll get me to think you’re unreal and just some angel or some being from another universe” she casually states not knowing this will get me to smile for some reason. Damn it.

“What other things make you see that?” I ask a bit curious.

“Your taste in music… you don’t have any, it’s like you dont live in this world” she says and chuckles lowly as if in pain from the laughter.

“Seriously?” I roll my eyes, looking away from her.

“What? There’s also your ability to give me chills” she says her voice lowering and I look back at her.

“Oh yeah?”. Now I used to have control and great come backs to her stupid words and attempts to hit on me, but now it excited me for some reason and I felt like playing along just to see how far it would go.

It was wrong, I know, but I fucking wanted her and last night showed it. The lust overtook my self control and I don’t know if I had anymore. I don’t trust myself anymore.

“I don’t know what’s going on with you lately, but I love it” she whispers falling back onto the bed and closing her eyes.

“What do you mean?” could she see it?

“You’re playing with me too much and I’m not kidding, I will fuck you Sparks” she opens her eyes and looks at me and I can feel how much she meant those words. I could feel how much I wanted- ugh shit.

“Cain?” at this point I didn’t give a shit if she was hangover I needed answers.

“Hmm?” she raises her eyebrows.

“Do you remember what happened last night?” I ask and she smirks.

“Of course I do… That’s what’s bothering you? I told you you’re a horny drunk and I think you should just accept that” she says and I roll my eyes feeling a bit embarrassed but getting over it quick. That didn’t matter now, she kissed me back too.

“Not that idiot… What you told me” I tell her and the smirk disappears, she’s quiet for a minute or two as she looks as if she’s deep in thoughts then she sits up, her knees raising so she could rest her arms on them and looks right ahead at the door.

“Yeah” she whispers and ruffles her hair pushing it back off her forehead but it goes back to the same messy cute position.

“Oh” is all I’m able to say. What did that mean then? She looks back at me and I was sure we both had the same thinking faces on. The question was, were we both thinking the same thing?

“I do have respect for you sparks and I’ve come to value you” she says more to herself, nodding her head and I somehow feel warm inside. She looks so unsure of what she’s saying and I find it cute that she’s trying to be careful with her words. “Yeah and I don’t know what the fuck it is that you have that the others don’t but it just makes me want to stick around you and it’s like some magnet…”.

“Pulling me to you…” I say my thoughts out loud interrupting her just about the time, she says…

“Pulling me to you”.

Both our eyes widen, me because I didn’t expect to say that out loud and her because I guess she didn’t expect me to say that. Wait… I also didn’t expect her to say that.

“Fuck” she says and I sigh feeling frustrated. “You feel it too?” she asks, getting a bit close to me as if we’re talking of something sacred that only her and I are supposed to know of.

I nod feeling the pull again and knowing I had no control over here. The magnet had all control. Before I know it we are inches apart and her eyes are searching mine questioningly as if she had so many questions but the one that was most clear is whether I’d allow her to kiss me. I nod again not sure what I was supposed to say, I just felt like I needed her lips on mine to find words.

She gets closer and our lips touch but only for a second making my heart beat increase in rate but she moves back a bit already breaking the contact. She smiles and cups my cheek with one of her hands then brushes her thumb against my lips, parting them and rubbing my lower lip. What was going on in her mind at the moment?

“Beautiful” she whispers as if to answer me and then pulls me to her, our lips joining in what felt like the most lustful and gentle kiss. My hands go around her, one grabbing her by the hair and the other one resting around her neck and I pull her closer. I feel her smile against my lips and this gets me more excited and earns her smile from me. It was as if we were both waiting for this moment when we’d finally allow the other to know what was felt for them through the rhythm of our lips. We’d done this before but this was different, it felt different and we both knew it was different, it had a meaning behind it. Something about this felt right, her lips moving with mine in our own little rhythm, her thumb rubbing the back of my neck gently.

Then, bang bang bang!! “Wake up love birds, it’s our big day!” someone yells outside the door.

“Mmhm” Cainine mumbles not wanting to pull away and I for sure didn’t want that.

“Come on, open up, I need to shower and change, and so do you!” he yells again and I begin to pull away but she holds me in place. Damn it, she thinks I have that much strength to resist her over and over again.

I place one of my hands on her chest and start to push her back and she gives up and finally pulls away but with my lower lip between her teeth. She looks right into my eyes and sucks on it sending chills all over my body then pulls away and stands up. She looks back at a shaken looking me.

“Good morning to you too” she grins and it’s contagious because I do too.

“Good morning” I say silently and she ruffles her hair, bends getting a bit close to me.

“See, I told you I don’t bite hard” she says causing me to roll my eyes and look away then she heads for the door leaving me floating on cloud 9. I didn’t understand much of what was happening, but for now, it was enough for me to know that she felt the same magnetic pull I did. The rest we would find out and sort out later. I rub my bottom lip with my thumb smiling as I watch her open the door, her messy hair making her look more incredible than her usual self. She looked pretty incredible all the time though.

“Good morning Austin” I hear her say.

“Yeah right, it’s 1 in the afternoon, and there’s nothing good about the hangover I’m feeling” her friend responded pushing Cainine aside and walking in. “Damn, it smells like sex in here… You two fucked in my bed?”.

“Shut the fuck up” Cainine responds and I smile watching their weird exchange.

“What? It’s true” Austin shrugs then his eyes land on me. “Good afternoon pretty lady” he smiles at me and I give him a little wave smiling back.

Cainine plops on the bed laying on her back and winces. I look down at her.

“You okay?” I ask, letting it show how much I always want to know if she’s okay. Hey, I also don’t know when it happened. I just care a lot about this particular person, especially now that I know a bit about her background.

“Mmhm, I was, until he came in here and brought back my hangover somehow ” she responds.

“Shut up, I can’t let you fuck all day” Austin says and Cain sighs in annoyance.

“Can you shut up?” She asks and Austin pulls the curtains open letting an immense amount of light flood into the room even I find myself squinting. “What the fuck?” Cainine yells suddenly and sits up.

“Now that’s the spirit” Austin smiles nodding as he looks at Cain. “Now come on, let’s do this and show that fucker that we too can come up with plans!” he yells raising one of his hands and I laugh, I love Austin’s attitude and spirit amongst all of them.

He walks to the bed and stretches his hands for cain and I “Let’s do this?” he asks and Cainine shakes her head but smiles.

“Let’s do this, but I’m not touching your hand, I don’t know where it’s been” she says and I take it as a sign to lower mine that was half way to meet Austin’s.

“Fair… Fair” he nods chuckling.

I had no idea how I had ended up here in this situation, with these feelings, but today wasn’t the day to think about that. Today I would help Cainine take the first step of standing up to her past, her fear. I was glad she was deciding to face him and not run again, I was also glad she had people to help her this time and most importantly, I was glad I was here with her. Now let’s do this.

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Hey….. (in Dj Khalid’s voice) Another one. Yess another unplanned chapter for real, but after the last one, I feel like we all needed this, they needed this, I needed this and don’t you fucking lie, you did too. So shut up and enjoy my writing, press the star looking thingy and scroll on to the next chapter my fellow human. Let’s do this.

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I think my past self said it all, so just do that…