Chapter 29

Today was gonna be a very long day.

This was probably the first really bad day I’ve ever had for years. I didn’t like it one bit.

I can still remember the look on my mom’s face. It was filled with anger and disappointment; you could see how livid she was. I couldn’t blame her though. It must be a huge shock to her, especially since I was her only daughter and for years she’s fantasized about me marrying the man of my dreams.

I never understood how hard it was to come out until now. The fear within you, afraid that you won’t be accepted by your family. I never really understood it until now. I finally realized why people had a hard time coming out of the closet.

Getting kicked out of the house was the last thing I wanted to happen. It was going okay with my dad, but as I expected, my mom wouldn’t accept me like how my dad did. Though what I didn’t expect was this. I couldn’t believe that my mom can do such things like this. It broke my heart into pieces because I thought that she loved me much more and that no matter who or what gender I loved, nothing would change that.

Being angry is scary. You can hurt someone with your words and it can leave a mark. Also, you’ll regret saying those things once you’re not mad anymore. What mom said to me, will definitely leave a mark. A big hole in my heart.

As we got to Lucy’s house, I went straight to the bathroom. Stripping all my clothes off and hopping inside the shower made me clear my mind somehow. I love taking a shower because it’s one of the times I can think clearly. The hot water dripping on my skin definitely soothed me. But it wasn’t enough to distract me from all the things that had happened today and I don’t know what to do anymore.

My eyes burned and tears started to escape. As much as I wanted for them to stop falling, I didn’t have the strength to do so. My tears got washed down along with the water, making it seem like I wasn’t even crying at all.

Soft knocks appeared on the door, making me inhale through my blocked nose, not even bothering to wipe the tears.

“Yes?” I said weakly, pushing my hair back to clear my view.

“Are you okay?” A soft voice asked carefully.

“I’m fine, Lucy.” I forced my voice out, but it cracked.

“May I come in?”

At first, I was battling myself if whether I should let her in or not. I wasn’t in the mood to say no. She already saw my body before, so I kept quiet and didn’t answer.

And her knowing me, she took that as a yes and the door creaked, opening slowly. One of the things that she knows about me is that, when I don’t answer, it means yes. Silence literally means yes when it comes to me.

I closed my eyes so I wouldn’t see her coming in. I was a bit embarrassed for her to see my fragile, bare self. I was vulnerable and I hated it when someone sees this side of me.

I felt weak.

“I’m sorry you had to witness that,”

“It’s okay, Amber. I’m happy that I was there for you,”

“I didn’t expect that my mom would kick me out of the house. I saw her eyes filled with pain and anger. I didn’t want to be the reason for it.”

A pair of arms were wrapped around my bare waist, my back was pressed against her chest. She pushed my damped hair on the left side and rested her chin on my shoulder. This is what I love about Lucy.

She always makes me feel strong when I am weak. She knows what I need to feel better. She knows that I need her.

Leaning my head on her shoulder, warm lips pressed against my cheek and lingered there for more than a second.

I turned my body to face her and hugged her, our arms were encircled around our bodies. I buried my face on the crook of her neck, giving it a smooch.

“You always make my day a little better,” I sighed deeply,

“Just a little?” She joked,

I chuckled softly, “You know what I mean,” My hand caressed her back, tracing a line down her spine.

“Yes I do,” She whispered.

We stayed like that for a minute, feeling the water on our skin, feeling the heat of our bodies, appreciating the silence. We didn’t need to talk. Because sometimes we connect through silence. That’s how we also understand each other.

“Amber?” I hummed in response, looking up to meet her eyes as I dodged my face away from the water. “We love you no matter what. Your dad, Lexi, Kayla, and me. We love you for who you are. Always remember that.”

My lips parted when I heard the word ‘love’. I was just staring at her when she decided to speak again.

“Did I say something wrong?”

“You said that you love me,” I whispered,

“You think that’s wrong?”

Panic soon filled my body, “No! I-I don’t think that’s wrong, I think it’s amazing to be honest. Just shocked that you said it,”

“Well you better believe it ’cause it’s true,” She admitted.

I smiled feebly, feeling all their love. “Thank you.”

She pushed my hair out of my face and cupped my cheeks. “I know it’s hard for you right now; I know how bad this day went, but it will be alright. Everything will be alright eventually. Your mom may be mad, but she still loves you. From what I know, she seems like a good person. Give her time, maybe she just needs to process everything,”

It never fails to make you happy when you know someone cares about you.

I stared deeply into her amazing light blue eyes. The way our bodies were pressed, the way we held each other, it dawned on me that even though I was vulnerable, Lucy keeps me from being weak.

My lips connected with hers, not bothering how slippery our lips were. This is how we also connect. My hands roamed around her back to her neck, as for hers, her hands were on my stomach and placed it all the way up to my chest. I will never get tired of kissing her. She tugged on my lower lip slowly. Her presence made me feel secure.

It’s like she’s my weakness and at the same time my strength. She was my safe haven and there’s no place I’d rather be than in between her arms.

She was my home.

“You know that I also love you, right?” I spoke, pulling away and feeling better than a while ago.

“Maybe,” She teased with a smirk,

“You also know that you’re amazing, right?”

“Oh, that I know,” She said confidently. I rolled my eyes at her ego but gave her a sweet smile nonetheless.

“Thank you, Lucy,” I said,

“You’re welcome, Amber.”

Pushing my sadness away, I decided to lighten up a bit. “You know, you really wanted to see me naked, huh?”

“Oh please, I’m just doing you a favor. I know that my naked body always makes you feel better,” She commented back.

I mean… She’s not wrong.

“I made you wet,” I joked, scanning her beautiful body.

“Pretty sure it’s because of the shower” She stated the fact, ignoring my lame pun. I looked at her dead in the eyes.

“You got wet first. So clearly I made you wet and I wasn’t even in the room awhile ago. You must be thinking of me all the time,” She smirked, rubbing her thumbs below my breasts, teasing me.

I slid my hand on her butt and gave it a squeeze, winking at a slightly shocked Lucy.

So maybe our little moment became a little- okay not so little make-out session.

She pushed me against the wall, closing the gap between us, her body so close to mine, that I’m feeling her every curve. Our kiss was a bit rough, her hands getting tangled in my hair. She parted her lips and our tongues danced together. Our hands were all over our bodies, enjoying each other’s touch. She pulled away and touched my neck with her lips. She left a trail of kisses from my jaw all the way down to my collarbones. I can feel her mouth sucking on my neck, leaving light marks.

I threw my head back on the wall as I enjoyed the pleasure it’s giving me. She bit me in the neck which caused me to jump in surprise.

What’s up with this bathroom and why have we been making out here lately?

“Ouch!” I winced, flicking her forehead. “That hurt!”

“I know. I just got overwhelmed by your cuteness,”

“So you bite me hard?”

“Yup!”

“Unbelievable.”

“Love you too!” She grinned.

Seeing the smile on her face definitely made me smile a little as well. I pecked her lips and spoke, “I know you do.”

My body was more refreshed after staying in the shower for an hour. Lucy lent me a clean pair of PJs and an oversized hoodie with a stitch design. She set up Netflix on the TV, searching for movies to watch all night. We were upset that we didn’t get a chance to take our pasta and give it a taste. I bet my dad’s eating most of the pasta already.

“Want me to order burgers?” She glanced up from her phone.

“That’d be great,” I smiled.

Before she could dial the pizza’s number, the door cracked open, revealing the two lovebirds with bags on their hands, wearing a grin on their faces.

“Did somebody say sleepover?!” Lexi screamed, causing the three of us to put our hands on our ears.

“Lex! What are you guys doing here?” I said dumbfounded.

“Your dad called me and told me what happened, and we went here as fast as we could to be there for you and tell you that we love you, Amber.”

My eyes burned, my lips quivering, “All of you are amazing,”

“You’re amazing. That’s why you didn’t deserve what happened awhile ago.” Lexi’s face became serious. I could see that she’s also worried about me.

“It’s okay. What matters is that you’re all here and I’m happy,” I took her hands and embraced her tightly.

“I love you so much, Amber.” She muffled in my hair.

“I love you too.”

“Hey, Ambs, why don’t you give me a hug too?” Kayla called out.

Snickering, I let go of Lexi and put my arms around her girlfriend. “Do you want me to say ‘I love you’ too?”

Her head bobbed up and down. “Love you, Amber. We’re always here for you,”

“Thanks, Kay. Love you too,”

“Hey! What about me?” Lena appeared at the door with a frown. “Don’t I get a hug too?”

“I’m good,” I snorted. She frowned even more, creating lines on her forehead. “Fine, come here,”

Her face lit up, grinning as she crashed into my arms. “You’re always here and we became pretty close. Just wanna tell you that I accept you for who you are and love you,”

Whenever I go here to hang out, Lena always joins us. We don’t mind and we’re happy to hang out with her. She’s annoying like her sister, but she’s a good kid.

“Since when did you become so sweet?”

“Just today, Lesbo. Just today,”

I snickered, “Just today then,”

“Yo, Ambs?” Lexi spoke,

“Yup, Lex?”

“Your dad told me to bring the pasta you’ve cooked, it’s downstairs. Of course, he took some for himself,”

“I don’t know with you guys, but I wanna try that pasta.” Kayla scooted out the room, followed by Lexi who’s shoving her girlfriend to the side so she can taste it first. Then comes Lena who muttered ‘kids’ to herself.

“Hey, let me and Lucy eat first!” I heard the lovebirds yelling ‘first come first serve’. I lowered my head as I laughed softly. I saw Lucy staring at me with a genuine smile, mouthing an ‘I love you’. My smile widened at all the love I’m feeling today.

Who would’ve thought that this day would turn out to be pretty amazing?